Beginning of the End Chapter 2: Out of Control, a gravitation fanfic

Wow third chappie. I'm really cranking these things out aren't I. Yeah I'm so proud of myself. Anyway I don't have that much time so I going to keep the opening short.

Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation but when I become super rich I will (hoping) buy it and share it will the world (but not my Hiro) and the lyrics aren't my either they belong to Hoobastank. I just heard the song yesterday and thought it went with my story. The name of it is "Out of Control"

Author note: Still don't know where the hell I'm going with this story. Also this is my very first song fic so be supper nice.

Chapter 2: Out of Control

At first I thought everything was fine. My happy illusions were cheerfully being chipped away with all the harsh words, the threats, the sweet nothings.

I've done everything as you say
I've followed your rules without question
I thought it would help me see things clearly
But instead of helping me to see
I look around and it's like I'm blinded

Out of Control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

I walk through the park and my memories came flooding back to me like a rushing waterfall. I can envision him walking towards me, with that cold aura that surrounds him, all high and mighty. I stood in that same exact spot where we first met and reminisce.

Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you
I don't understand what you want from me

All these emotions are overwhelming me and I can feel my tears welling up again. Damn him. Only he can make me cry like this. It's not right, not fair. All I ever did was love him and try to make him happy. So why does he only make cry.

I feel like I'm spinning out of control
Try to focus but everything's twisted
And all along I thought you would be there
(Thought you would be there)
To let me know I'm not alone
But in fact that's exactly what I was

No. NO! No more tears, no more pain, no more love. I can't give anymore. I have no more…none. I rub my eyes forcing my tears to stop. I look around and felt disgusted and devastated.

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

So I did what I should have done a long time ago…run. Run as fast as I can, as far as my legs can take me. As far as I can go, until I feel like I'm going to past out.

Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you

All of the things you've said to me

I stop and grabbed on to the nearest thing to me. My chest is killing me its hurts to breathe. Where am I? I look up only to se the apartment complex I started at. How the hell did I end up back here? Why the hell did I come back here? I peer up at the darken window.

Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me

Is it a mystery?

Why must you torment me so? What kind of hold do you have on me? Why can't I escape this endless torture? I want to scream, yell, cry, 'Set Me Free" but knowing you and your selfish ways, you won't do that so I have to; I'll set myself free.

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of Control

I swallow hard gathering my courage and what else I have left in me. I have to take action, it's my turn now. I'm going to make you go through all that I had to endure, make you go through all the difficulties you put me through.

Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you

All of the things you've said to me

And I may never know the answer

To this endless mystery

Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me

As I wait for the elevator my determination is building up and strength returning to my weaken body and mind. I'm ready. I step off the elevator, quickly making my way to OUR door I reach to the top of the door frame and took the spare key that I have made. Hiro suggested that I have one made after the third time I was kicked out. Thanks Hiro. I slid the piece of metal that carried all my anger, frustration, and hatred into the slot. I enter as quietly as possible, tiptoeing over to the spot reserve for me, looking for a few items. I need: my wallet with all my important papers, my ipod, my new laptop, and a few…damn. I have to get some clothes and there're in his room. He said it's much neater to just keep them there. Damn damn damn DAMN. Ok.

I should do all the things I have to before taking that risk. So I grab the belongings I have now and place them into a backpack. I then grab my notebook I always kept on the coffee table and start writing my letter to Hiro. I'm going to tell him what a great friend he is and that he doesn't have to worry about me anymore.

Wow I didn't know I had so much to write, six pages. I rip it out and grab an envelope out of the stationary draw. I put my letter in and sealed it properly, I only want Hiro to see this, no one else. I grab my book again. He'll know how much pain I was in by the time he finish reading my letter to him. As I put the pen to the paper I find that I can't do it. I can't…I see drops of water hit the book and suddenly realize that I'm crying. I'm freaking crying again! Why? I put the notebook down and wipe my eyes. It's probably because I'm here in this place that has so much reminders of what was. I have to get out. I tiptoe towards his room and slowly open the door. I see him sleeping soundly and so many words came to me.

Cute

Sexy

Hot

Conceited

Selfish

Mean

Hurtful

Pain

Disappear

I find myself walking towards him, reaching out wanting to touch him while chanting

Disappear

I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control