Okay so this is a short post but I didn't want to leave you guys hanging for too long so here it is.Expect a new post soon. Another thing I'm so glad there are still so many of you willing to read. Don't worry I will definitely continue with this story and others as well. I'm already coming up with more ideas as I speak so keep an eye out and let Ryan and Marissa live on for the sake of R/M fans! Oh and just another bit of info if your interested in signing a save marissa petition if you haven't signed it already email me and I'll get it to you! And now onto the story! I am in no way affilated with The OC. but I am fan!

Last time on "The O.C.

He let himself in and slowly walked up the stairs. He knocked on her door. "Come in Sum" She said. He opened the door and stepped in. "It's Ryan" he said. She looked up not expecting him.

"Seth and Summer aren't here they went to the party" She said responding for the first time in days to him. "I know I'm not here for them" He said closing the door.

"Well I don't have anything else to say to you" She said irritated. "Why didn't you tell me about Berkeley?" He said.

She looked at him. "Do I look like an idiot to you? I don't wear my heart on my sleeve and I really don't wanna talk about this considering we're no longer friends" She said. "You can't just write me off Marissa" He said.

She laughed as if this was a cruel joke. "Do you think this is easy for me? Do you think I want to be telling you we can never see each other again? Do you?" She said yelling getting angry. "Of course not" He said.

"Then go home" She said yelling. "I'm not leaving" He said not letting his guard down. "Ryan I mean it" She said. "I'm not going Marissa not until you hear me out" He said. "Hear you out. You want me to stand here and here you out?" She said feeling like this was some kind of dream meant to torture her.

She picked up a photo frame of them and threw it up against the wall. "Don't you understand I can't do this. Standing here with you is killing me Ryan. That night at prom killed me. Not talking to you is killing me but I can't do this anymore" she said looking at him no longer holding back her tears and falling to her feet.

He walked over to a very broken Marissa and leaned down to her. He went to wipe a tear away. "Don't" She said brushing his hand away. "Please just go" She said weakly. "I can't" He said sadly.

She continued to cry. "Just go" She said pulling herself up and walking towards the door and opening it waiting for him to leave. He walked over to her and looked at her. "I'm not giving up that easily" He said.

"Ryan please go" She said looking up at him. "It's not supposed to end like this" He said. "Well it is" She said loudly. "I refuse to let it happen" He said. "Ryan wake up its happening just go home have a nice life go to Berkeley and forget you ever met me" She said yelling at him.

"I can't do that" He said yelling. "Why the hell not?" She said screaming. "Because I love you" he said shocking Marissa and himself.

Now onto the next Chapter:

There it was out. She looked at him. "I love you Marissa that kiss was not a mistake. I just I was afraid that after it happened you weren't going to see me as anything more than your buddy Ryan" and he paused.

"When that wasn't what I wanted. So I lied and covered it up instead and if I thought in a million years" again he paused. "That you were gonna react like that I would have never done it because I never want to hurt you Marissa" he paused. "The last thing I would ever want to do is hurt you" He said looking straight into her eyes.

Stray tears fell from her eyes. "So instead of telling you the truth I acted as if it was because of all the excitement from graduation and missing you next year. I mean obviously I'm going to miss you next year but if I lose you over this" he paused not wanting to know how it would ever be to lose her. "I can't lose you over this" He said determined.

She was listening and he was afraid of her silence. "I'm sorry Marissa and I don't want to hurt you but I don't wanna lose you either. Call it selfish call it whatever you want but this is what it is and I'm willing to give up everything to get you to understand that I made a mistake in telling you that kiss was a mistake and I'm sorry for hurting you" He said looking at her.

"I never wanted to lose you either" She said softly. He nodded. "Well you haven't lost me and you never will as long I have anything to say about it. Question is am I too late?" He said looking at her searching for signs of hope.

She let out a breath she didn't know she was holding and looked up at him. "You haven't lost me Ryan because I love you" She admitted. A smile crept to his face. She smiled and moved closer to him and drew him into a hug. "I'm so sorry" He whispered.

"I know you are" She said pulling way and looking at him. He leaned in to kiss her and she kissed him back. He pulled back nervously not wanting to ever leave her again.

"Ryan" She said looking at him and he knew exactly how she was feeling and what she wanted. He smiled and kissed her again. And Marissa had walked backwards leading them to her bed and they gently fell back against it. He stared into her eyes like he never had before and he brushed a way a single tear that had been on her cheek.

"I love you" He said. "I love you too" She said taking the lead and kissing him. "Are you sure?" He said. "We shared everything else why not this" She said brushing a strand of his hair behind his ear. He nodded.

"Okay" He said finding her lips because really that's all he had to hear from her and he felt as if he could love her for the rest of his life and was willing to show her just how true that was.

She was willing to tell him know just how she felt so they spent the night loving each other and they couldn't of been happier.

It was pretty late but Summer had decided that no news from Ryan or Marissa was good news and snuck into the pool house to stay the night of course her and Seth where wide awake wondering if everything was okay but eventually they had found other things to keep them occupied and then had eventually fallen asleep.

What to expect in the next chapter: The morning after!