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Chapter 12: Rifts and drifts

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They were heading up to make their daily visit to the hospital wing to see Sirius. It was almost Christmas, and he still hadn't recovered from the attack. Madame Pomefry wasn't sure how long it was going to be until he woke up. They would tread up the all the stairs until they got there, and would sit and wait for about an hour just talking, and then they would walk back to Gryffindor tower.

The Cruciatus curse had really taken its toll on him, and soon he wouldn't be the only one they knew who had. Sienna had survivors guilt, even though Sirius wasn't dead she still felt like it was her fault for being cursed in the first place. Every single time they would go and visit him she would end up crying, which was quite strange for her because she never cried.

After that particular Hogsmeade trip their lives had been living hell, filled with tons of homework, bad days, crying, evil Slytherins, and the ever present fact that the one person who had the capability of cheering them up was in a coma.

They were however extremely excited for the Christmas break because it meant that they had a chance to relax, and possibly then, Sirius would wake up.

One day Lily was sitting at the window seat of the Gryffindor common room looking out at the crystal white blanket of snow that had gracefully fallen onto the ground. Individual snowflakes were slowly falling, leaving fluffy imprints onto the ground below. The weight of the window seat seemed to give a little bit, signaling that she had a visitor.

Remus gazed at the one person that he had loved since he set eyes on her, but he would never do anything to hurt James, and he always put his friends first so he never said anything about it; until Natasha he thought that he truly loved Lily but now he realized that he could only love the one for him, and that one was Natasha. The one thing he truly adored about Lily was her ongoing spirit, and her kindness, and he needed that right now because he couldn't decide what to do with Natasha.

"Hey Lily" he said quietly, and she gazed at him for a moment until she responded "hey Remus what's up?" he smiled at her and joked "the sky," and she laughed.

"Lily, actually something is up, and I need you opinion, but we have to do this in private because if anyone were to find out the truth, well lets just say that things would never be the same again" he said solemnly, she looked at him with a confused expression but then stood up thinking that it must be important, and it was.

They walked out onto the grounds and sat on a pretty little bench by the lake, it was chilly and frosty but that made it a nice atmosphere to talk in, and besides they were all bundled up anyways in scarves, mittens, and coats.

"So what is this all about?" she asked curiously "Look, I haven't been completely truthful to you about who I am or more like it what I am. I need your help, and if you leave me for this than, I don't know what I'm going to do." She gazed at him, waiting for him to continue, and her heart started to beat faster 'what did he mean, I haven't been completely truthful you?' she thought wildly.

"Ok so you know how about once a month I get sick, or I have to go visit my sick grandmother or mother?" she nodded "well I was lying."

He continued "Lily, I'm not who you think I am, have you ever realized what days I leave on? I leave every full moon." Then it clicked I Lily's mind 'oh no' she thought 'this is horrible, I can't imagine the pain he must go through, why didn't I think of it before? He's a werewolf!' she couldn't believe this, and she felt terribly sad for him.

"You're a werewolf" she whispered, and all he could do was nod. 'Oh no, now she's never going to want to speak to me again, I knew this was a bad idea, god you are so thick Remus, you should never have told her in the first place, well she would have figured it out all by herself anyways' he thought worriedly.

"Oh Remus" her voice changed from shock to sympathy, and she jumped and gave him a huge hug, tears welled in her eyes "I'm so sorry you have to go through that every month, it must be so painful, but your secret is safe with me!"

"Well I think you somewhat understand, because women become monsters once a month, don't they?" he asked playfully, and in return she gave him a playful slap. "Who bit you?" she asked on a more somber note.

"His name is Fenrir Greyback. My dad and I got in a fight one night so I went outside to my tree house, which is still like my haven when I'm at home. It's a little way into the woods nearby and suddenly I was pushed down to the ground. I looked up to see a wolf like animal; being a half-blood on my dad's side I knew enough to know that it was a werewolf, even though I was young. I was so scared, I knew that werewolves would bite and I knew that they could also kill, and I was starting to regret that fight I got in. That was the last thing that I remember, and the next thing I knew I was in St. Mungo's hospital for magical maladies and inquiries.

"I asked what had happened and my mum just burst into tears, she was so upset. Even though she's a muggle she knew about werewolves, I'm sure you knew about them too before you came here. But anyways that's beside the point I was bitten, and now, I'm a werewolf. Sometimes I feel bad for Fenrir, I mean I know what it is like now, and you just can't control yourself, and it's just too bad that he was in the wrong place at the wrong time." Remus finished his story, while Lily just stared at him in awe, she just couldn't imagine not being able to control yourself and your actions, it would be miserable, and she didn't want to pity him because she knew that Remus wouldn't want that but she did anyways.

"So here comes to the part where I ask your help, I have never seriously dated anyone until Natasha because of my 'furry little problem' as James calls it. I don't feel I can date a girl who doesn't know the truth, because for one I want it to be her choice if she wants to date a werewolf or not, and the second reason is that I would never want to hurt anyone, especially someone I really cared about, and even loved." He looked Lily in the eyes as he said this, and she knew then and there that his love for Natasha was genuine.

"Oh Lily, you don't understand, I love her so much, I just don't want her to hate me for something I can't control, and worst of all I would never forgive myself if I were to hurt her during a full moon. I don't know what to do, because of all this I want to break up with her, but I really don't want to because I care about her so much. Because you are her best friend, and I knew that you wouldn't tell anyone about my condition, I need to know what you think her reaction would be if I were to tell her, do you think I should tell her, I just need your overall opinion?" He looked truly worried as he told her this.

Lily thought a minute before answering and then finally she said "well I truly believe that honesty is always the best way, as for how she will take it I think that it will upset her that you go so much pain every month, but I don't think the fact that you are a werewolf won't bug her too much, and she won't tell anyone for positive."

He smiled at her and whispered "thank you so much Lily, I couldn't ask for a better friend in you!" she positively grinned at him, and they walked back up to the castle arm in arm and skipping.

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A few days later it was a full moon day. Remus was paler then normal and looked slightly peaky, throughout the day Lily would give him words of encouragement, because before tonight he had to tell Natasha the truth.

Midway through the day Lily came up to him and asked him with curiosity "who else knows the truth?" and he answered truthfully "the marauders, you and no one else." Satisfied with his answer she left him, they ate dinner, and once again the rest of the boys seemed slightly nervous. This confused Lily, she knew Remus had a reason to be acting weird, but why were the rest of the Marauders? She decided to stay up late and confront James about it, incase she didn't see him.

Before dinner was over Remus started talking to Natasha in a hushed voice. "Natasha we need to talk" her heart started beating faster then it ever had before, and she was sure that Remus could hear it because it was so loud "ok" she whispered.

He grabbed her hand reassuringly, and they walked a little bit until they reached a broom closet, he pulled her inside. She was slightly happier about this though, because usually broom closets meant snogging, she leaned in for the kiss but it never came. Instead Remus started talking.

"I love you Natasha, and that is why I'm telling you this." She loved it when he told her that but he continued "look you know how I disappear about once a month because I'm sick or I'm visiting a sick relative?" she nodded "well it hurt every that I left to lie to you like this, but I really had to make sure you were the right girl for me." She looked him in the eyes and he stared right back at her "well I don't actually disappear that far away, just to the shrieking shack; and the reason its called the shrieking shack is because of me, because once a month on the full moon I become a werewolf."

She gasped and turned away from him, she didn't know what to say, what if he hurt her? Why did this have to happen to the man she loved? Before he could even say anything she jumped on him and kissed him passionately. He looked out side quickly and pulled away "I have to go, it's time for me to become a werewolf, I promise I will tell you everything later though, but because I care about your safety and the safety of everyone else in Hogwarts I really have to go." She waved goodbye, feeling proud of herself and letting go of her true emotions of shock and horror, because she had known him since he was eleven and she was sure that he had been a werewolf longer then that, so she knew he was a good guy and she wouldn't make anything different between them.

So the Marauders disappeared into the night, and Lily sat up late waiting for him. It was the last day of the term so Lily decided to do all of the homework she possibly could until they got back. They got back around 4:00 AM, and Lily had just finished every bit of homework she had gotten when they came into the room.

"Hello boys, hi Remus! You three" she pointed at James and Peter "we need to talk about something" they gave her quizzical looks but complied and sat down while Remus went up to their dormitory.

"Why were you out with Remus till this late at night, you could get seriously hurt!" she exclaimed unhappily "I have absolutely no idea what you are talking about" Peter said in his best acting voice "oh don't be thick Pettigrew, I'm not stupid and I know about Remus's furry little problem because he told me" the Marauders exchanged looks of shock and discomfort.

"Now that we have that all cleared up you need to tell me the truth about why you are out rampaging with a werewolf when you could get bitten?" James was the one to come out and tell her.

"Well when we found out in the end of first year we decided that we needed to do something to help him, after all he is our best friend. So we did research and found out that if a werewolf bites an animal then they don't become werewolves, it has no effect on them. So we started trying to become Animagi, and in the end of fifth year we finally accomplished that. I'm a stag, Sirius is a big shaggy black dog" no surprises there Lily muttered "and Peter is a rat."

"I can't believe that you would endanger yourself like that James! I care about you so much, and how could you possibly get hurt, I don't know what I would do with myself!" Sirius looked at her with hurt "you don't care about me?" she laughed "well you're not my boyfriend but I do definitely care about you!" she smiled at him.

"Why didn't you tell me before, I thought that's what a relationship was, telling each other everything!" he looked shocked "I couldn't betray my friend, it's a big enough secret to be a werewolf as it is, but to be an animaegus and an illegal one, isn't the best thing. And I'm sure there are things you haven't told me, I mean have you seriously told me all your secrets, because if you have I sure don't remember them!" James shot at her angrily "Ok wise guy if you're so smart, maybe I haven't told you everything, but that also could be because I'm not doing anything illegal!" Lily yelled angrily.

"You know what maybe your right, little goody two shoes Lily would never ever do anything against the law, oh no" James yelled back mockingly "as a matter of fact, one time I hexed Petunia and I got a warning letter from the ministry saying if I did it again then I would have to attend a hearing. I stayed up all night for this? Goodnight Potter, or more like it, not so good night!" Lily screamed in frustration and ran up the stairs, as soon as she reached her bed she broke down and tears, and slowly but surely cried herself to sleep.

"Oh its back to last now is it Evans?" James was angry that she didn't understand but she could understand where she was coming from; he certainly wouldn't like it too much if she was an illegal animaegus, and besides his reasoning was so dangerous even if it was to help a friend.

Neither of them slept too well and looked rather ghostly when morning fell. The only good thing was that the term was over and now all they had to do was relax. Once again, things would be cheerful but without Sirius around everything that would be fun seemed gloomy and boring.

During breakfast that morning Remus approached Lily and whispered "you know all that Peter, James, and Sirius (when he is conscious) are trying to do is help me and make those nights a tad bit more pleasant but they also help to control me. They are being great friends to me by doing this, and I think you are being stupid to let friendship get in the way with your relationship with James." Lily stared at him in shock "he's really beating himself up over our fight isn't he?" she asked and Remus nodded; Lily decided then and there that she would go and talk to James as soon as they had both finished eating.

She finished off her eggs and toast with jam and then waited for James to finish his pancakes, as soon as he was finished she walked over, grabbed him by the arm and hauled him over to a nearby corner.

"Look James I love you more then you can imagine" James was always happy to hear that especially because he felt the same way about Lily, he felt as though he could spend the rest of his life with her "and I guess it just makes me worried about you to think that you hang out with a werewolf in his transformed state, I mean look at this" she pulled out his arm that showed a deep gash that Remus had obviously given him.

"I just want you to be safe and I don't want anything to happen to you that's all, its only because I care about you that I think this way" she gave him a half-smile and he grinned back and replied "I'm absolutely positive that I would be more upset than you were if I had been in your situation, you did what you had to do, and I'm sorry I got upset with you!" she gave him a great big hug and said "I'm really sorry too James!"

"I love you" he whispered, and then he kissed her and she was so happy. It was the first time that either of them had felt any sort of relief since what had happened to Sirius. And then it struck James, only a few days left until Christmas!

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Lily awoke early on Christmas morning, she was almost like a child in that sense, she loved giving and getting presents, but most of all she loved the holiday cheer that came with Christmas time! She climbed to the foot of her bed to see a pile of presents just sitting there glistening in the frosty sunlight. She and James agreed to give each other gifts together so it would be more fun.

Her parents had sent her a huge pile of books both magic and non-magic, and a bag of lemon drops- which were a type of muggle lolly that she was absolutely mad about! Peter had given her a periwinkle rhinestone collar for Guinevere, Remus gave her a book that never ends and always has new chapters, Sienna gave her 5 bottles of sparkly ink that you could wish them to be whatever color you wanted them to be, Natasha gave her a teddy bear that would give her hugs, Kat gave her a bunch of parchment that could be whatever length you wanted them to be, and Alice gave her a picture frame that was a collage of different pictures of the five friends and inside there was a picture taken during the summer of them smiling and waving at the camera.

Breakfast was delicious; there was every type of breakfast food imaginable on the table including pancakes, French toast, cereal, waffles, oatmeal, eggs and so much more.

The eight friends just spent the day enjoying each others company and having fun. They had a snowball fight, girls against boys and because it was so uneven Frank Longbottom and Arthur Weasley decided to join as well. When James was working on making a huge snowball for Sienna, Lily took a ton of little ones and started thrusting them at him, he was in such shock that before he knew it, one of them went inside his ear, which was very uncomfortable, cold and wet.

After a ton of fun they headed back up towards the castle to dry off and get slightly warmer. After they had all had warm showers they dressed in comfy but slightly dressy clothes for Christmas dinner. Before they all headed down, Lily and James had gotten their presents for each other and were about to exchange them, James held Lily's present behind his back and Lily did likewise.

"You go first" she said excitedly, she was really excited about getting a present but she also really hoped that James would like her present. He pulled out a leather bound diary that had the words Lily Evans engraved on the front in gold, attached was a little gold key. "You don't even need a pen, just open it up and think what you want to say and it will write it down, it will also magically erase anything you want to rephrase or don't want to write down." She stared at the book in awe, she had never had a diary before, and with everything going on and her emotions running wild, it seemed like the most perfect gift she had ever received. "Oh James I love it, what a thoughtful present, I will definitely use it all the time" and what she said was genuinely true.

"Ok my turn" James said happily, he knew Lily had great taste and that he would love whatever she got him. She pulled out a small box from behind her back, he opened it with care and there was the nicest wristwatch he had ever received; it was silver around the edges and in the middle it was gilded with gold, in the actual watch part instead of having numbers to mark the hours there were tiny minuscule little diamonds. "If anyone you care about is hurt or in danger it will start spinning, and then it will send this signal through to you, and somehow, I have no idea how, you will know who it is." This was one of the most well thought out gifts that James had ever received, sure he had gotten many presents over the years, his parents were nothing short of wealthy, but this had some sort of love attached to it that neither of the could explain.

They headed down to one of the most delicious Christmas dinners that either of them had ever had. Then they ran back up to Gryffindor common room, they were going to get the gifts that they had gotten Sirius, and put it by his bedside for when he awoke, if he awoke.

Once they were all assembled by the fire place they marched up to the hospital wing. Once they arrived, they all became very sad, because Sirius was so still that he could be dead, except there was a slow breathing coming from his chest, so at least they knew he was alive.

One by one they put their presents at the bottom of his bed, along side many other candies and such that other people had left for him, as a get well sort of thing. Sienna was last in line, she put her present at the foot of his bed and bent down and kissed him. Not hard or anything, just kindly and happily, filled with holiday happiness and sadness for not being able to share it with the man she loved.

Sirius's eyes fluttered open 'who the bloody hell is kissing me?' he thought, and then he realized that it was Sienna and he relaxed a little bit. He pulled away from the kiss and said loudly "wow, that must have been quite the show!" everyone besides Sienna was halfway out the door when they heard this. They all rushed back in, filled with joy.

"You're awake!" Sienna screamed, and gave him a huge hug; soon everyone else was piled on top of them so you couldn't see the table anymore, all you could see was excited bodies! "So how long was I asleep?" Sirius asked curiously "hmm I would have to say around two weeks, you were bloody out mate!" James said, Sirius just stared at them, had he really missed two weeks of his life, because it hadn't felt that long it all, it felt like two minutes.

"What happened?" he asked "well Sienna was dueling with a seventh year Slytherin, who was expelled by the way, and he sent the Cruciatus curse at her, and you being the chivalrous person that you are jumped in front of her and took the curse for yourself instead of her. He had you bad, for at least five minutes, and well, we were worried that you would never wake up again, not that you'd be dead, just in a coma" Lily replied.

Sienna bent down and kissed Sirius again, who was still sore from the curse, grunted a little because of the pain but relaxed "I love you Sirius" she whispered "I love you too, Sienna" he whispered back. All they both felt at that exact same moment was pure love and caring for the other, all was well at Hogwarts.

Authors note: Longest chapter yet! Happy Thanksgiving, to all my American readers, and to all my cool un-American readers Happy Thursday! Tell me what you think, I tried so hard not to make it a cliff-hanger… did I succeed? I really want to know how you liked it, good or bad I just want to know. I also need some ideas so feel free to email me with them! I'm passing out leftover pie from dinner to night to all of my great reviewers!