Right Kind Of Wrong
You know where the disclaimers are, so I shouldn't have to tell you.
A/N: This story is almost catching up in reviews with 'Cordelia's New Obsession Book 1' and it has surpassed 'Can't Fight the Moonlight' squeals in absolute delight! On another note my Buffy/Cordelia story was nominated for a 'Different Type' Award. They judge fem-slash fic, I'm so happy about that also, let's just hope I win.
Buffy and Faith sat down on Angel's bed, neither one looked at each other. This was the part that they were dreading the most. Faith probably wanted to know what was going on between Cordelia, and Angel, and what she had to do with it. It was now or never, Buffy just hoped that Faith wouldn't let this affect what they had.
"What the hell is going on between you and Angel and Cordelia?" Faith asked bluntly.
Buffy looked at her surprised, she used Angel and Cordelia's names and not a nickname.
"There are a lot of things that I have to tell you, some of them you probably won't like. The other is something I'm not very proud of, it was a stupid mistake and I regret it to this day." She explained, hoping it will soften anything she was about to say.
Faith just looked at her waiting for her to continue. She glanced over at Angel and saw that he was still out of it. For a vampire he was a pathetic one at best, but Faith didn't know that Angel was awake, and he was just pretending. He wanted to hear what Buffy had to say.
Buffy took a deep breath and began her tale, "Cordelia and I really didn't get along when I first came to Sunnydale. I chose to hang out with Xander and Willow instead of her, that sent my life to hell, but it didn't matter I had friends. We were civil to each other from time to time, then she started dating Xander in our junior year. She was still Cordelia, but different. The whole Angel/Angelus thing became too much for me, I was actually able to tell her everything, I knew she wouldn't judge me like Xander, Willow, and even Giles would. So we grew to tolerate each other, then I had to send Angel to hell, and I ran. When I came back, she was the only one who actually defended, well tried to defend me to my friends, and my mother. That made her a little more amendable in my book. It wasn't until a little while later feelings started to develop on both sides, when you came along it was slowly coming to the fore. We would patrol together sometimes without Xander and Willow. There would be occasional kisses, a few make out sessions, and a little more. The tension between us was unbearable, then Angel came back, I broke up with Scott. Cordelia was the only one who knew that Angel was back at the time, we were making out on his couch and Angel walked in on us. To make a long story short, Angel, Buffy, Cordelia became ABC." She stopped right there to let that little information absorb in Faith's head.
"What the fuck? You mean to tell me that you, Miss. Holier than Thou, was getting fucked by your vampire lover and your friend? What about his soul, how come he didn't lose it, I thought you were perfect happiness?" She asked clearly confused.
"He had perfect happiness when he had sex with me. He went down on me; I went down on him, hence no soul losing. Anyways we were a threesome for a long time, I started pulling away once I started developing feelings for you. I began to feel guilty, because Xander was getting hurt, and I was really starting to like you, but I was afraid because we were so different from each other. You were carefree, but I had the fate of the world on my shoulders, so it wasn't as easy for me to get out there and find the fun. Once you and I became you and I, I broke it off with the both of them. Angel left because he wanted me to have normal. My life is far from normal, but you get the point. Cordy and I remained friends, and nothing between us has changed. I still love her, but like I do Willow." She said softly.
Willow who was supposed to be in Buffy's room, gasped in shock as Buffy made her confession. She was hurt and a little disappointed that she couldn't tell her. After all they were supposed to be best friends, but then she saw it from Buffy's view, she was ashamed and afraid of what everyone especially Xander would say. The red head backed away from the door guilt coursing through her veins, she and Xander had been making out, and covering all the bases, since senior year, well homecoming and beyond. She just hoped that the two slayers could make it through this.
Angel cringed at the story, it seemed fun when they were doing it, but when he heard the shame behind Buffy's voice it hurt him. Those were some of the happiest times in his life, not the sex part, but actually being around the two girls. Even though he didn't have the love for Cordelia that he had for Buffy, he did care deeply for the brunette. He decided to pretend for a little while longer until he heard what Faith had to say.
Faith didn't know what to think, she couldn't look at Buffy right now. She kept something like this away from her; it made her wonder what else she was hiding. The emotions were confusing; she didn't know whether to be pissed, or whatever.
"You know B, I need to be somewhere other than here. I can't look at you right now without seeing you and her together. I need to think, I'll be back later." She got off the bed and walked out the door.
Buffy lay down on the bed and began crying, her perfect relationship as she knew it was gone. Willow walked out of her room when she heard Faith leave, she wanted to go check on Buffy. She could hear the blonde's sobs coming through the door, after a mental war with herself she decided to go comfort her friend.
"Buffy? Is everything okay?" She asked softly.
"No Willow, everything is not okay. I think I single handedly screwed up my relationship." She sobbed out.
Willow ran her hand up and down Buffy's back trying to comfort the girl. The last time she seen her cry like this was when Angel wasn't taking her to the prom. She glanced over at the vampire and saw that he was still out cold.
"What happened? I mean what makes you think you ruined your relationship? It's not your fault it's Angels." She said comfortingly, she didn't want Buffy to know that she already knew.
"It didn't have anything to do with Angel taking me, but the why he took me the way he did." She told her friend.
"Do you want to talk about it? I mean it always make you feel better." 'Good Willow, get her to talk.' the redhead thought.
"I don't want to talk about it, I'm afraid of what you're going to think of me." She said quietly.
'I won't judge you Buffy, I've been doing some not so nice things behind everyone's back.' she thought.
"I would never think any less of you Buffy. You're my best friend you're entitled to make mistakes." She told her soothingly.
Buffy sat up and wiped her eyes; she looked at her friend and began her tale of deception, and love. Willow just listened as the girl talked, a part of her was upset about what was going on between her and Cordelia, but another part was sympathetic. She could relate to the wanting to keep secrets thing, because she was keeping a huge one herself, and it didn't have to deal with Xander.
Buffy had grown quiet and Willow realized that she had lain down and went to sleep. She needed to find Faith; there was no way that she was going to let what they have end, because of something that happened in the past. Pulling a blanket over Buffy, she walked out of the room to find the other slayer. When she did they were going to talk, and she was going to have her say.
Faith walked around LA in deep thought. She didn't know her way around, but she just needed to be away to think. The things Buffy told her had her head swimming, she tried repeatedly to flirt with the blonde slayer, only to be met with resistance. Come to find out she was screwing the Prom Queen and Dead Boy. A part of her was jealous, because Cordelia had a go at something she wanted from the beginning. She had to admit that she wasn't very forth coming about her feelings in the beginning, but she just hoped that Buffy was able to pick up on the innuendos. A part of her wanted to forgive Buffy for what happened in the past, but another part resented her for keeping her betrayal a secret. Faith came across a bar called Caritas as soon as she entered her slayer senses went crazy, there were demons drinking and singing karaoke, she went to the bar and ordered a Jack Daniels. A green skinned demon with horns and red eyes, and the fashion sense of Little Richard brought her the drink, Faith whipped out a stake until he lifted up a hand to her.
"Don't worry about it Slayer. I'm not going to hurt you; I'm Krevlorneswath of the Deathwok Clan. I won't hurt you, I am an empath demon, and I run this little establishment. You, Twinkie are sending off some serious vibes." He told her.
Faith looked at him wearily, but gave in when she realized that he wasn't going to hurt her. She put her stake away and took a sip of her drink.
"Yeah, I found out something today, that my girl has been hiding. It's pissed me off, even though it happened before she and I were together." She told him.
"It's like that kitten, but you shouldn't let the past effect what you have now. The past is just that in the past. Tell you what, why don't you get up there and sing, I can tell you whatever you need to know."
"I don't know about singing, why can't you just tell me now?" She questioned.
"I can't get an accurate reading, besides emotions show brighter when you sing." He replied.
Lorne passed her a song list and Faith reluctantly took it. He left her alone so she could make her decision. Faith looked over the song selection and picked out the perfect one. She waved Lorne over and showed him her selection. He gave her a big smile and walked up on the stage.
"Tonight we have the honor of The Slayer being here." He announced.
There were groans coming from the demons, and some got up to leave.
"No, she is going to be singing, now let's give a big hand to The Slayer."
There was a short applause and Faith took the stage. It was this time that Willow stepped into the club. She was confused as to why Faith would come into a demon bar of all places. What surprised her most was the brunette on the stage getting ready to sing.
Faith looked at the prompter and the first few stanzas of a song began to play.
You've been the first in my life
Who has ever made me feel this way
And I will not deny
I'm gonna need you right here
By my side
Faith thought about the time she first met Buffy. She was prim and proper and had a hard time finding the fun. The blonde was so hooked on Angel that it was hard to get her to loosen up.
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(by holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(until the day I hear you say)
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
She thought back to the time when they finally admitted how they feel. It was a long time coming, but it was worth it. Faith finally had the girl of her dreams, the one who was it for her. Meaningless relationships didn't compare to what she found in Buffy.
Now that you're here, boy
I'm never gonna let you go
Can I touch you there, oh
Do you mind if we kiss real slow
You're my everything
You're my hopes and dreams
Baby, you know it ain't no lie
I'm gonna be with you till the day I die
Her mind thought back to the first time she and Buffy had ever made love. It was the sweetest if not the hottest sex she's ever had. They had run back to Buffy's after leaving the park. Buffy was flushed and all out of breath, without no prompting Buffy up and kissed her, hands were roaming all over the place. She knew the blonde was a freak, if there ever was one.
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(no no, til the day I hear you say)
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
Faith let all of her emotions that she was feeling go into the song. Willow couldn't believe that the brunette could actually carry a tune. She was mesmerized and enthralled in the song, it spoke to her on a level that she didn't understand. Then again a slow song was not Faith's thing.
You're the one that lights my fire
You're the one that keeps me strong
You're the one that I depend on
When my world is goin' wrong
You're the one that I hold closer
You're the man I'm dreaming of
And I really really love you
I just want you to know that
Lorne listened as the slayer on stage sung her heart out. She was confused, but underneath that confusion was the love for a woman, not just any woman, but a woman who was very precious to this world.
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
Willow wiped a stray tear from her eye. She truly wished that someone had cared deeply enough for her. Sure Oz was in love with her, she needed something more, something that maybe Oz couldn't give her. The red head thought about the shy blonde in her Wicca group. She was the only reason why she would go. The few times that they talked, it felt like they were connected on the level that she and Oz never were.
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
In that moment Faith realized that she didn't care about what Buffy did in the past. All that mattered now was that she had the blonde and no one else did. Cordelia was jealous because Buffy broke it off with her to pursue her feelings for her. Buffy really did love her and never did anything to prove other wise.
I can't wait till the day
I hear you say
You're the one that I need
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time
The song ended and she was met with thunderous applause. She opened her eyes and saw Willow standing in the back; clapping for all that she was worth. The slayer placed the microphone back in its stand, and exited the stage. She was about to walk over to the red head, but she was intercepted by Lorne.
"Sweetiekins, that was beautiful. I wouldn't worry your pretty little head. Whatever happened between you and Buffy, don't let it interfere with now. Your future together is very bright, and you have no reason to distrust her. If anything you two are destined to be together, don't let anything stand in your way. It's going to get worse before it gets better. People are going to test your love for each other, don't let them get in the way of your happiness. You and her deserve it, don't let anyone tell you otherwise." He advised her.
"That was some deep shit Lorne. I'm going to go talk to her, I love her and whatever happened in the past is going to stay in the past."
Faith walked away from the demon and straight into Willow. She really didn't want to chat right now; she wanted to go talk to Buffy.
"Wow Faith, you were good. I never knew that you had such a good voice also I thought you might be a rocker type person. It was a great song anyways." She told the brunette.
"That's real nice Red, but I gotta go see my girl. I overreacted and we need to talk. Plus I'm going to torture Angel for a little while before we head back to the Dale." She smiled.
Without another world she left Caritas and a speechless Willow behind. She wanted to follow, but knew that Faith and Buffy needed their privacy. She left Caritas and went to a diner around the corner from the Hyperion; she picked up her cell phone and dialed the familiar number of her boyfriend. She needed to talk to him, and come clean; it was getting pretty unbearable to keep living a lie.
Faith ran through the doors of the hotel and sprinted up the stairs two by two. She had a lot of explaining to do to Buffy; she didn't want to lose her nerves. Catching her breath and trying to regain her slayer cool, she opened the door and saw Angel awake watching a sleeping Buffy.
"Dead boy, I see you decided to wake up. For being a vampire your recovery time is fucked." She taunted.
Angel didn't do anything, but eye the dark slayer wearily. He didn't want to wake Buffy, and he knew he deserved whatever that was about to happen.
"I was up the whole entire time. I heard everything that you and Buffy said. I even listened as she and Willow talked, it was very interesting Faithy." He teased her.
She ignored what he was saying, and looked over at Buffy. What she had to tell her couldn't wait. She tiptoed over to the bed and began kissing Buffy softly.
"Faith, stop." She moaned out.
Buffy moaning her name gave her a sense of satisfaction. It was her name she was moaning out and no one elses. Angel just watched intrigued, he was trying to figure out what was going to happen next. Faith continued kissing down the blonde's neck and back up again. She backed away and green met brown.
"Faith, when did you get back?" She asked groggily.
The other slayer gave her a dimpled smile, "Just a few minutes ago. I had to do some thinking." She stated her vice devoid of any emotion.
The blonde sat up and looked at her lover, "I'm real sorry for keeping this from you. I should have told you in the beginning." She said softly.
Faith put a finger up to her lips, "No, you talked before, now it's your turn to listen. The past is what it is the past, that's where it should say. I wasn't mad or anything, I just needed sometime to process everything. We weren't together and that shit doesn't matter now, because you are with me and no one else. I want to leave that shit in the past; I don't want it to fuck up or future. I love you Elizabeth Anne Summers." She gave her a hug and a kiss.
Buffy was surprised that Faith knew her entire name. Without hesitation she returned the kiss, Angel be damned. They finally broke apart when oxygen became and issue.
"I love you Faith. What are we going to do about Cordelia? I mean she is the one behind all of this?" She queried.
"After we take care of Soul Boy over here, I say we beat her at her own game. You down?" She asked.
Buffy looked at Angel and then back at her girlfriend, "Honey, I'm down for whatever." She grinned.
The song used was 'You are Mine' by the group Soluna. I do not own them or the song; they both belong to whatever label they are signed to. I'm just using the song to get my story going.
Anonymous- Yes, they are back together. I couldn't keep them apart for long could I?
Crazy –Kiki-19- Wonder no more. There will be no more Angel, Buffy, Cordelia.
General Mac- Believe that Cordelia will get hers, and it won't be Faith beating the living hell out of her.
Naweoh- I can't make any guarantees about her not staking Angel. Then again who knows, Buffy may plead for his life (yeah right). The plot thickens with Xander and Willow. It will all come out in the end though.