Theres No Way Out of Love

Chapter 8

"I can't believe that just happened." Remus sat in shock next to a giggling Brooke in the common room. Moments before the two had been locked in a deep make-out session that was starting to progress into something more. Unfortunatly, the room they had chosen was not as "secret" as they had hoped. Professor McGonagal had walked in on the two in a very compromising position, and Remus had been mortified.

"It's okay, it's not that big of a deal. Sure it was incredibly embarassing, but the Professor was a teenager once, so I'm sure everything is fine. Don't worry about it honey," Brooke tried to soothe Remus. She reached out and ran her fingers through his sandy brown hair. She loved how his hair felt under her fingertips, and she loved the reaction that it got out of Remus: a deep tremble always coursed his body.

"No, Brooke. She is our teacher. This is absolutely awful. Things will never be the same in Transfiguration again," Remus put his head in his hands.

"You take things too seriously," Brooke smiled. Before Remus could answer her, she had climbed into his lap and stradeled him. He suddenly found it much harder to concentrate on the Professsor, or anything for that matter. A small smile played across her lips and she leaned in to kiss him. Remus met her half way and at once deeped the kiss. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in tight in an attempt to get closer to her. Suddenly he pulled away and Brooke sat breathing heavy with a confused look on her face.

"Lets go up to my room," he whispered. She nodded quickly in reply and grabbed his hand.

Sirius sat in the library deep in thought. People that passed by gave him strange looks, probably questioning why he was sitting in the uncharted territory of books upon books. But the library was the only quiest place where he could come to think about what was up with Kylee. She'd been acting weird for awhile now, and whenever he went to ask her if everything was okay, she would make up some excuse and jet out of the room as fast as possible. Thoughts ran through his head about anything he could have possibly done, but this was the one relationship he'd ever been in where he could honstly say he had behaved. He loved Kylee and would never do anything to hurt her.

"I have to go find her and make her tell me what is wrong. Whether she wants to or not," Sirius voiced outloud. A boy from his potions class turned around to look at him.

"Oh yeah, like you never talk to yourself," Sirius said. Then he ran out.

Sirius found Kylee walking around outside. She looked like she was moving around aimlessly, yet she had a look of deep thought on her face. Sirius jogged up bside her and she looked started at his arrival.

"Can we talk?" He questioned.

"Uhm.. I'm kind of busy. I have to go.."

"Nope, never mind. I shouldn't have even asked. We are going to talk because I can't stand not knowing whats going on with you." She looked at him intently, and then walked over and sat next to the lake. He followed her and took up a spot of grass beside her and waited for her to speak. She seemed to be sorting out things in her mind, like she was rehersing what to say to him, and then changing her mind. A sad look developed on her face and she hung her head.

"Sirius, I love you. Thats all you really need to know," she said softly.

"No, thats not all I need to know. It's nice to hear, yes. But if something else is wrong with you then you've gotta tell me so I can help. It's killing me not doing anything. I've never been a sit-down kind of guy." She smiled at his last line, and then turned her head to make eye contact. Their eyes remained locked into eachothers for a few moments, before she replied.

"Theres nothing you can do. I have to handle this on my own. Trust me, everything will be okay. I love you, and thats the most important thing." Now all I have to do is talk to Landon, she thought. Ever since he had confessed his love for her she'd been trying to make a decision about what to do. She loved Sirius more than anything, but hearing her best friend say that to her had thrown her for a loop. On the way back to see Sirius after being with him, thoughts raced through her mind on whether she could have those kinds of feelings for Landon. however, they were all blown away as soon as she saw Sirius. There was no way she could look at him and ever imagine herself with another guy. Since then, she'd been trying to figure out what to say to Landon.

"I love you too, Kylee." Sirius started. He sounded like he wanted to keep going, but he stopped himself. Kylee was glad he wasn't going to keep pressing to find out what was wrong. She couldn't deal with seeing whatever kind of look would pop onto Sirius's face when she told him another guy was in love with her. She couldn't even imagine what his emotion would be. Rage? Sadness? A strong desire to kill Landon? She guessed the latter.

To stop him from saying anything else, she leaned in to kiss him. Her lips pressed softly up against him at first, but it wasn't long before Sirius pulled her in tightly to him. It had been awhile since their last kiss since she had been avoiding him, and it felt so good to be close to him again. Kylee never wanted the intense kiss to end, and from the way Sirius was holding her, she guessed he felt the same way.

"Just breathe," Kylee told herself as she walked up to the boys dormitory. She knew that Landon was alone in the room and figured this would be the perfect opportunity to tell him what she had decided. However, despite the ideal time to tell him that she wasn't in love with him, Kylee was standing at the bottom of the stairs hypervenalating. Her feet simply wouldn't obey her as she told them to move. Her heart was beating like crazy and no matter what she told herself about "staying friends" with him, all she wanted to do was run up to her room and avoid Landon at all costs. Avoid him for the rest of her life. Their once strong friendship was ruined now, and she wasn't an optimist that thought they could go back to the way it used to be after she crushed his heart. Things simply didn't work that way.

"It'll be okay. Well, it wont be okay. But at least he wont be living with everything up in the air anymore. He can move on. This is the best thing to do, for you and for him," Kylee voiced outloud to herself. A kid from her potions class was sitting in the common room and turned to look at her.

"Oh yeah, like you never talk to yourself," Kylee said, then hurried up the stairs before she could change her mind.

She entered the room without knocking before realizing that she probably should have at least warned him that she was coming in. Landon jumped off his bed when he saw her enter and looked quite startled.

"Kylee, what are you... hi," he said, seeming flustered.

"Hi Landon," she answered him. They stood there for a few moments. Then Kylee figured she should get it over with and save them both the painful experience of more silence.

"Listen, I know I've been avoiding you a lot. And I know that I probably should not have acted as I did. And I'm really sorry for how I handeled this. And I'm also really sorry for what I'm about to say next," she rushed out. Landon sat down on his bed slowly. Kylee went to sit next to him, but decided it was probably best she be as far away as possible before she said what she had to say.

"I'm in love with Sirius. I'm sorry, but theres no other way to say it than to just say it," Kylee started to cry.

Landon was torn up inside. Part of him was filled with anger towards Sirius for stealing her away from him. Part of him was filled with the want to comfort Kylee so she would stop crying. But the main part of him was filled with pain. Just raw pain, like nothing he had ever felt before. She didn't love him. She didn't feel the same intensity that he felt whenever he was around her. It didn't make sense. It didn't seem possible that he could hold these types of feelings for her while she just thought of him as a friend. The pain swelled up with each moment and Landon was sure that he wasn't going to survive this. Kylee did not love him. In fact, she was rejecting him, right before his eyes.

"Your the best friend I've ever had," Kylee choked out. "And I know that things will never go back to being the same. But I just wanted you to know that." Then she turned around swiftly. She lingered for a moment, as if she wanted to say something else, but then she opened up the door and was gone. Landon sat on his bed; he hadn't moved since she told him that she was in love with another guy. And he didn't feel like he would ever be able to move again.

"I love you," James mouthed to Lily from across the dining table.

"I love you too," Lily responded back.

"You guys make me sick," Sirius joined in. James turned to him and fake punched him in the stomach. They then proceeded to have a huge mock fight in the Great Hall, adding in sound and slow motion effects.

"Do boys think that they are cool?" Brooke asked as she entered for dinner with Remus. They held hands and both were grinning from ear to ear.

"I honestly don't know," said Lily, "I think that they thinks this impresses us and shows us that their real men. When in reality it just proves that they are more dumb then we ever thought possible."

"Actually, contrary to popular belief, not all boys are as dumb as girls think," Remus chimed in. Lily and Brooke looked at him and he smiled sheepishly. Brooke ruffled his hair and responded.

"Oh, I think they are. Some are just better at hiding it." Then Kylee entered the hall and all of them turned to look at her.

Kylee knew how awful she looked. She'd been crying for hours, and despit her pitiful attempts, she just couldn't bring herself to smile. She was planning on camping out in her dormitory forever, but she had gotten hungry three hours later and was forced to come out from seclusion. So she applyed a little makeup to hopefully hide how awful she felt and embarked out. Unfortunetly, it hadn't worked. Sirius saw her from across the room and stopped fake-punching James mid-swing. He rushed over to her.

"Kylee?" she heard his voice come as he stood directly in front of her. Sirius somehow made everything so real. She didn't regret her decision; seeing Sirius reinforced her love and she knew she had made the right choice. But hearing him and seeing his eyes suddenly brought her to reality, the reality where she had broken her best friends heart and lost him forever. She had already been crying before, but she felt new tears well up in her eyes. Sirius looked shocked and reached out for her. The Kylee just cried in his arms.

James, Lily, Brooke, and Remus stood over at the table and stared at their two friends.

"So you think she told him," Brooke asked.

"Definetly." Lily answered back.