Guesses
I'm
sick of you
I'm tired of you
I want to scream and run and
cry
but not for you
no longer for you
the one who made
my day
everything perfect
life was worth living
has
gone.
left.
departed.
leaving me soulless
I cant bear
to talk
use anymore of my words for you
no its not your
fault
it never was
we were just never meant
never meant
or never felt
what it was to be
I guess I don't need
you
I thought I did
but I guess
I was wrong
I'm
always wrong,
wouldn't it be easier if I just wasn't
there
gone.
forgotten.
like death.
only acknowledged when
I affect you
but I never affect you
I am death
and you
are immortal
I shall never come for you
and you shall never
meet with me
this is how I am fated.
to be plagued
forever
by love forgotten
mangled in
hope.
suffocating.
dieing.
I will come for my
self
someday
soon.
hopefully.
carry me away.
I have
lost all that I love
why try to hold on
life is pointless.
there maybe a future
but hopelessness is in
it
meek
they will hate me
now the bitter chalk
fills
my mouth
the sickening feeling
I am disgusted with myself
how
can I just give up?
simply.
as I fall asleep
will I
wake
to live
again
through the pain
I put myself
through
life is so great
how can I will myself to
go?
easily.
cracked skull
pierced skin
tortured
body
death
but that wont bother me
because my mind
and my
heart died a while ago
along with my trust
I tried to trust
but
I was dropped again
you say life is unstable
but there are
those stable things
there were those stable things
but
he left
so I gave up.
ill just fall
falling
is
flying
there's no difference
one can only drag you
down
whilst the other only carries you up
life is
shit
plain and simple
they'll all hate me
I fall
back
doomed
and
dead
shunned
and
cursed
they
wonder why
why I would want.
him.
pain.
control.
beauty.
but
its all because they've never been disgusted
never been
rejected
they are loved
they know not what the plea of agony
feels like
how the cry of exhaustion burns as it crackles down
your throat
how the gasp of hatred cuts through your veins
but
more
how the silence of the unloved drugs your
mind
distorting
shielding
corrupting
I wished you had
loved me
but I no u wouldn't have
I'm to much of a high
maintenance bitch
I would have made you hate me
or made you
worry
if you would have even loved me
or ever cared enough to
worry
were just too wrong
I am death
and you are
immortal
I can never be with you
and you seem fine
without
me life is bliss
but I am called to them
I no what happens
I
no my fateaway from you
you will go on
living
while I will go on dieing
you bringing joy
me
bringing grief
they wont ever like me
no one will
they'll
all forget
or shut me out
now ill shut my self out
my
mind out
for I no I'm killing you
listening to my
torment
goodbye
me (june 5 , 2006)