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Italics Means thoughts

"So we meet again, it seems." Hevn said to Ban.

Ban turned around from the stool he was sitting on to see Hevn standing behind him. Her face full of worries and with a measure of relief in them.

Ban only grunted in response as he turned back to his drink and downing it in a single gulp.

Hevn took the stool next to him and watched him drink a bottle of whisky. There were other two bottles next to him. They were both empty already and it seems he was going for a third one to join them.

"Don't you think you had enough?" Hevn asked him.

"Why is it that women think they know everything?!" Ban snapped at her.

Hevn was surprised with the amount of anger she felt from him. They were not directed at her of course, merely the one pointed to at the moment.

Seeing her distraught expression, Ban irritably turned to face her.

"Go home Hevn. Leave me alone to wallow in my own self derision." Ban said with a hint of apology in his voice. He didn't mean to snap at her. She was just there and it seemed convenient to lash out. Though he knew it was wrong.

"I don't need your pity." He added. He didn't like the sympathy and empathy he saw in her eyes.

"Want to talk about it?" Hevn tried to ignore his words. She knew he was hurting. It hurt her to see him this way.

"How could you sit there?" Ban once again turned to her.

"How could you sit there and comfort me, when I hurt you?" Ban said as he gazed into her amber eyes.

Hevn was shocked. He knew. He knew she liked him. At that instant, all she wanted to do was to yell at him. Scream at him. Deny that she had feelings for him.

But then what?

What did that leave her?

Where does that leave her?

Anger warred inside her. She was angered of the way he knew and yet never told her. Is that why he avoided her?

Ban sat there and watch her consternation. Why couldn't it not be her that he fell for?

Sure he liked her. Most men worshiped her. It wasn't hard to like her with all that she was.

She had a great body and a lovely face. But she had more depth than that. Her eyes was the most intriguing thing about her. How her amber eyes displayed so much feelings and one look into them makes you drown in such emotions.

"Because… Because your hurting… and that your still a friend… Ban…" Hevn tentatively said. Unsure how to phrase her words. Not really knowing what to say when her feelings where spiralling out of control.

"Friend?…" Ban said. The word didn't sound right to him. It left a somewhat bitter taste in his mouth as it rolled out of his tongue.

"Yes Ban… You're a friend." Hevn said. More to convince herself than him. Perhaps saying those words will make her believe them.

"Then I'm a lousy one. I treated you so badly this couple of days Hevn." Ban said as he took another gulp of alcohol. From his peripheral vision he could see Charlie shaking his head in disapproval of his drinking habits.

"I wasn't any better either." Hevn replied back.

"I think you had enough my friend." Charlie interrupted them.

"I'll say when I had enough Charlie." Ban said as he took another swig.

Charlie turned to Hevn for help. Silently pleading to her to make him stop before he fully passes out in the Bar.

"Let's get you home Ban." Hevn said.

"I don't want to go yet." Ban said childishly.

"Come on Ban, your drunk already." Hevn pleaded.

"Have a drink with me first." Ban said.

"Ban…" Hevn complained. She didn't want to drink. She had to drive him home. She didn't want alcohol to influence her at the moment especially when her emotions are thrown into chaos.

"We are not going anywhere until you take a drink with me." Ban insisted.

"If I agree to have a drink with you, then can we go?" Hevn asked.

"Yes." Ban answered.

"Alright." Hevn found herself agreeing.

Ban sat on the edge of the bed. His head cradle between the palms of his hands.

He felt like such a heel.

An idiot.

He truly believed what Shido called him. He was a Snake bastard.

He had done many indescribable things in his past. But somehow this tops the rest of them. He gazed at her sleeping form. She looked so peaceful. So relax. So innocent. And he sullied her. He destroyed what little friendship they had. After today, he doubts she will have anything to do with him. And why would she?

He respected her. Admired her even. But what happened between them will be too much to ignore. He gently brushed away the stray strands of golden blonde hair away from her face. She was beautiful. More than any words can describe. He then gently caressed her cheek. A thousand thoughts bombarded his head.

Should he stay?

Or

Should he leave?

Should he wait for her to wake up and talk?

How could he possibly explain what happened?

When he himself have no idea what happened?

Would she listen to him?

or

Would she throw him out?

Hevn woke up with a slight pounding in her head. She tried to remember what it was she did the night before but nothing seemed to come into mind. Her body felt wonderful somehow. She felt her skin radiate and glow. She seemed to be filled with some sort of joy even though her head ached. She also felt a warm hand caressing her cheek.

Hevn gently opened her eyes, only to be met by the darkest blue eyes. Blue eyes that undoubtedly belonged to Midou Ban. For a moment she felt as though she was in a trance. Hypnotised by his gaze.

"Ban?" She managed to say. Her voice filled with awe.

He remained silent. Just watching her. As he caressed her face.

"Hevn… I…" He began to say but no words can formulate what he tried to say. His hand began to retreat from her face hesitantly and he buried his head once again on his hands.

Hevn began to sit up. Only then did she realise the soft cotton sheets against her naked skin. Naked. She was naked under those sheets. Realisation hits her. She looked at Ban and saw that he was naked from the top but saw that he was wearing his boxers.

She clutched the sheet around her tighter. As she looked away from him.

Silence.

The silence was deafening between them.

Hevn knew Ban was already regretting what happened between them. She should feel the same way too. But for some reason seeing him regret what they did made her heart break. While she wished they never did what they did in that drunken circumstances, she also felt relief. That for one night. One night, Ban made love to her.

But seeing him regret what transpired between them, hurt. She couldn't help but let the tears fall from her eyes. She tried to stop them but it was just too painful. Her eyes burned.

Ban gazed at Hevn and his heart stopped, when he saw tears fall down her lovely cheeks. He never wanted to see her cry. To see her hurt. His anger with himself intensified. He was filled with so much emotions, his mind in chaos. He tried to reach out to her but she flinched.

Hevn flinched. She couldn't bare for him to touch her now. Not when she saw the regret in his eyes.

He feels guilty.

Guilty.

There was many things he wanted him to feel. But not guilt.

She thought that perhaps, what happened between them would be a fresh start for them. But she was wrong. Her fantasy of Ban falling in love with her with one night of passion could never have been so wrong. And it hurt. It hurt to think that the man she finally fell for didn't love her back.

"God Hevn please don't." Ban found himself saying.

Hevn reluctantly looked at him.

"Please don't look at me like that." Ban said with anger in his voice. More to himself.

"What did you expect me to feel?" Hevn found herself asking him.

"There are other men out there, who is worthy of your love Hevn." Ban finally managed to say. But somehow it hurt him to think of any man to be with Hevn.

Hevn saw for the briefest moment, the hurt in his eyes. He cared for her. And for the briefest moment she felt hope.

"You deserve better." Ban finally said. His head bowed.

"Ban?" Hevn found herself saying as she tried to reach out to him.

Ban caught her hand and kissed the inside of her palm.

"I'm sorry Hevn." he managed to say before he began to get up and picked up the rest of his clothes.

Hevn just sat there as she watched him gather his clothes. His back facing her. Fighting the tears that was threatening to fall.

Ban then began to head for the door, but stopped. He took one long lingering glance at her. He opened his mouth to say something. But again words failed him. No words came out. He bowed his head and closed the door.

"Your wrong Ban." Hevn said to herself.

"You are worthy of my love. It was just too soon." Hevn said to herself as the tears finally fell from her eyes as she heard, his car drive away from her.

Ban slammed his hands against the steering wheel as he entered the car.

"WHAT IN KAMI'S NAME WAS I DOING?!" he shouted at no one but himself.

He remembered the tears that fell from her eyes because of him. And he wanted nothing better to do but rip himself apart because of it. Seeing her hurt and cry over him made his heart break. How could it be that, he could care for her when he just broke up with Himiko?

Could it be?

Could it be that he was falling for Hevn?

Ban then got a hold of himself. Whatever it was he was feeling he better be sure. Cause he could not stand the sight of Hevn or anyone he cared about hurt because his feelings were erratic.

Damn!

Since when did he so emotional. He preferred being cold and alone. That way no one else got hurt.

Ban looked back and stared at the second floor window of Hevn's home. The window where he was sure, was Hevn's bedroom.

He looked at it longingly before he revved up his car and drove away.

Everything was happening too fast. Too soon.

Only time will tell what will become of them.

Author Notes:

How do you like it? Don't worry it's not yet finish. I'm not leaving them like that.

I'm sorry to everyone for making Ban seemed more callous to Hevn in the previous chapter, though I still didn't do a very good job of redeeming Ban in this chapter either.

I wanted to explore Ban-chan's feelings more. He cares for Hevn but he was just not sure if he cares for her the same way she does. The best way he knew how to not hurt Hevn was to totally show her that he didn't deserve her love. Except as you can tell made the opposite effect.

Please review…

I'll be wrapping this story up in the next couple of chapters (haven't decided yet how long I want this fic)

So please stay tuned to the stunning conclusion of this story.

Ja Ne,

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