Pain and Love Don't Mix Well

SETTING: Castle Rock during Piggy's death

STARTING POINT OF VIEW: Maurice

He pulled the lever with his usual grace. The look on his face was priceless. Pure sadistic pleasure shone over his face as the boulder charged down. Everyone knew Piggy wouldn't be able to get out of the way in time. I couldn't help but feel glad at the thought. I was getting sick of him. And it made Roger happy.

I just wish it was me that made him happy. I wish I could make him grin like that. That he could seem human for my sake. I don't know what it is that I see in him, but I feel I have to be his. I don't even want to try to control him. No matter how he felt about me, I know it would be painful. But worth it. Hell, I'd like him to cause me pain, just to see him grin, even if it was a horribly sadistic one. Just to give him pleasure.

I get out of my trance as blood is splattered everywhere. Ew. I'm covered in blood from that fatty. Roger, still grinning, looks down at me. At least, that's what I thought until I heard a voice right next to me say "Good job, Rog!" He was grinning a Jack. I hung my head low at the disappointment as everyone else cheered. When I brought my head back up, Ralph was gone. I was being unusually ignored by everyone today, which made me even more depressed. Roger was gone too. I sighed and retreated to the woods. I wanted to be away from them. From everyone.

"Hey Maurice." A voice called from behind the trees quietly, calmly, in a way that sent a shiver up my spine.

"Who is it?" I called back weakly.

"You, don't know? I'm hurt."

"Hey Roger"

Suddenly he appeared right in front of me. I gasped slightly in surprise and he just stared at me. But not with the same cold look he normally possesses…

His hand went up to my cheek and caressed it gently. As soon as I began to lean into the touch, he moved his hand away.

"Don't get involved with me. I'll just hurt you." He said with a twinge of pain in his voice.

"But-"

"No. I don't wanna hurt you. You're the only one I don't want to hurt."

"I don't care! I just want to be with you!"

He kissed me harshly and painfully, then pulled away, leaving my lower lip slightly bleeding.

"That's what you want? Cause that's all I can give! I'm a monster! Trust me, you want to just stay away!"

My eyes began to well up and I was filled with emotions I didn't recognise or like. I backed away slowly at first, then broke out into a full run. Away from him. Away from everyone.

Roger's POV

I really hate myself. I love pain and suffering, yes. But I love Maurice too. He's the only person I've ever loved. But I can't have them together. It's that simple. And, really, I don't deserve him or his love because of that. And he's crushed now, but he'll get over it eventually. If I hadn't pushed him away, it would have never ended. I know I can get carried away easily. For the first time in my life, I would feel guilty…

It was getting dark. I walked back to camp, feeling prideful yet ashamed.

TBC… Maybe? I could leave it as a oneshot, but…

AN: At first it was gonna be a JackRoger, but I love Maurice and the idea of him being with Roger, so I created the first RogerMaurice. It was going to be fluffy too, and it might end up that way. All my chapter stories have gone to hell, so I was gonna just leave it as a oneshot. But this is too short for that and I have a really good feeling about this one. Btw, the descriptions are taken from the 1963 movie. Just cause a) Maurice isn't in the 1990 movie and b) I've grown onto the idea of Roger being blonde.

BUT I will stop my rambling and demand that you all REVIEW!