Hey People

Thank you reviewers for getting me to come out of my writing shell and helping me with ideas and input :).

I was really excited about this chapter because it came to me so easily, and anything goes. IT'S MY LONGEST CHAPTER (well... there might be longer ones in the future, but I'm no fortune teller!)

Disclaimer: The only thing I own of any importance is my future gazing crystal ball, and that comes nothing close to owning The Outsiders, WHICH I DONT!

Pony POV

I was walking down the street as usual, a normal day. Darry and Two-bit in front, with Steve and Soda walked behind, I was in the middle, all alone. I was wishing so hard for Johnny, that I must have screamed it out loud.

"Johnny, I need you, Please come back" The boys all looked over to me, and stared. I saw the anger build in Steve and Sodas eyes.

"Pony, it's all your fault, you killed him, why would you wish for him back" Steve and two-bit said in unison.

Soon all the boys started to chores "It's your fault, you killed him. It's your fault, you killed him" They were getting louder and louder.

I saw Johnny's burned body in the distance, crumpled up like they day those drunk Soc's got him.

He slowly got up, and I went over to comfort him, still the chorus in the background. He whispered something like "you killed bob" but I wasn't sure if I had heard it right.

Johnny looked at me with a blank expression, suddenly scared, he ran into the circle of light under the street lamp. I saw three police officers shooting in all directions. They turned to me, and gave me a gun. The trigger pulled without control.

Dally crumbled to the ground leaving Johnny upstanding behind him now joining the chorus. The words had changed.

All the boys had anger in their eyes and we all yelling "It's your fault, you killed them, it's your fault, you killed them"

Dally got up from the ground and pointed at the road, with the same fear in his eyes Johnny had a second before. I saw a car and my parents' were in it. All I wanted to do was hear their voice again.

I ran up to it and got in the drivers seat. The Keys turned the ignitions, and the car started in neutral.

Dad was patting me on the back as if to say good job, as the voices in the back were screaming louder "It's your fault, you killed them, it's your fault, you killed them".

The clutch pushed itself in and the gears changed. I watched it go from 1 to 2, 2 to 3, 3 to 4, then 4 to 5, and the car was speeding way to fast for the roads speed limit. All the noises got louder, and dad was still encouraging me. I tried to explain that I wasn't doing it, but he didn't listen.

We kept on going. The scenery changed but the voices and faces were still beside me, dally still with that fearful look in his eyes, pointing at the car from the outside where all the guys were standing and chanting their song.

I drove us right into the accident. I got out and a collapsed dad took my place, mum in the passengers seat.

Dally's eye changed awful quickly, and anger rose in him. He looked at me and joined the chant. Now screaming "It's your fault, you killed them ALL! It's your fault, you killed them ALL!"

Mum and dad got out the car, almost looking like corpses. They started to shake their head, not saying a word.

I walked to soda and tried to explain what happened, he continued his chant and turned his head, ashamed of me. I went to my older brother for comfort and he, like Soda was ashamed.

I stood in front of the group and crumbled to my feet.

"I'm sorry guys" I whispered. They mustn't have heard, so I repeated it a bit louder

"I'm sorry guys" I tried to explain and they didn't let me.

"Sorry" They didn't care. They wouldn't care. It was all true, I did kill them. I killed them all. The only reason the boys aren't angry about bob is because they didn't know I killed him. I stabbed him. I burned Johnny with my lighter and cigarette, I shot dally with my gun, I killed mum and dad in my stupid car accident.

"Sorry" I said again, not expecting forgiveness.

"Sorry mum, dad, bob" Everyone was right, I did kill them.

"Sorry Dally" I begged turning to him, hoping for my last chance of forgiveness.

"Sorry Dally, Sorry Johnny" I begged, knees on the floor.

I started crying into my hands. I was crying so hard I could barely breath, screaming for air I was woken by strong hand and a sudden jolt.

Tears streaming down my face, my brother, my Soda hugged me with a silent promise, to never let me be scared again.

"I'm sorry Soda and Darry. Please forgive me I didn't mean to" I said once again hoping for forgiveness, but Soda misunderstood.

"It's not your fault you have nightmares baby. We love you. Do you remember your dream?" He said in his clam relaxed voice.

I shook my head in fear that any more words would make me weak and cry. A shiver went down my spine as I shrugged to show my eldest brother. He wouldn't see a head shake.

I really didn't remember my dream, only the dread of not getting forgiveness from my best buddies and closest friends. I had a little recording playing in my head, repeating 'it's your fault'.

Hey guys n gals, I have good news and bad news, take your pick on which one to read first.

GOOD NEWS:I found a line on fanfic that separates the writing, as you can problem tell :):)

BAD NEWS: I put different sized fonts on ALL the writing to make it interesting, but it doesn't show up on the Fanfic :'( Just imagine that when Ponyboy gets more frightened and impatient for forgiveness, his voice gets louder, and when he begins to loose hope, his voice goes faint.

I hope you understood Pony's dream, and enjoyed reading this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing it!

Thank you to all my reviewers for Everything you have done for me (which sure is a helllofalot) :)

My next chapter will be up sometime this month if I get a good enough idea to write about... and if my end of year exams don't stress me out too much :)

Thanks for sticking with me

Melchick