Last Chapter: On the very far swing was a person. That person was Lena.
Default: I don't own That 70's show or anything else I talk about in my story. Although, Lena is an original character of mine!
I hesitated, wondering if walking up to Lena in such a weak state was a good idea. She looked up noticed me and all hope was lost. I couldn't just walk away right now and still have the same reputation I'd always had with her. I don't know why, but I do know that walking away is for cowards.
I approached Lena carefully. She was swinging slightly and the rusted metal groaned as she pushed back and swung forward. My footsteps were heavier now and she continued to stare at me approach. Lena froze. Well, she didn't really freeze; she just lost all emotion and stared at me.
"What do you want?" She muttered. She cast her gaze downward and continued to swing. I stood there, at a loss for words and watched her. I think she felt me staring because she was curling her toes, which she does when she gets nervous. I felt as if I should do something so I walked over and sat down next to her. The swing groaned and I began to rock slowly.
"Did you feel it too?" She whispered after a while. I stopped and turned to look at her. She was still watching the ground but she too had stopped swinging. I coughed and looked out towards the playground. There was no one else around for miles. It was nice.
"I mean…did we just loose it?" Lena asked.
"I don't know what happened," I responded.
"It like there's no more…" She paused and turned towards me.
"Mystery," I finished for her.
"Yeah," she said softly. I stared at her and she smiled. Her smile always stretched from ear to ear, but not today. This time it was barely noticeable. I sighed and looked up at the sky to find the right words for what I was about to say.
"Why Kelso?" I asked. Lena's smile faded and she looked away.
"I don't really know why I would choose him. I guess…" She paused and kicked some gravel from the ground, trying to find the right words. She chuckled.
"I guess it was because he was so random and unpredictable. You just…you never know," She finished with a larger smile. I nodded and allowed myself to smile a little for the fact that Lena was finally getting something she deserved. And I don't mean that in a bad way. I want her to be happy, I really do.
"Did you…" She stopped and turned to look at me again.
"Did I what?" I asked. I knew she meant did I do it with Jackie, but I was unsure about a lot of things and didn't want to go risking another argument.
"That girl…did you have sex with her after you found out about Kelso and I?" She got softer as she continued to ask the question.
"No. I mean, I saw you two together and I wanted to. I wanted to really badly. But, when we were together and I thought of you and Kelso and how much I wanted to get back at you…I couldn't," I cleared my throat and looked over at her. She was watching me and I guess in a way she seemed relieved.
"Thanks Steven," She replied softly. I smiled at her.
"What's her name?" She asked curiously. I laughed and started to push harder on the swing.
"Jackie," I said. Lena nodded and also began to push her swing. She caught up to me and we continued to talk as we passed each other.
"Do you like her?' Lena yelled out as she passed me.
"What?" I called to her as she went behind me. I tried to follow her with my eyes but I was a little afraid of falling off.
"Do you like her," She screamed out louder. I thought for a minute and my smile started to swallow my face as I realized something. Yes, I do like Jackie. I really like Jackie. Maybe that's why I want nothing to happen to her and Alexis. Maybe that's why I feel the need to never let them be alone again. Maybe, the whole reason I was brought to the park was to realize that I felt for Jackie.
"Yes," I shouted. I shouted it again and again and the smile never left my face. Lena laughed at my stupidity and smiled at me.
"Good for you Steven. You deserve it," She said to me as we both began to slow down. I knew she meant it too because now that we had both come to terms with everything we both knew that we want the best for each other. Through thick and thin, the ones you love or the ones you loved will always be there to wish you the best and hope you do well in everything.
I know I'm not really allowed to act like this because it might dent my reputation and my character might fall in the face of others but at the moment I don't care. Love can do that to people. Make them seem like fools. I felt like I could be a fool in front of Lena because I was fool in love for Jackie.