Someday You'll Care
Authors Note: Okay, I'm going to answer the reviews, but it will be at the end of the chapter. Sorry, it took so long for this to get out. I dunno, I might answer reviews. Depends on how much time I have...
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.
Started: October 17, 2004
Finished: November 2, 2004
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Chapter Five
Shagging and Crying
Somehow Lily made it through the day, Beth would occasionally ask what was wrong, and Cherrie would look concerned. Lily sighed and with a heavy heart told her friends to back off for a while. She needed to be alone. She couldn't or rather didn't understand the depression that she had put herself into. There was really no reason to be depressed.
Potter had left her alone, she was doing well in all of her classes (including transfiguration), and she had yet to lose any points. So why was she depressed? Nothing she said or did could answer that question. Lily glanced around the Hall, her eyes landed on James. He was sitting next to a Sixth year. Their hands were intertwined and James was kissing her neck.
Lily felt something in her stomach turn. She felt, for some odd reason, mad. Was she jealous? No, she couldn't be, there wasn't a reason why she would be jealous. She glanced at them again, and imagined her jerking out the blonde's hair and making her eat it. She snapped out of the cruel vision, when Beth smirked knowingly at her.
"What?" Lily snapped, the smirk on Beth's face only grew. Lily sneered at her and continued to glare a hole through the blondes head.
"Fancy much?" Beth asked, a sense of amusement creeping into her voice. Lily blushed bright red (though she didn't know why) and averted her eyes to another target.
"I have absolutely no idea what you are taking about".
"Yes, Lily I think you do", Beth remarked.
"Beth, go back to being stupid so you don't make sense", Cherrie snapped.
Lily glanced back at James and her and Sirius' eyes met. He looked at James and Lily blushed. He smirked and raised an eyebrow. Lily looked away and stood up. She had to get to the head's room so she could do her homework.
"Where are you going?" Beth asked.
"To my room", Lily sighed, "I'll see you tomorrow."
Lily needed to think and think she would. Also the endless amount of homework would keep her busy enough. Later that night, while finishing her charms paper, she heard James come through the portrait. Not looking up she felt her heart skip a beat.
What is wrong with me?
You like him!
I do not!
Yes, you do, and you know it.
Oh, shut up! What would you know?
Obviously a lot more then you do…
Hey, buddy you're only insulting yourself here!
Am I?
Oh, go away; I don't need this right now. I need help.
Yes, you do need help, and I mean professional help.
Go away!
Fine, fine, I'm gone…
Lily reasoned with her inner voice. No matter how much it annoyed her. She couldn't like James Potter. Though it did make a bit of sense no matter how much she wanted to deny it. Yes, she admitted she might just have a crush on James Potter. It would go away like all her other crushes. She couldn't be bothered by this, and for the most part she wasn't.
"Evans?" James tried to get her attention. She wasn't looking at him, and she seemed to be in deep thought. James tried once again. He was still being ignored. No, he did not like the idea that he was being ignored, but maybe he deserved it. Getting nothing out Lily Evans was worse then her cursing him to hell.
"Evans!" James tried again and this time was rewarded with a glare, and an impatient, "What?"
"We have a head meeting today at five", James said, not looking at her. He glanced in her direction, seeing her nod her head. He sighed and walked into the bathroom, trying to decide whether or not to go and shag her senseless.
I thought you were over her (sarcastically)
Bugger off, I don't have time for this
Yes, but you do have time to fantasize about her in your bed…
Fuck you; I don't think you know what you are talking about.
Yes, I'm sure I don't know what I'm talking about. I mean, I'm only your conscience, it's not like we're the same person or anything…
Oh, shut up!
Okay, fine I'll leave if that's what yo—
FUCK OFF!
All right…
It did have a point. He was being fairly dirty with his mind. He had to stop that. He was trying his hardest to get over her, and yet it was too hard. To him letting Lily go was like telling Sirius that he never wanted to see him again. It just couldn't be done, and as far as he was getting with it, it probably wasn't going to happen. He couldn't forget Lily Evans.
But he sure as hell could try his hardest to make her life miserable. Like she was making his miserable and it wasn't right. She didn't seem to be suffering at all. She just didn't care at all about him. He was going to change that…
"Prongs, you look like shit," Sirius said bluntly the following day at breakfast.
"Thanks, Padfoot", James replied sarcastically.
"Yeah, I thought you might want to know that you look like shit", Sirius implied, either ignoring or not catching James' sarcasm.
"Okay, Sirius I think I have the point. I look like shit, happy now?"
"Yes, quite and I am glad you agree with me on you lookin—" Sirius was interrupted.
"Padfoot shut the hell up".
"What's up your ars—"
"Sirius…" James said warningly
"Well, I was just wondering what got shoved up your ar—" Sirius was interrupted again by James.
"Go snog Jena, Padfoot" Sirius stopped what he was going to say next, and glanced down the table, glassy eyed at his current girlfriend. James could tell that Jena was different. This time Sirius made an effort to show her that he cared for her.
James thought a moment and decided that Jena might be the one that Sirius ended up marrying (that is if he ever got married), she was nice enough. Her sarcasm and sometimes crisp tones made her appear as a stuck-up bitch, but James knew other wise. He also knew that she wasn't at all ditzy looking, like many of Sirius' other girlfriends had been.
James also finally admitted (though Sirius would kill him if he found out he had been checking out his girlfriend) that she was quite beautiful. Though, she wasn't perfect and James gave her some points on that. She didn't try to be. She stood at 5'8, making her two inches taller then Lily, and her long ebony hair was streaked with blonde highlights.
Those two were quite a match. James turned his head in disgust as Sirius and Jena began making out in the middle of breakfast. There went his appetite…
"Lily, glaring a hole in the back of James' head will not make him go away", Beth said gently, as if she were talking to a 3 year old. Lily rolled her eyes put her fork on the table.
"Gross… They're at it again, Lily", Beth said looking across the table at Sirius and Jena. Lily smirked and shook her head.
"What do you want me to do about it?"
"You're Head Girl, can't you make them stop?" Beth said looking a little green. Lily sighed and stood up.
"Black! No, PDA, there are first years in here. Don't you ignore me, and stop flicking me off! Black! Detention and five points from Gryffindor! Jena, come on! You're supposed to be the smart one in this relationship, and for god's sake get your tongue out of his throat--- Nobody wants to see that, please? Thank you!"
Beth and most of the Great Hall watched in amusement as Lily yelled across the room. Something she didn't usually do. That's when most figured out that something was wrong with Lily Evans. Even James got the feeling that something was wrong with her. You see normally, Lily wouldn't yell out. She'd go and punch the hell out of you if you flipped her a bird, or ignored her. So that is why most of the population at Hogwarts decided that something was wrong with Lily Evans.
"Why are people staring at me?" Lily snapped at Cherri.
"Because, you just yelled across the Hall at Sirius Black, and you didn't even punch him", Cherri replied.
"I don't care quit looking at me…" Lily hissed, her mood quickly changing from her carefree one to a mad and angry mood. Cherrie and Beth both looked taken aback at this and watched as Lily stalked out of the hall.
James saw the whole scene and quickly followed her. He dashed past Beth and out into the main hall way. He found Lily stalking to their shared quarters. He followed her to the portrait hole, and whispered the password after she had.
He hadn't even fully gotten into the room when Lily spotted him.
"What do you want, Potter?" Lily asked sounding tired. James shrugged.
"Who said I wanted anything from you", He drawled, sounding somewhat bored. She sighed and looked into the roaring fire.
"Look, I'm sorry I yelled, Sirius" She said not looking at him.
"Maybe if you had a bit more common sense, Evans, you would realize you yell at one marauder, you yell at them all" James sneered.
"Potter, if all you did was come here to yell at me for yelling at, Sirius, I suggest that you don't. I'm not in the mood and quite frankly I could care less".
With that she stalked off in the direction of her room. James grabbed her around the waist, harshly pulling her to him. He felt her stiffen and shiver slightly as her leaned down to her ear.
"Don't walk away for me, Evans". She shivered again and his tongue flickered across the base of her neck. She gasped and tried to pull away from him.
"Don't move", James commanded.
Lily whimpered softly, "James, no…"
James smirked.
"You know, you want me, Evans" James said harshly.
"No, Potter." Lily said, trying to regain her composure, trying to get away. "No, I don't believe that I do.
"Yes, Evans," He muttered, his grip on her waist tightening, "I believe that you do".
Her heart melted away, and she didn't break the kiss. Meanwhile, James had loosened his grip upon Lily. They continued to kiss and make out for a few more minutes, when James pushed her down onto their couch. It was a private dorm, after all.
Soon enough, Lily's shirt lay in one area of the room, James' in another. Lily felt James' slender, strong fingers play at the elastic on her skirt. Almost as if he cared what she thought if he took it off. Roughly, he pulled if off. She whimpered again as she lay there in her lacy bra and underwear.
"James," She said in a soft tone as his fingers played with the hooks on her bra.
"Lily," He mocked her, snapping them off. All James Potter cared about right now was a quick, easy fuck. He kissed her neck roughly.
Lily let a moan escape her closed lips, what James was doing to her was so wrong but it felt so right! She shoved him, and he hurriedly pulled his pants off. He stood in front of her, in his boxers, her with only her underwear. She tried to cover up her chest, but he pulled her arm away greedily.
James lowered himself down on top of her. He slipped her silky underwear and his own boxers off. By now, Lily had stopped whimpering. He kissed her on the lips, making it turn into a make out session with out their clothes on.
"Ready?" He asked in a rough, yet tender, voice. All Lily could do was nod.
Good," He smirked. He thrust his body into hers.
"James! Stop!" Lily pleaded. It hurt really bad.
"Too bad." He then commanded, "If you spread your legs more, it'll be easier." Lily did as she was told.
James was right, it was easier on Lily. He kissed her roughly on her lips, trying to soften the moans that were escaping her. It was working.
Lily soon climaxed. "Oh!" She cried, digging her nails into James' back. "James!" She exclaimed, panting.
He too, was panting. "Lily!" Sweat dripped from his face as he rolled off of her.
He smiled, mission accomplished. He quickly picked up his pants, pulled them on, and left. Looking over his shoulder, "Thanks for the easy fuck, Evans." He sneered.
Lily lay under her blanket on the couch and cried, and cried. Still slightly sore, she stood up and put her clothes back on. She had just fucked James Potter. Rather James Potter had just fucked her, and he had left her there. He had wanted her to hurt and hurt her he did.
Lily stumbled through the halls and made her way to the Gryffindor Tower. She paused in front of the portrait of the Fat Lady.
"Password?"
"I don't know, can't you just let me in? I'm Head Girl" Lily begged her, tears still streaming down her face.
"I'm sorry, dear but if you don't know the password, I can't let you in".
Lily growled at her.
"Then I'll fucking change it!" Lily cried. The Fat Lady looked taken aback.
"No need to be so rude, dear. What are you changing the password to?"
Lily thought hard about that one and finally came up with one. She glanced at the portrait, a strange gleam alight in her emerald green eyes.
"James Potter is a man whore..."
The Fat Lady didn't even hide her dismay, as Lily gave her the new password. She opened none the less. She immediately walked up the to the girls dormitory stairs, and into the 7th years room.
She looked around the room and spotted Cherrie and Beth. Tears started pouring out of her eyes. They rushed to her side and escorted her to Beth's bed.
"Lily, what happened?!" Beth shrieked.
"James--h-he just fucked me and...And then h-he l-left", Lily stuttered. Cherrie's face lost its color and she grabbed her wand.
"Why that sorry, no-good, mother fucking, piece of shit! That's about all I can take, how low can he sink!? I swear, when I get my hands on him, I'll RIP OFF HIS BALLS, THROW THEM IN A GREASE BURNER, AND FEED THEM TO REMUS FOR BREAKFAST!"
The door opened and Jena stalked in. Her eyes landed on Lily's shaking form, and Cherrie's homicidal stance.
"What happened to her?" Jena asked concered. Beth told her and Jena's eyes lit with fire.
"I knew I didn't like him for a reason, and now this just comes and adds to my list of things why I don't like James Potter. He's a man whore and I think I just might kill him", Jena raged.
"No, he's not going to die, because I'm not going to do anything about it. I went along with it, and I let him do it. Although, the concept of it all was rather cruel, he did have a point. I gave in to easy. Remus, tried for months to get me in bed, and after I told him to screw off he gave up, until I had been ready", Lily responded.
Though she knew only half of that was true. She was going to do something about it. What she was going to do, and when she was going to do it wasn't apparent at this given time. She would get to it when the time came. But for now she was more worried what else James Potter had in store for her.
She also wondered if maybe it would as hurtful as the thing he had just pulled. Actually, there might not be anything as hurtful. She glanced at her friends, who had all went to staring at her. She gave them a small smile.
"I'll be alright, I promise"
But she lied and she knew it, and the look on their faces told her that they knew she had lied to. She wouldn't be alright, and that was something that was true.
Author's Note: Okay, first off I would like to thank Jena, who helped me with the sex scene. Well, actually she wrote the sex scene, and earned a place in this story. Second, off this chapter is dedicated to her. Third, YOU BETTER REVIEW! Yes, the plot has changed a lot, and it will not be the same as the summery. That may change, but the title won't. I hope you like this chapter. It's longer then the others. Bye!
Review Responses:
shortgirl42: Glad I have a new reader. I hope you enjoy it!
PammaPoo: Yes, Sirius did kiss Lily, but it was one of those things where he wanted to piss her off. Needless to say, he did just that. No, she is not a virgin; hence the chapter Lily got drunk in. Yes, she did sleep with Remus, but they really liked each other. That's why they did it. Besides they only did it once. No, Lily won't be a slut in this story, if that's what you are asking.
padfootandprongs4ever: No, there will not be a Lily/Sirius/James love triangle. If you want one of those then you should stay tuned for my upcoming story: A Time to Loose, a Time to Choose. Yes, that one should be out sometime in the next month or so.
rupertsgirle(sigh) You people are so impatient! No, I won't make you wait 60 chapters for Lily to tell James how she feels. Actually, to tell the truth she doesn't know how she feels. For god's sake I'm only in the fifth chapter. Have some patience.