Olivia's POV

This week's case was especially hard, a young girl was beaten and raped by her step father and left in a park in Harlem. I really didn't think we'd ever get through it, I slept in the crib for the entire week. When it was finally over Cragen let me have off until Wednesday. I have no idea what I am going to do with my time though, I try not to think about her and what happened or didn't happen for that matter. I want to see her, I want to talk to her, and I want to tell her how I feel.

Saturday morning I slept in late and enjoyed being able to relax. When I did wake up I needed to go for a run, to relieve the remaining stress I had. I decided to go through Central Park, I hadn't run there since Alex was put in the program. We used to run through there together three mornings a week.

As I ran through the park it felt good to listen to my music as loud as possible and move as fast as I wanted to. I missed my runs through the park, I especially miss her.

Alex's POV

For the first time since I've been back, I decided to go for a run through Central Park. She and I used to run through there all the time before I was put in the program. As I was running I started to think about her. How much I missed her. How much I wish I told her how I felt. How much I want to talk to her. I just don't know what I would say. There is too much to be said. I don't want to get hurt, I don't want to get rejected and I know that is what would happen if I told Liv how I actually felt about her. As I was running through the park I was coming up to the hill where we used to stop and sit on the bench at the top to take a breather. From afar I could see someone sitting on the bench. As I got closer, I realized it was her. It was now or never, I could turn around and hope to never see her again or I could continue on and sit down with her. I can't just run past her.

"Olivia." It was more of a statement than anything else. She turned and looked at me.

"Alex!" She exclaimed. "Umm, I heard you were back."

"I'm sorry I haven't stopped by or anything, I just haven't…"

"You don't have to make excuses, I could have just as easily come and said as to you." She said as I started to say I had been busy. Which wasn't the truth but wasn't really a lie either.

"How have you been?" I asked as I sat down next to her.

"Alright I suppose. Cragen gave me a couple of days off because of a hard case this week. How about you, how are you doing?" She said awkwardly.

I held up my left hand. "Engaged."

"Oh yeah, I heard something about that, congratulations."

"Thank you. 'Liv, I have thought about you." I said and looked at her for her approval to continue.

"Alex, I have to get back to my apartment. Stop by the station, the boys would love to see you sometime. They miss you…" She said as she got up. She obviously didn't really want to talk. 'They miss you.' What about you Liv, did you miss me? Because, I have thought about you every minute since I had to say goodbye in the park and I've missed you more than anyone else while I was gone, and even when I came home. You 'Liv, no one else, YOU.

Olivia's POV

As soon as she called me 'Liv I felt the need to get out of there. She called me 'Liv when she was flirting with me or when we were alone together. Hearing her say 'Liv brought back everything that didn't happen but should have. I made some lame ass excuse and left you there. I wonder if you could see right through me, you used to be able to call me out. As I walked away I waited for you to yell at me and call me back, but you didn't. You just let me keep walking…My eyes started to water and by the time I was out of the park I was crying, openly. Something I never did.

Alex's POV

I watched you walk away, I let you walk away. I used to call you out when you acted this way, but not today, not now atleast. When I couldn't see you anymore I continued on my run, the entire time thinking about you.

For the next five days all I could do was think of you. I needed an excuse to see you, so I thought I'd wait to 'say hi to the guys' until you were back from your leave.

When I walked in the desk sergeant waved friendlily. I walked up the stairs I used to climb on a daily basis just to see your face and bright smile. I would make up an excuse like going over case notes for a trial or seeing if they needed any warrants. I finally made up to the SVU floor and took a deep breath before walking in.

"Cabot! You're alive!" Fin joked as I came in. Olivia looked up the second she heard my name and turned to look at me. "It is about time you came by to say hello. We've missed you!"

"I've missed you too Fin. I've been so busy since I've gotten back. I'm sorry I haven't made it over sooner..."

"Nah, it's alright. Munch and Elliot are out and Cragen isn't here today either. It is just Olivia and I right now. I'll radio the other guys see where they are."

"Oh, okay. Thanks. Hi 'Liv…" I said softly.

"Hey." She spoke sharply. "I have to go to the bathroom, I'll be back." She got up without looking at me and left for the bathroom.

"The guys will be back in like ten minutes, if you can stick around. They said that they'd love to see you."

"Alright, thanks Fin."

"Have some coffee, it tastes the same as it did two and a half years ago!"

"No thanks, I'm good. I think I'm gonna go to the bathroom, I'll be right back."

"Alright Cabot, take your time."

I walked out to the bathroom and took another deep breath before walking in.

Olivia's POV

I had to get out of there, I could bare just to be around her. She called me Liv again. Doesn't she know what that does to me? She has to, because she called me that in the park the other day too.

I was splashing water in my face and I heard the door open. I turned and watched her walk in.

"Hi 'Liv…" She said softly. The way that my name came out of her mouth seemed so natural, the way she said, the tone, everything. I took a deep breath before replying.

"Hi." I got some paper towels and quickly dried my hands and tried to leave. "I'm all done, do you mind?" I snapped.

"'Liv, can we talk?" She asked calmly.

"Don't call me that!" I retorted. She looked at me awkwardly. "Not now Alex, okay, just not now."

"Well then, when can we talk?" She asked softly.

"I don't know, I have a lot going on right now." I walked out of the bathroom and back into the office.

I got back to my desk and continued on the paper work I had been doing all day. Munch and Elliot came back in.

"Where's Cabot?" Elliot exclaimed as he walked in.

"She went to the bathroom, she should be back soon." Fin announced.

In walked Alex, with a little pep in her step. Was she trying to make me more upset?

"Hey El and Munchie! I've missed you two!" She said as she hugged the two guys.

Alex's POV

I walked over and leaned up against 'Liv's desk during my visit. I saw her continue working and completely ignoring the fact that I was inches from her. At one point her hand brushed against one of mine that was on her desk. Her touch was so soft, I started to crave it a bit. I moved my hand a little closer to her to see if she reacted a bit. A few more 'accidents' she called them as she apologized each time. I disregarded it and kept my hand there.

After about an hour of catching up with the guys and Liv and I subtly flirting I had to leave.

"Well, guys and Olivia it has been great seeing you all, but I should go, I have to be in court later this afternoon."

"Alright, we missed you Cabot. Make sure you stop by again, soon." Elliot said.

"I'll by again later this week. We should all go out for drinks sometime." I offered.

"Great idea, Friday after work, we should all meet at Maloney's at 7:30, that way if one of us has to work late, chances are we can still make it on time." Munch suggested.

"I'm in!" I added.

"Good, we'll see then Cabot."

"Bye everyone, it was great seeing you all again!" I said before turning to Olivia. "Bye Olivia…" I whispered.

"Bye Lex…" She whispered in reply. I hadn't heard her say that in a long time and it caused a smile to creep across my face.