Dear Chakotay,
You will never receive this letter. For I have no intention of allowing you to read it. Why I am spending my time writing something no one will ever see, I do not know. But I feel that I must. If I can't tell my feelings toanyone else, I will tell them to this piece of paper.
I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
This song helps me describe the way I feel about you. Alone by Heart. Alone, that is what I am and probably, all that I ever will be. For when we get out of the Delta Quandrant, I will spend my days regretting why I never told you all this, why I never gave you this letter. But I know I cannot do that. I am captain of this ship and I must follow protocols. I must not let my feeling take over. I can't.
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
I can't get you alone. Although I long to. I long to lean into your embrace, kiss you tenderly and passionately and let a relationship develop strongly between us, but that cannot happen. I can't allow it to.
You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was gonna tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
My secret, buried deep inside of me will always be mine, always. My heart is pleading with me to let you in but I can't. I can't do it, not here, not now. I just can't.
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
I'm sorry Chakotay if I misled you. I hope you can understand why I let nothing happen between us. But why would you understand, your never going to read this letter. Never.
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone
Damn you Kathyrn. Damn you for falling in love with your first officer.
Love,
Kathryn