To Torture
They say I torture myself. I stay up way past reasonable hours, and only get two, three hours of sleep at night. I don't eat much anymore, the taste of food all but dissolves away on my tongue. Only Kakashi-sensei knows it, but I've been stealing from liquor stores when no one is looking. Oh, if only it were legal, but, I remind myself, then it wouldn't be as much fun.
The taste of freedom. It's what I call it. The sake that burns my throat and shreds through my empty stomach. I love it. I don't know why it's wrong. It shouldn't be.
Kakashi-sensei caught me one night stealing from a closed liquor store, he tried to take it from me. He tried to take my freedom. I threw something at him. I don't remember if it was a kunai or a rock. It doesn't matter. He dodged. As expected of such a high level jounin.
I don't think Kakashi-sensei told anyone. I doubt he would. He's not the type to go around and blab about anything.
He doesn't have to tell anyone though, because they're starting to see it. Sakura-chan commented on how thin I looked. I merely smiled it off, trying to convince her it was some sort of new dieting.
The Teme commented at the heavy bags under my eyes. I told him I'd been staying up later training to beat him. He bought it. I...think.
I don't train much anymore, all I really do is drink. I drink when I can. I drink whenever I can get my hands on it. It makes me sick. A lot. They say it's bad to drink on an empty stomach, but it makes me feel good. Losing the contents of my stomach makes me feel alive.
Kakashi-sensei staged an intervention. Bleck. Talk about boring. Iruka-sensei, Teme, he, and Sakura-chan showed up at my house because they were "worried." Bah! They just don't like seeing me happy. I shooed them away with smiles and lies about how I was going to be fine. But as I was throwing them out, Sakura-chan turned to me; "How can you keep torturing yourself like this?" she asked.
This caused me to pause, before a small smile crept over my face. "You call it torture, I call it freedom."
A/N: I never done a drabble before. It's rather fun. Oh, and I apologize if this seems random and OOC. It's four am and I have to go to school in four hours. So, blame it on insomnia. Oh, and if you couldn't guess, it's in Naturo's point of veiw.