Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans.

Well, I wrote this a long time ago... Eh, not good at all, but the mental image of Raven on her hands and knees during the strom just wouldn't leave me. So here you go. Thanks to animeobsessed3191, rock'n'rollbitch, and Robyn J. for reviewing!

-If You're Happy-

Raven watched, emotionless, as Beast Boy and Terra walked by the Tower base. As she stood on the roof,something in her started to disappear as their laughter reached her ears. Then, biting her lip, the empath sat down on the metal and rested her head in her arms.

She had seen their faces, watched something grow between the two even as something sparked in her heart for the changeling.

They're happy. Beast Boy is happy. That was all that mattered.

What about you? Something whispered in her mind. Don't you want to be happy? Why should you be left out?

Stop. As long… as long as he's happy, I'm fine.

Liar.

"Stop."

It would be so easy, to crush her-

"Stop!"

to bring him to you-

"STOP IT!" She screamed, putting her hands to her ears. Ever since Terra had come, Raven had begun to unravel. Bit by bit it was becoming harder to control herself. She was going to have to tell the Titans- but Raven didn't want to see their looks of doubt or concern, or of fear.

Fear.

Fear that this thing she felt was love.

Fear that Beast Boy might find out.

Fear that he would leave her.

Like everyone else.

"Rae?" The hesitant query made her freeze.

No.

"Raven? Who are you talking to?" She didn't move. The uncertain footsteps came closer.

Lightening flashed in the sky, clouds growing.

"Raven? I- I wanted to ask you something." Thunder rumbled, ominous undertones rolling through the two.

"Terra and I-"

A flash of lightening illuminated her scared face as the violet haired girl pressed her hands to the firm roof.

"Don't."

"What do you mean, Raven?"

"Don't." Her whisper betrayed her heart. Tears started to flow down her face, mingling with the raindrops falling down hard. She shook her head.

"I don't want to hear those words. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THOSE WORDS!" The screams ripped from the normally emotionless girl as her power flew out, unleashed by his voice. Beast Boy backed up.

"Raven!" Her heart breaking, the girl struggled half heartedly to rein in the black bolts. The door to the roof flew open as Robin, Cyborg and Starfire burst through, following Terra.

Her eyes glowing red and black, the Titan stood in a maelstorm of power. Terra grabbed Beast Boy, drawing him out of the power's way.

"Raven!" Their shouts didn't reach her. Like a whirlwind it enveloped her, channeling through the deteriorating girl.

I'm scaring them.

Good. They should be. You could crush them right here.

I didn't want to this happen. I didn't want to this happen!

But you knew it would. And now it has.

Stop! STOP!

She screamed, eyes flashing white. The wind hissed, cutting her with her own power. Raven collapsed to her knees slowly, looking down at her hands. Slowly, the girl looked up to see Beast Boy's worried face.

"Sorry." With that she started to disappear, the blackness consuming her in its efforts to keep going. As her legs vanished and her hands and torso slowly followed suit, Raven struggled, fighting to the end.

"No!" But she was gone. Beast Boy stumbled, dropping down to touch the place where she had been. Only her belt and cloak remained. He slowly picked them up, turning to the others as tears fell silently down his cheeks.

"Raven…"

In the darkness she sighed, freed of her burden, of holding back.

Goodbye, Beast Boy.