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Severus woke up in the basement once again. His body was covered in blood as his memory was dazed. He felt so hungry though so he knew he did not eat whosever
blood was on his naked body. The whole clothes's ripping off was quite annoying especially if you did not wake up where you started at .His memory drift to the summer after he was bitten and him waken up in the display case of the local butcher. It was a good thing he woke up and got out of there before anybody else got to see a naked young man surrounded by half eaten salami and hot dog chains wrapped around himself.
He got up yet his knees soon buckled once more. Flashes of memories swarmed his brain as he let out a painful yell. He remembered himself transformed and running. He remembered the feeling of dirt under his paws. Then he saw a wounded werewolf on the forest floor in pain and then everything went blank. Yet he knew who it was on that floor yelping in pain. It was Remus. He could still smell his scent on himself.
His dominating instincts needed to know if his mate was all right. Yet the werewolf was piece of mind was gone and logic and instinct had once again taken over. He knew rushing to Remus's aid would show him as weak and would possibly expose that he was a werewolf yet Severus could not imagine how moronic that most of the order, probably who was taking care of his Remus, would have to be if they did not know his little secret. Hogwarts Grounds was not that big to hide two werewolves that needed to transform into two deadly being once a month that would kill even his best friends.
His mind just jumped at the thought that he called Remus his. It was a nice feeling that he could finally take care of something without it being destroyed at the hands of his
abusive father. Yet the question was if Remus would allow this sudden dominance over him. If he would just allow Severus to take his hands around the worn, aged but soft, Severus imagined, face, kiss those welcoming lips and just let him stare in to his eyes and take all those hiding pains away. Severus knew he had to get him as fast as he could. Yet
he knew the time was not right. He knew if he did not know that much of the previous nights events, if and what would Remus remember
He decided that the best actions were to rebuild the basement's wall that would not take very long or at least two flicks of his wand. Then he will sleep and would regroup his thoughts on how the best way to come across the situation. Then at night, he will once again transform and venture out to find his mate. His wolf instincts completely ignored these reasonable tasks as they took over more of his body. It was like fire and ice battling each other in the same body. Severus, cold, distant, and rational fighting against his werewolf self, loving, impatient, and stubborn against anything that does not leave him with his mate. Both cant survive with the other there even both compliment each other in a very deadly way. Turmoil began as Severus tossed himself to sleep.
Severus' dreamland was the one safe place that he knew he belonged. No angry people pointing even angrier wands. No menacing students creating fake images of him that
make him out to be even more of a stone cold asshole. His dreams were filled with people that once loved him like his caring and sweet mother and places where he could not be hurt again . Yet he knew that his dreams were his weakness and unlike other fools he knew that they were only dreams. No more, no less.
His dreams were filled with the previous nights event currently playing in his mind like a movie. There grew a smile on his face realizing that even long after he had to wake and get along with his life that his dream like movie would not be a part of his dreamland. That it was real and someone out in the real world reached out to him and showed him affection. His dreams soon drifted to Remus lying so helplessly on a double poster bed. Severus's hand appeared to reach out and touch the other man's head. He was burning up. This sent chills up Snape's spine. He just felt so warm, so appealing, yet so distressed and needy. He lay on the bed, next to Remus, almost touching him just so he could absorb Remus's radiating body heat. He just lay there, just enjoying the sleeping man's company. At last, he got up and gently kissed his forehead as a barrier of protecting and then Severus startlingly woke.
At first, he really questioned if that dream was not just a dazed part of his reality yet the empty bed space answered all those questions. He just could not believe it was a dream. He could still feel the heat that Remus generated off; he could still feel the soft skin under his lips. It just seemed too real to be a dream. Yet maybe it did not always have to be a dream, Severus thought. Maybe for once this all could spill over into reality.
Soon the sun faded and the moon was about to rise and Severus was just taking a night's stroll. He knew that it would be pointless to pen himself up inside the house because he would do whatever it took to break free and run towards his mate and the freedom that he just couldn't get enough of. The moon finally rose and the transformation commenced. This time though it was a lot smoother as Severus voluntarily let the werewolf inside of him out. There wasn't much pain and the screeching howls seemed just scars of the past. The wolf was entirely released, and not just because of the monthly transformation but also of all the pressure of just being a complex human with a spinning mind was gone. The guilt was lifted off his shoulder as the lies were just melted away with the warmth of the moon. He knew this is what it meant to be alive. To have feelings that could be shown and not bottled inside of him. To have someone to care about and not to just sit on the sidelines and watch their important relationship just decay.
He howled hoping that Remus would hear him and hopefully rush to his side. He just hoped he was alive. The pain alone of knowing what loved felt like and not to experience it would be murder. It would be enough to suppress his inner beast forever. Just in a nick of time, he heard a familiar howl that was approaching in a fast pace.
He rushed in the direction of the howl and soon came to a clearing. Severus's heartbeat began to race as Remus came over a hill. Remus was limping yet still could jog in great speeds. Both flew to each other and when they finally connected they circled each other as Severus protectively put his head overlapping Remus's in sort of an animal hug. Remus after a while broke this hug and started licking Severus's forehead playfully. The two fell to the ground and started wrestling. It become intense until Remus pinned Severus. Severus did not approve so he nipped Remus's left ear as Remus then took off, as Severus very close behind him. Remus being still a bit weak began to wobble as he was running so Severus moved closer letting his mate push against him so he wouldn't topple down. They ran through the moon light forests until it was almost time to leave each other again. Neither of them could part their ways. It was just too hard and too soon for a goodbye that would have to be enough for a month. All they could do was stare in each other's eyes and come to the conclusion that they both belonged to each other now and whether they were in human or wolf form, nothing could keep them apart. So they raced back to the spot nearest of where they met and settled down next to one another. They let their heartbeats drop and soon two beats combined into one. Both their hearts and heartbeat were in sync as nothing now could tear them apart.
The Sun began to rise as Severus and Remus awoke to each other. Severus was cradling Remus's body as Remus's hand was protectively held over Severus's. Severus couldn't help and look down at the handsome man before him and thank Merlin that he had just found love. He kissed Remus's forehead before standing up himself and then helping Lupin up.
Snape's arm found his way down to Remus's waist, sitting there loosely yet protectively as they walked back to Spinner's end not worrying about the trials and very little acceptance that they will soon face. Instead they just focus on each other's company and how good it felt just to let their guard down for once.
Ok...here is the 6th chapter...again i wanna thank AdmiralJackal and Serpent 91 for reviewing to every new chapter I update. So this ones for you guy...i just hope i didnt disapoint you