Snapes thought then drifted to a certain man had the same "hairy problem" as he did. He thought of the only man that showed him true compassion not that bloody kind that was only shown because they truely pitied the sullen man. Remus Lupin, probably was the only person that Snape could call a friend, yet god its been so long since he saw the kind hearted yet also misunderstood sandy haired man.
Severus always wondered how Remus could be so kind to the world when the world couldnt repay that kindness since he was a werewolf. He didnt know how Remus could still contribute to the wizarding world, trying to release it from the stone cold grip of Lord Voldemort, when the most of the wizarding world couldnt even imagine a werewolf in their society, in fear that he will taint the already very much tainted.
He looked down to his left forearm where the dark mark stood. It was very light yet you could see the outline. Severus did all that he could to get rid of that mark, even though he very well knew that it wouldnt come clean until the dark lord was defeated.Yet Severus wanted to get rid of that life, wanted to the free man who could walk down the street with no cares in the world...well at least none that involve Voldemort finding out that he lived as a double spy, the most dangerous role in this most dangerous war.
He knew that he never could shed his life because there just was just too many layers. No matter how many lies he untold or how many persona he shook off. He was stuck in this life because of the stories that he had to live up to and the opinions, whether true or not, had to be said. So his life could be spared to the pain he would of recieved if he was found out to be a traitor.
Severus Snape knew that he could trust no one yet how he longed just to be able to let his guard down and just as him...not as the death eater, not as the hard faced potions teacher that had something stuck up his arse permentantly, and certainly not as the freak that he had no control of. He just wanted to be Severus Snape for once.
once again...i know these chapters keep getting shorter and im sorry. I will update the next chapter a lot faster.