Okay so I was able to get another chapter up I don't know if you guys are still reading after watching last nights finale episode. I know I was totally diappointed amd ticked off but nevertheless I will continue to share my stories with you guys. That is if you're all still reading along. So let me know what you think.
Summer had gone home again after trying the house and getting Marissa. She kissed Seth goodbye and ran up the stairs to her friend who needed her. She kicked off her shoes.
"Coop" She said peaking into her room seeing a tear stained face on the floor looking back at her. "Oh Coop" She said kneeling down not caring about her dress and locking her in a hug. "It's gonna be okay Coop" she said and Marissa just sobbed.
Meanwhile Seth went and sat silently next to Ryan because he knew it wasn't a time to be alone. He needed a friend and Seth knew it. So he sat there all night not saying a word.
After surviving the most horrible weekend they had ever had the next Monday at school they hadn't seen each other. Ryan just figured Marissa hadn't been there but by the middle of the day he was going towards his locker and she was walking towards him.
He stopped wanting to talk to her but she looked the other way and kept walking as fast as she could and he took the hint. This was not going to be easy he thought going to get his books.
After school Ryan had sat out back thinking about Marissa and how he could ever fix this. "Oh Ryan there you are" Kirsten said. Ryan looked at her. "What's going on?" he said. She looked around.
"Jimmy called this afternoon" She said sitting next to him He had almost forgotten about Jimmy. "And?" He said. "And he doesn't want Marissa to know but he was able to work it out" She said. He smiled sadly. "Great" He said.
"You okay Sweetie?" She said noticing something was weird. "Yeah I'm fine" He said. "You sure?" She said. "I'm just thinking about next year" She smiled. "It'll be a new world for you and it could definitely be scary" She said. "Yeah" He said.
"It can also be wonderful Ryan Berkeley's amazing and you are going to love going there" She said. He nodded. "But I have a feeling this isn't all about Berkeley" She said. "What do you mean?" He said.
"Well you lived with us for three years. You love new port, you made friends it's only natural if you're going to miss that" She said. "It's not like I'm going to school far away" He said.
"Yeah but Marissa is" she said. He looked at her. "Yeah" he responded sadly. " I somehow take it that it would take more for Marissa to suddenly disappear from your life Marissa going to school on the east coast is not going to change it" She said.
"I think I may have messed things up between us" He said. "Whatever it is I'm sure you'll find away to fix it graduation is on Friday. I have faith in you Ryan" She said leaving him to his thoughts. "At least somebody does" He thought to himself.
That week he had tried countless times to talk to Marissa but she hadn't responded and when he had called and left messages she hadn't called him back. It was beginning to be hopeless.
Today was Thursday which meant senior assembly it was the distribution of caps and gowns so he figured it was a chance of running into her there. So he showed instead of letting Seth get it for him. Ryan walked into the lounge looked around and didn't see her.
"Chino" Summer said. "Summer" He said. "She's not here I picked it up for her" She said showing him her cap and gown in her hand along with her own. He nodded. "I really screwed up this time Summer" Ryan said. "Why didn't you just be honest with her?" She said.
"I don't know I guess I got nervous and I didn't think she felt that way" He said. "Ryan she loves you so much that she had planned on going to Berkeley just to be near you" She said. "I didn't know that" he said. "Now you do so what are you gonna do about it?" She said leaving him alone. Summer was right he had to do something.
That night was the senior party which was held on the beach. "Coop Seth is coming in like five minutes are you sure you don't wanna go?" Summer said. "Yeah I don't want to see him it's just too hard" She said sadly.
"I could stay we could watch the valley besides who needs to go to senior send off" she said. She smiled. "I love you for saying that Sum but go have fun I'll be okay" She said. "Are you sure" She said. The horn beeped.
"I'm sure have fun and say hi to Seth" She said. "I'll see you later" Summer said leaving her. Marissa stared at her cap and gown which hung on a hanger above her door. Graduation was tomorrow and she wasn't happy at all about it especially about facing the future without Ryan in it but she wasn't going to tell him that.
He came in anticipation of seeing Marissa. He ran into Seth and Summer by the refreshments. "Hey guys" He said. "Ryan" Seth said. "She's not here Atwood" Summer said sadly. "Where is she?" He said. She looked at him.
"Look Atwood we're friends but Marissa's my best friend and I swear if you so much as make her cry again your going to be answering to me you got it" Summer said. "I never meant to hurt her" He said sadly.
"I know. She's home and Julie and my dad isn't so go around to the pool there's a key under the mat to let your self in." She said feeling sympathy for him. "Thank you summer" He said. "Don't make me regret this" Summer said.
"I won't" He said. "Hey man what are you going to tell her?" He said. "The truth" Ryan said leaving them behind. "Good luck" Summer yelled. "Thanks" He called back. "You think he'll screw up again? Because I really want to have nice graduation pictures tomorrow with us four not ones that look like we want to kill each other" Summer said. Seth laughed. "I'm sure everything will be alright" Seth said.
I hope your right for their sake" Summer said with a smile.
Ryan pulled up in front of the Robert's mansion. He got out and walked around back to find the key. He let himself in and slowly walked up the stairs. He knocked on her door.
"Come in Sum" She said. He opened the door and stepped in. "It's Ryan" he said. She looked up not expecting him. "Seth and Summer aren't here they went to the party" She said responding for the first time in days to him.
"I know I'm not here for them" He said closing the door. "Well I don't have anything else to say to you" She said irritated. "Why didn't you tell me about Berkeley?" He said. She looked at him.
"Do I look like an idiot to you? I don't wear my heart on my sleeve and I really don't wanna talk about this considering we're no longer friends" She said. "You can't just write me off Marissa" He said. She laughed as if this was a cruel joke.
"Do you think this is easy for me? Do you think I want to be telling you we can never see each other again? Do you?" She said yelling getting angry. "Of course not" He said. "Then go home" She said yelling. "I'm not leaving" He said not letting his guard down.
"Ryan I mean it" She said. "I'm not going Marissa not until you hear me out" He said. "Hear you out. You want me to stand here and here you out?" She said feeling like this was some kind of dream meant to torture her.
She picked up a photo frame of them and threw it up against the wall. "Don't you understand I can't do this. Standing here with you is killing me Ryan. That night at prom killed me. Not talking to you is killing me but I can't do this anymore" she said looking at him no longer holding back her tears and falling to her feet.
He walked over to a very broken Marissa and leaned down to her. He went to wipe a tear away. "Don't" She said brushing his hand away. "Please just go" She said weakly. "I can't" He said sadly. She continued to cry.
"Just go" She said pulling herself up and walking towards the door and opening it waiting for him to leave. He walked over to her and looked at her. "I'm not giving up that easily" He said. "Ryan please go" She said looking up at him.
"It's not supposed to end like this" He said. "Well it is" She said loudly. "I refuse to let it happen" He said.
"Ryan wake up its happening just go home have a nice life go to Berkeley and forget you ever met me" She said yelling at him. "I can't do that" He said yelling.
"Why the hell not?" She said screaming. "Because I love you" he said shocking Marissa and himself.
In this next chapter: what does it all mean?