Olivia's POV

I watched her walk out of the office until I couldn't see her anymore.

"So, Liv did you just fall in love all over again?" Elliot asked nonchalantly.

"She just walked right in here like nothing ever happened." Fin stated.

"I can't believe she was just here. We've all known that she has been back for sometime now, but she hasn't even stepped foot near the 16th in the six months." Munch added.

"Shut up El, this was the second time I've seen her. She is engaged and happy."

"When did you see her?" The three guys asked at the same time as they looked at me.

"I went for a run Saturday on our old route and so did she. We talked for a few minutes before I made up some excuse to leave." I stated plainly.

"Why, I thought you would have been excited to see her." El replied.

"Yeah, well so did I." I added. "I just… I don't know El, just now for instance she came in said hello talked for a little bit, sat on MY desk, and left. She has been back for six months El, I understand that she might have been busy, but no phone call hello or a quick stop by in between cases, NOTHING"

"Olivia, I understand that you're upset about her never coming by. I know that there was something more between you two before she left-"

"Elliot, stop now!" I shouted. Munch and Fin looking up from their work.

Alex's POV

I tried to walk out and look strong but almost turned around and walked right up to Liv and kiss her. Yes, I wanted to kiss Olivia Benson, mainly because I am absolutely one hundred and ten percent in love with her. I'm engaged though so a man I will never love. It is out of convenience; Liv will never forgive me for being so stupid before, Robert was there when I was too scared to go to Liv.

I said bye to the desk sergeant and continued out of the building. I kept thinking of ways to bump into Olivia again, but I knew it would look completely obvious if I had just happened to bump into her.

I headed back to my office and sulked into my chair once I got there. I thought about who I could talk to, I didn't have anyone to talk to. I got up in search of one of my ADAs.

"Hey Jessica." I said as I stood in the doorway of one of my brightest ADAs.

"Cabot, hi. What can I do for you?"

"I know you and I have never really got along that well and all but I sort of need your advice on something." I murmured.

"Umm, okay. Shoot…" She replied.

"Can we talk about this in my office?" I asked.

"Sure, in your office it is." She said as she got up and we walked to my office.

"Have a seat please." I said as I saw down. She sat down as well.

"Okay Alex, is everything okay?" Jessica asked as she got comfortable.

"Have you ever been in love?"

"Is this about Jim?" She asked bluntly.

"Oh god no… Sorry, no, this has nothing to do with Jim." I reassured her.

"Okay, thank god." She added. "Well, the answer to your question is, yes… I have. I think I am…"

"You and Jim are that serious?" I questioned.

"Sort of… anyways what is that you wanted to talk to me about?"

"Have you ever been in love with someone so much, but they are completely unattainable?"

"Yes, I believe I have been. You have Robert though, is there someone else now?"

"Well, they have always sort of been there, we knew each other before I was even in the program. We worked together over at SVU and we actually just saw each other for the first time the other day. And I went over to SVU and we sort of talked, with the rest of the squad. It isn't that easy…"

"Why did you let go?"

"I am scared, still am. I wouldn't have gotten where I am today if we were together."

"Why is that?"

"Well, she—"

"Oh, okay. Wow, Cabot, I had no idea that you batted for that team…" Rossi stated, a bit shocked.

"No one really does, nothing ever really happened between us, we flirted and all, but we never got together or anything like that. When I came back from the program I was afraid that she had moved on or she was just being friendly before. So I held off seeing her for six months and in the mean time I got engaged and started telling myself this huge lie."

"Alex, wow, so the rumors were true." She laughed. "Does she know how you feel?"

"I'm not sure, I think she might. She was pushing me away though and then sort of flirting with me today. She wouldn't let me call her 'Liv' but she 'accidentally' brushed her hand against mine while I was leaning on her desk and then she called me 'Lex,' as I left. I made the mistake of lying to myself over the past six months and I'm afraid that I'm going to have to live with that for the rest of my life."

"Alex, tell Liv how you feel, chances are she probably feels the same way about you. You're an amazing person Cabot, I know we've had our differences, but I look up to you."

"Thank you Jess, it means a lot. I'll give Olivia a call sometime this week to talk to her. But first, tonight, I'll have to talk with Robert…"

"Alright, give me a call if you need anything or if something happens, I'm here for you." Jess reassured me.

"Thank you Rossi, okay well go get back to work, and please don't tell anybody about this, even Jim…"

"I won't, you have my word on that." Jess replied.

"Thank you…" I said to her as she left my office.

I sat and stared at my phone before I actually got up the courage to call Robert.

Olivia's POV

She is back, really back. I've seen her, talked with her, gotten upset at her, shut her out, and flirted with her. It is just like old times, except now I am the one shutting her out instead of her shutting me out. Now she knows how it feels though, well maybe she doesn't care because the last thing on her mind is probably having any sort of personal relationship with me. After all she is engaged to a really great guy according to her.

After work that day I headed home and went for a run on our old route, past our favorite bench and through our most favorite part of the city. When I got home I collapsed in bed and my eyes started to fill with tears. I missed her, I really did and seeing her again didn't help. It was about nine when I got a call from Elliot about DB in Bryant Park, possible rape. I left my apartment and headed back out.

"Hey, so what's up?"

"We have a female, DB rape victim, Alexandra Roy, nineteen years old, lives on Central Park West, and attends Columbia. It wasn't a robbery, credit cards and a large sum of cash are still in the purse. I have a call into the parents, but the maid said they are out of town or the week, gave me a cell number, left a message on that to call me back as soon as possible."

"Alright, did anyone see anything?" I inquired.

"No, of course no one saw anything. That would make things too easy for us. Munch and Fin are canvassing right now, there is a bodega across the street, that the victim had a receipt in her purse from earlier this week. I'm supposed to go over and took to the guy and see if she was with anyone, anything look out of order. You want to go over with me?"

"Sure, let's go."

The night was routine, we finally got a hold of the parents around midnight and they are going to be on the first flight back to New York, her father is the famous director, Michael Roy. I stayed in the crib that night after working until two in the morning, going over the questions and answers from the canvas and talking with the employee at the bodega. The bodega employee was a huge help, saying the girl came in many times a week usually with the same guy, but on Tuesday she came only which was unusual and today she came with a new guy, who was a lot older. He gave a fairly good description and we asked him to come in the following morning to talk with a sketch artist.

Alex's POV

I sat at the booth waiting for Robert to arrive. I was nervous as hell to talk to him. I saw him walk in and I waved as he scanned the dining room.

"Hi sweetheart, sorry I'm late, things ran a bit late at the office."

"Oh, okay…"

"So what is it you want to talk about Lex?" He asked as she took his seat.

"Order a drink." I waved over the waiter.

"Hello there Miss Cabot, what can I get you?"

"Robert, what are you going to have?"

"I'll have a Bacardi and coke please, light on the ice." I told the waiter.

"Alexandra is everything okay?"

"How was your day?"

"You are stalling, what is the matter?"

"I went back over to SVU today to see everyone over there."

"I thought you said you didn't want that part of your life back. You were going to try and move on."

"I couldn't, they were the only real friends I had before I went into the program, and I couldn't completely just abandon them. I missed them too much."

"Okay, so how did it go?"

"Great, really great. They were having a quiet day so they were all able to talk and catch up. I had forgotten how much fun they all were."

"That isn't all, is it?"

I put my head down and my hands and shook it slowly side to side. My eyes started to water and when I brought my head back up the tears were flowing. "I can't do this…" I said softly.

"What can't you do Alex?" He inquired.

"This, you and me. I can't lying to myself. Robert, you are an amazing man and I never thought or wanted to hurt you." I cried.

"What is happening Alex?"

"Robert, I'm sorry…" I said.

"Alright, Alexandra I want you to be happy and I wanted to be the cause of that happiness, but it looks as though I'm not going to be. You go, I'll take care of your drink." He said, trying to remain strong. "I wish you all the best." We both stood up and we hugged one last time and he kissed me on the cheek.

"Thank you for understanding Robert, thank you so much…" I whispered in his ear. I took my coat and left the restaurant and headed back to my apartment.