I stood there, facing the gun, helpless in front of the people I loved the most.

"Why aren't you scared?" Ock said, shoving Tre to the ground. He tried to act like it didn't hurt.

I swallowed and took a deep breath in, then slowly exhaled.

"Scared? You don't know scared. I'm terrified. I want to cry, I want to beg, I want to scream. But I won't. I won't let these people pay for my debts. So don't ask me why I am not scared. My knees feel like they're gonna fall from under me. My throat feels dry, my eyes watery. Don't tell me I'm not scared. Only a fool wouldn't be scared."

Doc Ock just looked at me. "You're fucked up in the head, kid."

"We're fucked up, but we're not the same. And mom and dad are the ones you can blame." I sang.

He walked closer, making sure the gun was still ready.

A tear dripped down my cheek. "Can't you see I'm scared to die?"

Doc Ock took the gun from She-Line, who was shaking.

"They say to challenge your opponents heart, and not his strength." He said.

And he pointed the gun at Billie Joe.

"I have no soul, Jimmy. I have no heart. I only know pain and suffering, which is what you shall feel when you die. First, you will have the guilt, then the pain, then the insanity. And once it's all over, you'll be asking me for the gun so you can put the bullet in your own head."

Doc Ock walked back a few steps, leaving a big space between Billie, Mike, Tre, Nikki and himself.

He stuck the gun out.

No...

He put in fresh ammo

I have to do something...

He put his finger on the trigger

No...NO...NO!

As the sound of the gunshot echoed through New York City, I jumped as far as my weak legs would allow me to. I started screaming.

Once the bullet hit my body I was thrown backwards and I rolled a few times until I was a few steps from the roaring harbor.

The pain was unbearable. I can't describe it. I was like nothing I ever felt before.

I could hear my heart pounding inside my head, and I could taste my own blood.

It felt as if death and life were fighting over my soul, playing tug-of-war with my body.

I felt myself twitching and flinching.

Spider-Man had untied everyone as I had been talking with Doc Ock, and they surrounded me a few moments after the reality of what I did hit me.

Everyone held my hands.

"Jimmy...what did you do..." Spider-Man managed.

I smiled. I realized this was all I wanted. This was all I had been looking for. To be loved.

"Wherever you go, you know I'll be there," I choked, taking lyrics from his song Poprocks and Coke. "I'll go anywhere."

"So I'll see you there." Mike, Billie and Tre said at the same time, completing the lyrics.

I smiled and started at each one of them, making sure I saw them before I closed my eyes.

"It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right." I sang.

Then, all together, singing a song that carried out through the entire world,

"I hope you had the time of your life."