You need to hear him say it, and you know he won't. You don't know why you need his confirmation, like it's some sort of award you've won. You have said it to him a million times because you need to reassure him, (and yourself) that you do. You wonder why he has never said it. Perhaps he cant, perhaps she ruined all chances of it ever happening again. Perhaps he doesn't want to, or maybe he just feels it's the wrong time.
You are determine to hear him say it, you just need to know that he does, that you are different than everyone else, that he has let the walls down the surround his heart. You just need to hear those three words from his mouth, how can they be so hard to say
You walk into his office, full of courage but one look from him and you already know the answer. He can't. You walk up to him
Do you love me?
No
Lie to me
Yes