I called him. He told me the truth. He does kill sometimes. He didn't say if he liked and I doubt very much he does. But he might. I can't believe I loved him! I can't be with someone who kills innocent people. Never.
But part of me still loves him. As just a friend or a true boyfriend, I don't know. But I know my heart still belongs to him. And I guess it always will.
We talked for a couple of hours, first about whether he does kill. Then once that was done, we talked about what we were going to do about our relationship. He suggested meeting and talking in person. I said I would need a couple of weeks first to sort out my feelings. He understood and said he needed time too.
I think he might suggest never seeing each other again. Not only as boyfriend and girlfriend, but as regular friends as well. I couldn't live with that. He's my best friend. I need him in my life.
He said he would call when he was ready to meet. I have to go figure out my feelings for one John Allerdyce.