AN: Despite my hardest efforts, I still do not own Teen Titans or anything associated with them.

Chapter 11

Ravens head was swimming as wakefulness came to her. She felt the soft material of her bed beneath her, and she concluded that she must have gone to bed at some point. The night was a blur to her and she could barely make sense of it. She slowly ran her fingers through her hair and tried to figure out what had happened. Suddenly she realized something odd. She could hear breathing, and it wasn't her own. She slowly turned her head and saw that Beast Boy was peacefully sleeping next to her.

Raven felt her heart stop for a moment as she saw the sleeping green man. It was then she realized that she wasn't in her usual night attire; she wasn't in anything at all. Slowly she slipped out of the sheets and ran to grab her robe. She quickly wrapped it around her and made her way to the bathroom.

'Oh my God!' she thought as she locked her bathroom door. 'I slept with him. I slept with Gar. How did that happen? We were kissing… then… there was more kissing… and then we must have… oh God!' She sat down on her toilet and put her face in her hands.

Beast Boy let out a soft sigh and opened his eyes. Once they focused he became very confused as to where he was. This certainly wasn't his room and this certainly wasn't his bed. He sat up and scratched his grass green head as he looked around. The room was certainly familiar to his half awakened brain. Then it all clicked in his mind and he realized where he was.

"Uh oh," he said quietly to himself. He slipped out of the bed and found his boxers on the floor. He slipped them on and went off in search of the missing Raven. He saw that her bathroom door was closed and he had a pretty good guess as to where she was.

"Raven?" he asked softly as he knocked on her door.

"Yes?" she replied in similar tone.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yes," she said, though it was obvious she wasn't. "I'm going to take a shower."

"Okay," said Beast Boy. He heard her turn the shower and on and he decided to leave her be.

Raven simply stood in the shower letting the hot water caress her confused and weary body. Bits and pieces of the night before began to become clearer in her mind. She wanted to get out and scream at him, to tell him that he had forced her into it. But the truth was that she never objected once. She had even been the one to lead him to her room; or more like guided him as their lips tangoed.

Beast Boy waited for her out in the living room. He could just tell that they had just done something that was going to greatly change their relationship. Whether it was for good or bad he wasn't sure. But the feeling in his stomach was telling him it wasn't going to be good.

Once Raven had gotten out of the shower and changed she went out to the living room, where she guessed Beast Boy would be. They stood staring at the ground, silently, for a while before Beast Boy finally spoke up first.

"So… what now?" he asked.

"I don't know," said Raven, shaking her head. "Gar, what we did last night… it shouldn't have happened."

Beast Boy sighed sadly and nodded. "I know," he said. "And I'm sorry."

"So am I," said Raven.

"What are you sorry for?" asked Beast Boy.

"I shouldn't have kissed you," said Raven, holding her arms and walking around the room. Her mind felt very unstable and she was trying to calm herself down. "I shouldn't have allowed anything to happen between us last night."

"But you did," said Beast Boy. "So what does that mean?"

"What does what mean?" asked Raven.

"Do… do you like me?" he asked.

Raven was quiet and she stopped her pacing. "I don't think so," said Raven, shaking her head.

"Then why did you kiss me?" he asked, feeling his heart break all over again.

"I don't know," said Raven. "I was just sick of seeing you so sad and upset over me and so I let myself feel what you were feeling. And when I did, I couldn't stop myself. I wanted you to feel happy."

"So you pitied me?" he asked, shocked.

"No!" said Raven.

"I don't need your pity, Raven!" he shouted.

"It wasn't pity!" she yelled back. "At the time everything I did was from my heart. But I was acting on your emotions and feelings, not my own."

"How is that even possible?" he asked feeling very frustrated.

"You know that my powers allow me to do that," she scolded.

"Oh, so you weren't responsible for anything that happened last night?" he asked hotly.

"I didn't say that!" said Raven. "You're putting words in my mouth!"

"Oh really?" he said angrily. "So I guess you're saying some pretty stupid words if I'm putting words in your mouth."

"You're such an idiot," said Raven.

"So all of those things you said to me about how I was so wonderful and a great friend," he said. "You must have just been saying that because of your powers, right?"

"No, I really do feel like that," said Raven. "I just don't love you like you love me."

"Why not!" he said.

Raven couldn't handle him right now. She was still confused and shocked and she knew that soon her handle on her powers was going to give way. He was getting angry at her and she was getting angry at him for it. She sighed and walked to the other end of the room, massaging her temples.

"Gar, I can't talk to you right now," she said at last. "Could you please leave?"

"Fine," he said angrily. He grabbed his coat and left, closing the door harshly behind him.

He gritted his teeth as he walked to his car. He threw the door open and got in, slamming his own car door. Then he just sat there, his hands gripping the steering wheel so tightly his green knuckles were going almost white.

Finally, after a few minutes, he released his grip and sighed. He leaned his arms on the wheel and then rested his head on his arms. He knew that things between them were going to be bad now. He had known it the instant their lips had begun to mesh, but he couldn't stop himself. And Raven had practically invited him, at the time, into her bed.

"Shit," said Beast Boy to himself as he finally grabbed his seatbelt, clicked it in, and drove away from Raven and the whole mess.

Once he reached his apartment he realized that he had a class in about fifteen minutes. He was actually thankful for it because it gave his mind a break from the whole Raven situation. He was also happy that this was the day he had the most classes, so he would be busy all that day.

That evening he found a message on his answering machine from Raven telling him to call her. He dreaded it, but he knew it had to be done. He took a deep breath in, said a prayer, and called her up.

"Hi Rae," he said when she answered.

"Hi Gar," she said. "Look, things were starting to get out of hand this morning."

"Yeah, I know," he sighed. "Sorry about that."

"Yes, well, I'm sorry too," she said. "I just needed some time to think. I just still can't believe that we… spent the night together. It really should never have happened."

"I think we can both agree on that," said Beast Boy. "But I don't want it to ruin our friendship. So can we kinda forget that it happened?"

Raven was silent on the other end of the line for a few seconds.

"Rae?" he asked the silence.

"Yes, I'm here," she said, snapping back into reality. "It's just that I was going to say the same thing."

"I guess we have something else to agree on," he said in an almost chuckle.

"Guess so," said Raven. "So… do you still love me?"

"With all my heart," said Beast Boy. "That's something that's not gonna change no matter what. But I would rather remain your friend than risk it all by trying to be something more."

"I'm really glad to know that," said Raven with a smile, though she knew that Beast Boy couldn't see it. But he heard it in her voice. "So can I still count on you to help me, if ever I should need it?"

"Of course," said Beast Boy. "Though, I'm sure you'll never ask for it."

He heard her let out a soft chuckle and that made him smile. "Well, I just happen to need a ride in two weeks," she said. "But, if you feel uncomfortable with it, I can find someone else."

"Why would I feel uncomfortable about giving you a ride?" asked Beast Boy.

"Well, it's to the fertility clinic," said Raven.

"Oh," said Beast Boy thinking. "Uh, sure I'll take you."

"You really don't have to," said Raven. "I knew I shouldn't have asked."

"No, really Rae, it's okay," said Beast Boy. "I said I'd help you and I will."

"You really are one of a kind, Gar," said Raven,

"The one and only," said Beast Boy proudly.

"So, I'll talk to you soon, okay?" said Raven.

"Sounds great," said Beast Boy.

And with that they hung up with each other. Beast Boy felt much better and a small smile graced his face. Yes, he was still upset about not being the father of Ravens child, but he figured it was for the best. Raven still wanted him as a friend and that meant that perhaps he could still be there for her.