Confessions of a councilor. This chapter will be a little more serious than the others ones, but this should be the only exception. Special thanks to BOBETTE! Ahaha. I 'did' have more reviews until this story was removed for no obvious reason. I even sent and email to staff asking why but I didn't get a reply (it rhymes -;;)

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With Leah asleep, and not feeling like talking to any of the others today, Sarah decided to check out Elrond's 'secret' library again. Traipsing off through the halls of Imladris made Sarah think for no particular reason. She hadn't looked back since that fateful day when she was traveling in the bus with her friends. She hadn't thought of any of her family or friends. Memories of her life before came flooding back to her and suddenly, Sarah felt very week in the knees. She didn't want to think of that. When she was younger, she used to become quite upset at the idea of impermanence in the world, but slowly, as the years passed on she learnt to accept the fact. Those thoughts only entered her mind when she was tired, and usually she pushed them back out, but today, she couldn't. Her parents called it a monkey mind. Just like a monkey, her mind would jump about the place, and things would suddenly become quite overwhelming. Her brain would work faster and faster until her mind was full of memories and that resulted in her becoming sick. It had only happened once, but Sarah never wanted to go through that again.

Wonders of wonders, her feet managed to lead her to the library again. Running through, she went straight to the curtains and into the passage before, not caring if anyone was there, just wishing to seek peace. As she reached the top library, she calmed down slightly. Stopping, she took in a deep breath and tried to steady herself. Walking slowly around, she browsed the shelves until she found a suitable book. Eventually, her eyes came to rest on a small leather bound book. Opening, she was delighted to find a fairytale book. Climbing a shelf ladder at the back of the library, she found a small retreat that she guessed was a lounging spot. Sitting down with her back against the wall, she had full view over the whole library. She opened the book and started reading. Somehow the fairytales had a soothing effect on her mind. The stories were simple and innocent, just exactly what her mind longed for. She became so engrossed with the stories that she didn't realize another figure enter the library. It was Erestor.

When Erestor entered the library, he knew that someone was around. Looking around, he spotted Sarah at the back of the library in a special space cleared out on top of one of the giant bookcases. Shaking his head in amusement, he realized that Sarah had no idea that he was here. He decided to leave her to herself and he walked to a small desk near a painting and pulled out a small leather-bound book and a quill. Pausing a bit, Erestor looked at Sarah and then started writing. This went on for a few hours while Sarah in complete oblivion, read the book.

Sarah sighed slightly as she finished the book. She stretched and put the book down. Deciding to look around the library once again, she climbed down the ladder with the book in hand and walked over to the side of the library. She gave a start when she saw Erestor working at the desk. He looked up and saw her there and laughed.

"Sorry if I startled you. You were too engrossed with your book to see me come in!" he said.

"When did you come in?" Sarah asked incredulously.

"Only a few hours ago," Laughing, Sarah put her book on the desk.

"What are you doing Erestor?" she asked curiously.

"Nothing really," he said quickly as his shut his book.

"Riiiiight!" Sarah laughed.

"Oh, before I forget, Leah was looking for you at lunch." Erestor said with a grin.

"Really? I better go and find her before she kills me!" said Sarah as she picked up the book on the table. "Thanks Erestor!" And Sarah went to put the book back. As she walked to the shelf she had picked the book up from, she opened the book to see who the author was so that she might find more of his books. Instead of finding the fairytales, she saw written notes about Imladris and the people. Her eyes came across her name, and the names of her friends. Erestor picked up the book on the table, and opened it once again. To his horror, he saw fairytales instead of his notes. Picking up the book, he rushed to where he saw Sarah go.

"Sarah, you've got the wrong book!" he almost yelled. He saw Sarah standing with her back to him. Turning around, she said,

"I know!" Closing his eyes, Erestor said under his breath,

"Oh sweet Eru!" Dropping the book on the floor as she moved back slowly, she said quietly,

"Why, why are all of us in your book? How come you have everything I've ever said to you is written in your book. How come there are drawings of my friends and I in there. How come there are notes in there about all of us. How come Erestor?"

"Do you really want to know?" he asked softly. Sarah nodded.

"Not only am I Lord Elrond's chief councilor, I'm also what you could call, a spymaster, not that there is much need for one though. I know everything that happens in Imladris for it is my duty. Lord Elrond knows you are not of this world truly, but he did not see it fit to ask you more about it. He laid upon me the task to find out about you and your friends."

"That's why you said it would be useful, when we went to see Jeff last night. I didn't understand why, but now I see." Erestor nodded. "So then, are we some specimens to be studied and observed?" said Sarah, hurt. "To be recorded and experimented with..?" She started walking to the exit of the library.

"No, that is not true, but we had to know more about you. We had no idea who you were, or if you were dangerous!" Erestor began angrily. Sarah stopped. Turning around slowly, she said,

"I know," and then she fled. Shaking his head angrily, he collected his book and then walked out after her. Already, Sarah's mind was in a whiz, and became overloaded. She ran straight to her room, locked the door, and went to sleep.

Erestor made his way to Elrond's study with a weary sigh. He knocked and a voice said,

"Come in." Entering, Erestor went to the desk in the middle of the room.

"They aren't a threat m'lord," Erestor simply said. Elrond knew better than to question his councilor. Although Erestor was young in terms of an elf, he held wisdom beyond his years. Elrond nodded.

"Another thing m'lord, Sarah seems to have found out about what I'm doing. She seems to have taken it the wrong way! I'm a little worried about her."

"I'll send someone down later to check up on her. I expect she is just thinking things through." Erestor also knew not to question his lord. Thanking him, he made his way back out and headed to the dining hall. He found Leah sitting their talking animatedly to Jeff and Kyo. Excusing himself, pulled Leah off to the side and asked her,

"Have you seen Sarah?" Shaking her head, Leah noted the worried look on Erestor's face.

"What is wrong?" she asked, she herself starting to become worried.

"I think she might be a little upset! She ran away suddenly. I sensed something about her. She wasn't her right self this afternoon." Leah suddenly gasped.

"Did she seem a little err, pre-occupied with something on her mind?" Nodding, Erestor noticed the distress that appeared on Leah's face. She rushed off and Erestor had a hard time keeping up with her. She made her way to Sarah's room where a maid was standing outside.

"No one's answering m'lady," the maid said to Leah.

"That's ok," Leah said in a rush as she rushed to her own door. The maid nodded and walked away. Leah rushed in through her room and almost knocked down the door that joined Sarah and her room together. She found Sarah asleep under her quilt. Sarah's face had turned a sickly colour and she was sweating. Leah turned around and saw Erestor there looking horrified at Sarah's sudden change.

"You, out!" Leah said as she pushed him out of the room. Leah rushed to the small bathroom ensuite and grabbed a flannel and wet it. Wringing out the excess water, she walked over to Sarah's bed and put it on her face. She pulled the covers back down and she pushed away all the wet hair and Sarah's forehead.

"Poor soul," Leah said to herself. "It must be horrible to go through this again!" She walked back to her own room and opened up the door. She saw an extremely concerned Erestor on the other side. Walking into her room, she pulled the door. Erestor asked,

"What's wrong, why is Sarah like that? It's all my fault!" Motioning for Erestor to sit down, Leah began to tell Erestor.

"Don't worry, it doesn't have anything to do with you. Sarah is an extremely thoughtful person. Infact, before we came here, Sarah was our guardian angel. She would listen to everyone's problems and do all in her power to help us. Her mind becomes over-loaded. This has happened to her once before when her younger sister was tragically killed, and she was ill for a couple of days. Everything becomes daunting and she can't cope with her surroundings. I wasn't there when it happened, but she told me later. She said it was the most painful thing in her life!" Leah swallowed. Erestor nodded. He realized it wasn't a physical pain, but a mental pain. They were interrupted by the sound of running water. Leaping up, Leah closed the door in front of Erestor's face. She ran to the bathroom and saw Sarah walk out soaking wet in her clothes. Before Leah could say anything, Sarah said,

"It's ok. I had one of my spells but it's ok, it's ok, I'll be fine!" Sarah staggered to her bed and sat on the edge, her head in her hands. Leah grabbed a towel, and the rushed over to Sarah. She wrapped Sarah in the towel.

"Have a cold wash. It will refresh you, you know that." Nodding, Sarah grabbed some clothes and headed off to the bathroom. Turning around, she smiled in thanks.

"Hurry up. Silly girl, having a shower in her clothes!' Laughed Leah. Shaking her head, Sarah closed the door while yet again, Leah opened up the door but instead of just Erestor there, Elrond, Izzy, Glorfindel, Kyo, Jeff, Elrohir and Elladan were all standing there.

"Will she be alright, will she be alright?" chorused the twins. Nodding, Leah closed the door behind her. Everyone sighed in relief.

"Sarah just needs a rest. She's fine, just a little over-whelmed at the moment. A few days' time and she will be right as rain!" A little confused, everyone stood there. Beaming in reassurance, Leah bustled everyone out.

"I don't think Sarah would be too happy if she knew you were all here. She just wants to sleep without the interruption of everyone!' Relenting, everyone except Erestor and Glorfindel left.

"What's wrong with you two lads? Didn't you hear what I said?" Leah asked.

"I know what she's going through!" Glorfindel said while Erestor said,

"And it might be my fault, so I have to stay!" Glorfindel looked at Erestor in amusement while Erestor looked all innocent.

"Indeed?" Sarah asked sleepily. Her hair was all wet but she had a towel around her shoulders to stop it from wetting her night-gown. Leah rushed up and ushered Sarah back to her room while Glorfindel and Erestor followed.

"Can't we have a little privacy anymore? This girl needs sleep!" Leah argued. Laughing, sat on the side of Sarah's bed making Sarah bounce up off the bed. Giggling, Sarah allowed herself to be tucked in by Leah. She watched in amusement while Leah tried to get Glorfindel out of the room.

"So, it really wasn't my fault then?" Erestor asked in a whisper.

"Nah, it wasn't. Just an information overload." She grinned and settled down sleepily. Erestor sighed in relief and awkwardly grinned at Sarah happily before bidding her goodnight. He looked in amusement as a blush rose from Sarah's cheeks as she pretended to have fallen asleep. He pulled Glorfindel out of the room and bid Leah goodnight. Laughing, Leah pulled her cover from her own bed, and brought it into Sarah's room and put it on the window seat.

"I'm camping here for the night," Leah said as she turned off the night. Sarah made a noise sleepily, but was unable to disagree. Slowly, sleep over took her senses and Sarah fell into a peaceful slumber.