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Gabrielle. Little Robin/Raven scene here! Wahoo! It's about damn time.
Hand in Hand
Chapter Twenty One: I Wish
26th November
Robin stared at Raven from across the kitchen. He was busy making scrambled eggs for his breakfast because the other had all gone out for some reason that was not known to him. He suspected that Beast Boy had dragged them off to buy Christmas decorations. Aqualad was busy in Atlantis today and that left him alone with Raven.
That wasn't a good thing. For one he couldn't stop staring at her. He really didn't know what was wrong with him. He should be happy after all over the past four days Raven had agreed to go to more places with the rest of them than ever before. She smiled more too although Robin thought there was something in her smile that made her expression seem...he didn't know, empty some how. He told himself again that he should be happy for her after all it was public knowledge now that Raven and Aqualad were a couple. They had announced it four days ago the night that they went to the mall.
And yet despite this announcement that they both had made he had seen no interaction between them to suggest that they were actual boy friend and girlfriend. He had seen Raven smiling at Aqualad and a few times when they had been caught holding hands but apart from that...he had never seen the two of them kiss or cuddle and for some reason that small piece of information made him smile widely.
His eyes focused back on Raven and he watched her for a moment more. She was sat at the end of the semi-circle sofa in front of the TV and had her head buried deep in the pages of a thick black leather book. He could only imagine what she was reading about. He couldn't really pay attention to the book because he was too busy staring at her face. Her eyes were staring down at the page intently and he saw things in her face that normally he never saw. He wondered if he should read the book, if it was good enough to make Raven betray her own feelings it must be a best seller or something. He had suddenly decided he was going to add purple to his list of enchanting colours.
##You don't know what you do to me,
Sometimes I feel,
You knock me off my feet##
Smoke blocked his view for a moment and he glared at it. Smoke? He looked down and yelped. He jumped backwards quite comically and waved his hands at the now burning eggs.
Raven looked up from her book, smiled wryly and settled into a more comfortable position to watch.
Robin looked up at her while fanning away the smoke, "I could use some help here you know!" he yelled to her.
Raven merely looked at him and arched an eyebrow, "It's your mess." She said simply closing her book and watching.
"Oh gee thanks." Muttered Robin running to the sink, forgetting to take the pan off the stove. He turned on the tap and cold water rushed out. Robin tried to ignore the feeling that Raven was laughing at him as he grabbed at the nearest pan to him. His hand closed around the handle and he swung it under the water waiting for it to fill up. He cast a worried glance at the pan and was horrified to see the stove ablaze with orange flames. Smoke was rising in great billows up to the ceiling. "ARGH!" he yelled and turning threw the contents of the pan onto the stove. The flames hissed but didn't die.
##Oh how I wish that we could be alone,
Oh how I wish to me,
That you belonged##
He grabbed another discarded item, a mug and filled that with cold water. It didn't occur to him to actual turn the stove off first or just pick up the fire extinguisher.
He looked through the smoke and was annoyed to find Raven still sitting down watching.
She noticed him looking at her with an annoyed expression and she stared back at him nothing showing on her face, "There's an easy way to put that fire out you know." She said leaning forwards.
Robin scowled and threw the water on the stove. It had no effect and he made a noise in the back of his throat, "Well you're not doing this so I'll do it my way!" he yelled. She shrugged at him. He was about to open his mouth to reply when a sudden shrieking noise rang out. "What the hell?!" Robin shouted looking around.
"That's the fire alarm." Reminded Raven from where she sat.
Robin scowled. Somehow he knew it was all her fault this had happened. If the guys found out of this he would never hear the end of it. Beast Boy would be living off the humiliation it caused him for months.
He growled at the flames.
Suddenly there was a flash of purple light and Raven was beside him. He jumped at her sudden appearance and watched as she waved her hand. The dial on the stove rotated slightly until it clicked into an off position. At the same time the alarm overhead was cut off.
Raven beset him with a slight glare.
##I often watch you when you're least aware,
Even though I know, it's really rude to stare##
Robin looked sheepish, "I guess that wasn't helping..." he was cut off from further speech when the water sprinklers on the ceiling of the kitchen suddenly decided to come into play and rained ice cold water down on their heads.
As the last of the fire spluttered and died the smoke moved out across the expanse of the ceiling activating more inside rain until finally it began to drift out of the open windows and into the early morning sky.
Robin looked across at Raven and felt something inside him take flight. Raven was standing before him and to he wondered why he had never noticed how really beautiful she was. Her hand was her hip; the left side of her cloak was thrown over her shoulder while the right side hung down in front of her covering her other arm. Her hood was down. Her hair was beginning to stick to her face with the wetness, water slid across her face like tears.
"What?" asked Raven tilting her head back to look at Robin clearly.
##Sometimes I find I just can't help myself,
Because I want you and nobody else##
Robin didn't blink, "Beautiful..." he murmured and as if on its own accord his hand reached out towards her. He knew he was probably going to get himself killed, he doubted that Raven would have welcomed his feelings even before she started seeing Aqualad but now consequences were making everything complicated. He was definitely going to get himself killed...but what a way to go.
Raven didn't move as his hand touched her shoulder, her eyes seemed to open and for the first time he saw something that truly scared him.
Nothing. It was like looking into the eyes of a porcelain doll.
"Raven..." he whispered as he stepped forward.
She didn't move, didn't blink, and didn't say anything. Now was his chance if he really felt something for Raven then he could act on it now and if there was nothing there then they could hopefully go back to normal.
Robin moved closer again and brought his other hand up to cup her face. He was surprised at how cold her skin was, but he put that down to the ice cold water still raining down. He tilted her head up so she was looking at him, and he could see himself reflected in her eyes.
##My heart skips a beat,
Whenever you are near,
And I just don't know,
What I'm gonna do##
The water had slicked his hair back and it looked like solidified oil rather than actual hair. It fell across his forehead awkwardly and he drew himself even closer to Raven all the time wondering why he wasn't dead yet.
He lowered his head, their lips were mere inches apart and the gap was slowly closing.
But then...
##Oh how I wish,
That you were here,
Oh how I wish,
That you were near,
Holding me tight,
Spending some time
Wish you were mine##
"Friend Raven! Friend Robin where are you we saw the smoke from the window!" cried Starfire floating in through the door whipping her head around trying to locate her friends. She hit the button near to the door and the sprinkler systems shut off in one loud bang.
Sanity finally returned to Raven and she jerked backwards away from Robin as if he had burned her. She looked towards the door that the other four had come in through wildly.
"Raven..." began Robin reaching towards her.
"Dude what happened?" yelled Beast Boy grabbing at his hair and staring in horror at the bowl of now soggy popcorn he had left on the table that morning. Terra laughed at him and hugged his arm while whispering sweet nothings in his ear.
"Friends! Are you injured?"
"What the hell happened here? Oh man...the TV got wet..." complained Cyborg walking over to check the damaged monitor.
Robin watched as Raven quickly composed herself and the emotionless look slid down over her features.
"Robin burnt breakfast." She muttered avoiding making eye contact with everyone. Robin felt something reverberate with pain as she turned away from all of them and walked over to the sofa. She looked down at her wet book and using her powers she tossed it in the bin. "I'm going to my room to meditate." She said and then swept off towards the stairs.
Robin watched her go.
##My thoughts revealed,
I'm showing all the signs,
When we're face to face,
I can't look in your eyes##
"Man what were you cooking?" asked Terra turning up her nose at the horrible grey black and yellow ash that lay in the bottom of the frying pan.
Robin jerked out of his reverie by the sound of the blonde girl's voice; he looked at the mess in the pan and then gave them a bland look, "What do you think? It was scrambled eggs."
"Dude." Said Beast Boy coming over to stand by Terra and inspect the pan, "Even I wouldn't eat that. Maybe you shouldn't cook. Ever again."
Starfire floated over and tucked her hand in Robin's. Robin wanted to pull away at the contact but he knew that that wouldn't be fair to Star and he really didn't want to hurt her. "I agree Beast Boy. You should leave all future cooking to me!"
"Nah I know he just needs lessons!" exclaimed Beast Boy in a hurry, "I'll teach you how to cook, no worries!"
Terra, Cyborg and Robin's face immediately relaxed from the horrified expression they had been stunned into.
"Okay." Agreed Starfire happily laying her head on Robin's shoulder ignoring the fact that it was still wet from the sprinklers.
Robin forced a smile onto his face, knew that no one must ever find out what had nearly transpired between himself and Raven. Not only would it destroy the whole team but it would wreck all the bonds of friendship that had been years in the making.
Robin counted himself lucky that they had come in when they did, otherwise, well if they had come in just a few seconds later he knew that the reactions would have been loud, angry and possibly accompanied by tears and violence. He breathed a silent sigh of relief.
##Sometimes I find I just can't help myself,
Because I want you and nobody else##
"Robin! Let us go back out to the mall! Just you and I!" chirped Starfire dragging him unwillingly towards the door.
Robin looked back at the others; they were already deep in conversation. Robin's thoughts turned to Raven what was she thinking right now? He didn't know. She could be thinking all sorts and he hated not being there to explain. It was allowing her to draw conclusions to things that had not gone as planned.
## My heart skips a beat,
Whenever you are near,
And I just don't know,
What I'm gonna do##
Starfire opened the door to the titan's tower and dragged Robin outside. The sun was bright and the air was clean and cool. But Robin couldn't pay attention to any of that right now, he had to sort out his head and he needed to explain to Raven. He needed to explain. He needed to.
##Oh how I wish,
That you were here,
Oh how I wish,
That you were near,
Holding me tight,
Spending some time
Wish you were mine##
"Come on Robin! Let us make haste!" said Starfire tugging on his arm again.
Robin looked back at the closed door of the tower and then looked back at Starfire who was grinning at him expectantly. He didn't want to disappoint her but suddenly he felt as if he was with Kitten again. Forced into something against his will. He had to tell himself that he was the one who had started this relationship with Starfire. He sighed braced himself and then allowed himself to be dragged along.
He would explain later. He hoped Raven would understand. He needed her to understand...he was beginning to think that he needed what he couldn't have. Raven.
He didn't notice a pair of empty violet eyes fixed on him from one of the higher windows of the tower as he and Starfire walked off. He didn't notice that the emptiness behind the eyes grew a little more the further away he got.
##My heart skips a beat,
Whenever you are near,
And I just don't know,
What I'm gonna do,
Oh how I wish...##
Hand in Hand
Chapter Twenty One: I Wish
26th November
Robin stared at Raven from across the kitchen. He was busy making scrambled eggs for his breakfast because the other had all gone out for some reason that was not known to him. He suspected that Beast Boy had dragged them off to buy Christmas decorations. Aqualad was busy in Atlantis today and that left him alone with Raven.
That wasn't a good thing. For one he couldn't stop staring at her. He really didn't know what was wrong with him. He should be happy after all over the past four days Raven had agreed to go to more places with the rest of them than ever before. She smiled more too although Robin thought there was something in her smile that made her expression seem...he didn't know, empty some how. He told himself again that he should be happy for her after all it was public knowledge now that Raven and Aqualad were a couple. They had announced it four days ago the night that they went to the mall.
And yet despite this announcement that they both had made he had seen no interaction between them to suggest that they were actual boy friend and girlfriend. He had seen Raven smiling at Aqualad and a few times when they had been caught holding hands but apart from that...he had never seen the two of them kiss or cuddle and for some reason that small piece of information made him smile widely.
His eyes focused back on Raven and he watched her for a moment more. She was sat at the end of the semi-circle sofa in front of the TV and had her head buried deep in the pages of a thick black leather book. He could only imagine what she was reading about. He couldn't really pay attention to the book because he was too busy staring at her face. Her eyes were staring down at the page intently and he saw things in her face that normally he never saw. He wondered if he should read the book, if it was good enough to make Raven betray her own feelings it must be a best seller or something. He had suddenly decided he was going to add purple to his list of enchanting colours.
##You don't know what you do to me,
Sometimes I feel,
You knock me off my feet##
Smoke blocked his view for a moment and he glared at it. Smoke? He looked down and yelped. He jumped backwards quite comically and waved his hands at the now burning eggs.
Raven looked up from her book, smiled wryly and settled into a more comfortable position to watch.
Robin looked up at her while fanning away the smoke, "I could use some help here you know!" he yelled to her.
Raven merely looked at him and arched an eyebrow, "It's your mess." She said simply closing her book and watching.
"Oh gee thanks." Muttered Robin running to the sink, forgetting to take the pan off the stove. He turned on the tap and cold water rushed out. Robin tried to ignore the feeling that Raven was laughing at him as he grabbed at the nearest pan to him. His hand closed around the handle and he swung it under the water waiting for it to fill up. He cast a worried glance at the pan and was horrified to see the stove ablaze with orange flames. Smoke was rising in great billows up to the ceiling. "ARGH!" he yelled and turning threw the contents of the pan onto the stove. The flames hissed but didn't die.
##Oh how I wish that we could be alone,
Oh how I wish to me,
That you belonged##
He grabbed another discarded item, a mug and filled that with cold water. It didn't occur to him to actual turn the stove off first or just pick up the fire extinguisher.
He looked through the smoke and was annoyed to find Raven still sitting down watching.
She noticed him looking at her with an annoyed expression and she stared back at him nothing showing on her face, "There's an easy way to put that fire out you know." She said leaning forwards.
Robin scowled and threw the water on the stove. It had no effect and he made a noise in the back of his throat, "Well you're not doing this so I'll do it my way!" he yelled. She shrugged at him. He was about to open his mouth to reply when a sudden shrieking noise rang out. "What the hell?!" Robin shouted looking around.
"That's the fire alarm." Reminded Raven from where she sat.
Robin scowled. Somehow he knew it was all her fault this had happened. If the guys found out of this he would never hear the end of it. Beast Boy would be living off the humiliation it caused him for months.
He growled at the flames.
Suddenly there was a flash of purple light and Raven was beside him. He jumped at her sudden appearance and watched as she waved her hand. The dial on the stove rotated slightly until it clicked into an off position. At the same time the alarm overhead was cut off.
Raven beset him with a slight glare.
##I often watch you when you're least aware,
Even though I know, it's really rude to stare##
Robin looked sheepish, "I guess that wasn't helping..." he was cut off from further speech when the water sprinklers on the ceiling of the kitchen suddenly decided to come into play and rained ice cold water down on their heads.
As the last of the fire spluttered and died the smoke moved out across the expanse of the ceiling activating more inside rain until finally it began to drift out of the open windows and into the early morning sky.
Robin looked across at Raven and felt something inside him take flight. Raven was standing before him and to he wondered why he had never noticed how really beautiful she was. Her hand was her hip; the left side of her cloak was thrown over her shoulder while the right side hung down in front of her covering her other arm. Her hood was down. Her hair was beginning to stick to her face with the wetness, water slid across her face like tears.
"What?" asked Raven tilting her head back to look at Robin clearly.
##Sometimes I find I just can't help myself,
Because I want you and nobody else##
Robin didn't blink, "Beautiful..." he murmured and as if on its own accord his hand reached out towards her. He knew he was probably going to get himself killed, he doubted that Raven would have welcomed his feelings even before she started seeing Aqualad but now consequences were making everything complicated. He was definitely going to get himself killed...but what a way to go.
Raven didn't move as his hand touched her shoulder, her eyes seemed to open and for the first time he saw something that truly scared him.
Nothing. It was like looking into the eyes of a porcelain doll.
"Raven..." he whispered as he stepped forward.
She didn't move, didn't blink, and didn't say anything. Now was his chance if he really felt something for Raven then he could act on it now and if there was nothing there then they could hopefully go back to normal.
Robin moved closer again and brought his other hand up to cup her face. He was surprised at how cold her skin was, but he put that down to the ice cold water still raining down. He tilted her head up so she was looking at him, and he could see himself reflected in her eyes.
##My heart skips a beat,
Whenever you are near,
And I just don't know,
What I'm gonna do##
The water had slicked his hair back and it looked like solidified oil rather than actual hair. It fell across his forehead awkwardly and he drew himself even closer to Raven all the time wondering why he wasn't dead yet.
He lowered his head, their lips were mere inches apart and the gap was slowly closing.
But then...
##Oh how I wish,
That you were here,
Oh how I wish,
That you were near,
Holding me tight,
Spending some time
Wish you were mine##
"Friend Raven! Friend Robin where are you we saw the smoke from the window!" cried Starfire floating in through the door whipping her head around trying to locate her friends. She hit the button near to the door and the sprinkler systems shut off in one loud bang.
Sanity finally returned to Raven and she jerked backwards away from Robin as if he had burned her. She looked towards the door that the other four had come in through wildly.
"Raven..." began Robin reaching towards her.
"Dude what happened?" yelled Beast Boy grabbing at his hair and staring in horror at the bowl of now soggy popcorn he had left on the table that morning. Terra laughed at him and hugged his arm while whispering sweet nothings in his ear.
"Friends! Are you injured?"
"What the hell happened here? Oh man...the TV got wet..." complained Cyborg walking over to check the damaged monitor.
Robin watched as Raven quickly composed herself and the emotionless look slid down over her features.
"Robin burnt breakfast." She muttered avoiding making eye contact with everyone. Robin felt something reverberate with pain as she turned away from all of them and walked over to the sofa. She looked down at her wet book and using her powers she tossed it in the bin. "I'm going to my room to meditate." She said and then swept off towards the stairs.
Robin watched her go.
##My thoughts revealed,
I'm showing all the signs,
When we're face to face,
I can't look in your eyes##
"Man what were you cooking?" asked Terra turning up her nose at the horrible grey black and yellow ash that lay in the bottom of the frying pan.
Robin jerked out of his reverie by the sound of the blonde girl's voice; he looked at the mess in the pan and then gave them a bland look, "What do you think? It was scrambled eggs."
"Dude." Said Beast Boy coming over to stand by Terra and inspect the pan, "Even I wouldn't eat that. Maybe you shouldn't cook. Ever again."
Starfire floated over and tucked her hand in Robin's. Robin wanted to pull away at the contact but he knew that that wouldn't be fair to Star and he really didn't want to hurt her. "I agree Beast Boy. You should leave all future cooking to me!"
"Nah I know he just needs lessons!" exclaimed Beast Boy in a hurry, "I'll teach you how to cook, no worries!"
Terra, Cyborg and Robin's face immediately relaxed from the horrified expression they had been stunned into.
"Okay." Agreed Starfire happily laying her head on Robin's shoulder ignoring the fact that it was still wet from the sprinklers.
Robin forced a smile onto his face, knew that no one must ever find out what had nearly transpired between himself and Raven. Not only would it destroy the whole team but it would wreck all the bonds of friendship that had been years in the making.
Robin counted himself lucky that they had come in when they did, otherwise, well if they had come in just a few seconds later he knew that the reactions would have been loud, angry and possibly accompanied by tears and violence. He breathed a silent sigh of relief.
##Sometimes I find I just can't help myself,
Because I want you and nobody else##
"Robin! Let us go back out to the mall! Just you and I!" chirped Starfire dragging him unwillingly towards the door.
Robin looked back at the others; they were already deep in conversation. Robin's thoughts turned to Raven what was she thinking right now? He didn't know. She could be thinking all sorts and he hated not being there to explain. It was allowing her to draw conclusions to things that had not gone as planned.
## My heart skips a beat,
Whenever you are near,
And I just don't know,
What I'm gonna do##
Starfire opened the door to the titan's tower and dragged Robin outside. The sun was bright and the air was clean and cool. But Robin couldn't pay attention to any of that right now, he had to sort out his head and he needed to explain to Raven. He needed to explain. He needed to.
##Oh how I wish,
That you were here,
Oh how I wish,
That you were near,
Holding me tight,
Spending some time
Wish you were mine##
"Come on Robin! Let us make haste!" said Starfire tugging on his arm again.
Robin looked back at the closed door of the tower and then looked back at Starfire who was grinning at him expectantly. He didn't want to disappoint her but suddenly he felt as if he was with Kitten again. Forced into something against his will. He had to tell himself that he was the one who had started this relationship with Starfire. He sighed braced himself and then allowed himself to be dragged along.
He would explain later. He hoped Raven would understand. He needed her to understand...he was beginning to think that he needed what he couldn't have. Raven.
He didn't notice a pair of empty violet eyes fixed on him from one of the higher windows of the tower as he and Starfire walked off. He didn't notice that the emptiness behind the eyes grew a little more the further away he got.
##My heart skips a beat,
Whenever you are near,
And I just don't know,
What I'm gonna do,
Oh how I wish...##