On the drive home, Lorelai was very silent. She stared out of her window, silent tears rolling down her cheeks. Luke kept glancing at her every so often. After a few more minutes, he decided he couldn't ignore it any longer. He reached over and took her hand in his, making her turn her head to face him.
"Hey," he said softly. "she didn't mean all that back there. She was just upset."
"Yes she did." Lorelai whispered, wiping away a falling tear.
Luke sighed. "Ok, maybe she did. But, that doesn't mean she's right."
Lorelai just sat there quietly, not saying anything.
"You may be a drama queen, but that's one of the reasons I love you. At least you add color to your life, rather than being serious and plain. These are our kids and this is our life, we choose how we want it. Don't feel bad because this isn't what your mother wants. She knows well that she's still going to see us and Lauren and Will. Don't fret over her. She'll get over it."
"I can't please her. No matter what I do, I can't please her, and that hurts." she said quietly.
Luke carassed the top of her hand with his thumb, trying to think of something to say.
"She's just afraid she'll lose you. You guys were starting to get on good terms, and she's just afraid that it won't last."
"She's trying too hard. She's doing everything in her will power to keep me close to her. I'm not going to push her away, but I want a life as well. I love my parents, but must we go there for dinner every Friday? She's trying to make us do that by trying to get us to let her open up those accounts. And I'm not trying to keep her from the kids, I would just feel a whole lot better knowing that you or I were watching them."
"I know you would. Maybe you should just talk to her. Tell her all of this."
"I tried to Luke, I tried and all we did was fight like we always do."
"Well, then I'll talk to her."
"No, don't do that. If she won't listen to her own daughter, she won't listen to you."
"Well, then how about your father?"
"I don't know.. maybe." she replied.
To be honest, she thought if she did talk to her father, it might make things better. He listened to her more than Emily did. And he could talk sense into her, make her see what she's doing wrong and how she can fix it. She would consider it, but she wasn't going to be doing any talking tonight.
They arrived home and got out of the car. They unstrapped a sleeping Lauren and Will and carried them inside. Lorelai and Luke placed their sleeping babies in their cribs and turned the monitor on before exiting the room. They walked up to there room, Luke's arm around Lorelai's waist, and both got ready for bed. Lorelai was about to lay down in the bed when Luke came over and hugged her.
"Your mom loves you, Lorelai. It won't always be this way. This is the first argument the two of you have had in a long time. It'll get better, I promise." he said, kissing her softly.
Lorelai smiled and laid down on her side of the bed. Luke climbed in next to her and put an arm over her as he closed his eyes. Lorelai watched him as he began to fall asleep. As his breathing deepend, she said "I love you, Luke."
Luke, who was only half way asleep, heard this and replied back.
"I love you, too."
And with that, the two of them fell into a peaceful sleep.
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Two hours later, Lorelai was awoken by the sound of one of the twins crying. She climbed out of the bed sleepily and made her way downstairs to the nursery. She walked over to William's crib, reached in, and gently picked him up. She sat down in the rocking chair to feed him, but he didn't seem to be hungry.
"What is it baby? Are you just having a bad night? Yeah, mommy's had a bad night, too. You're grandma's pretty upset with me." she said to her son. "I wish we could be on better terms, but I'm afraid I don't think we'll ever be able to work out our differences. We have a pretty dark past."
Lorelai paused as she thought about all her and her mother had been through.
"No one should have the relationship I have with my mother." she continued. "That's why I worked so hard on my relationship with your sister. And that's why I'm going to work just as hard with you and Lauren. I want the two of you to be close to me. I want you guys to be able to come to me for anything. Of course, there are some things you aren't going to be able to talk to me about. Guy stuff. You have your father for that, though." she sighed as she rocked him. "Your father is a great guy. I bet you grow up to be just like him. I see a lot of him in you and Lauren. He loves you and your sisters very much. He loves me very much. I don't know what I'd do without him. He does a lot for me, for us. Sometimes I feel he's too good for me, but I'm happy to have him. There's no one else I'd rather be with."
Lorelai looked down at her sleeping son. His tiny finger was wrapped around one of hers and his little chest moved up and down with every breath he took. The moonlight shone through the window and onto his face. His eyes were closed and he looked so peaceful, so innocent. She smiled down at him as she watched him sleep.
I guess he just needed to be near me. Needed someone to calm him. she thought.
She thought about the conversation she'd just had with him. Well, it wasn't much of a conversation, more like her talking. She knew he didn't understand any of what she had said, but I guess the best person to talk to would be the one that can't give back it's opinion. She smiled down at the baby in her arms and kissed his forehead. She got up and placed him in his crib before heading up to bed.
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Luke heard a cry coming from downstairs and the shift of weight as Lorelai got up to go down to the nursery. It took him a few minutes to wake up, but he did and got up himself to go see if she needed any help. He slowly walked his way to the nursery, still half asleep. He was about to walk in, when he heard Lorelai's voice. He stopped outside the door and listened to her speak.
He listened in intently as she spoke to Will. She kept on talking and then paused, sighing. Then she started talking about him. He listened as she went on about him. A smile crept to his face as she continued. Then, after a few minutes of silence, he walked back upstairs.
When he felt Lorelai climb back in beside him, he put his arm over her and pulled her closer, kissing the side of her head.
"You're perfect for me." he said to her before going back to sleep.
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A/N: I know it was short, but I wanted to give you guys something. I'm pretty pleased with this chapter, but I would still like to have your opinion on it. Sooo, feedback! I would really like your guys's thought's on this. Thought's on everything, the chapter, the story. And I'd like your opinion on what you'd like to see happen. If I like the idea well enough, I might just write it. Your reviews are really important to me. They tell me who reads the story and what they think of it. It helps me improve my writing and makes me eager to write more. So, reviews are much loved. A little heads up: I'm going to be gone next week, so I won't have time to update then. But, I might update before I go, and definitely when I come back.
