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I missed you! I'm trying to get the rest of chapter four of The Sohma Game typed up right now, so look out for that too. I really love this story. One of my best... maybe? I dunno!

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This chapter is ANGSTY! There's lots of ANGST. Angst is good, sometimes, you know? The next chapter is pretty angsty too, so I hope it doesn't get boring. I tried to make it funny again near the end, though, so don't quit on me!

Kaze no Namidawa: The Diary of Isuzu Sohma

Entry Six

"The school called me."

Kagura's mom was waiting at the door with the cordless phone in hand when I got home, as if to be like 'See? Here's the phone to prove it!'

"Okay," I said, not really caring, closing the front door and trying to go up to my room.

Hatori blocked the stair case.

"What, are you moving in or something?" I snapped at him. "Why are you always here?"

"Isuzu, I just don't understand you."

"Nobody told you ya had to!" I yelled.

"The school said you were sent to the office for inappropriate language, then delayed your trip there and yelled at the principal."

This is what happened:

I walked into the principal's office and sat down in the chair in front of her desk.

"Why are you so late?" she asked, folding her hands like she was all IMPORTANT or something. Her face was all scrunched together. She kinda looked like a rat. "Your teacher said you would be coming down over twenty minutes ago."

"I took a detour," I told her.

"…so why are you here?"

"Cuz I said the school sucks my grandma's ass and I called the teacher a dick head."

"You know that language is not appropriate for school."

"Yeah, but I don't really care."

"I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to give you a detention."

"I don't give, bitch face. Keep 'em coming," I sighed. Hehe.

"That is not appropriate, Isuzu!"

"I don't give a damn…"

"Stop that language!"

"I don't give a shit…"

What you say about that! Ha. It sounds like that Avril Lavigne song.

Bitchy Rat Face sighed and tapped her pen against the palm of her hand as I twisted my hair around my finger.

"Since this is your first time here… I'm letting you off with an hour and a half detention for every day next week. But you know, graduation is in just one more semester…"

"Shut up!" I yelled. "I'm sick of you stupid people!"

So yeah, I yelled at the principal. A little.

"I only had to 'delay the trip' to go ask Hatsuharu if I can live with him because you're kicking me out!" I yelled.

"You stop talking like that, Isuzu! You've never acted like this before! And I never said I was kicking—"

"Shut UP! You don't understand! I am just so sick of everyone having to listen to that fag Akito! What's so special about him? Just because he SAYS I have to go to that gay ass school, I HAVE to go? What if he said we all had to kill ourselves? Would we have to listen? Would you, Hatori?"

"Do you realize how immature.."

"Shut up, bitch!" I hollered, kicking him in the nuts and storming upstairs while I had the chance.

Tears streamed out of my eyes as I dumped everything out of my backpack and stuffed it with useful shit. I slung it over my shoulder and opened the window.

Just my luck. A downpour had just started.

I crawled out the window backwards and slid down the drain pipe. I scraped my wrist and leg against the side of the house, but I didn't really care. I could no longer tell which was which… the rain or my tears.

I ran down the sidewalk, splashing through puddles. I could hear my heart pounding in time to my feet against the ground. How was I ever supposed to go back to that house? Not after all of this crap. I tried to look on the bright side, I really did. But there was no bright side. For the first time, I began thinking that maybe it was my fault. I had to go and be such a bitch... I had to say all of that crap to Haru... I would be surprised if he let me stay...

I tapped on the window a few times before opening it myself and climbing inside.

"Haru?" I said, my voice shaking. I swallowed a few times, feeling hysteric because of my tears.

"Rin!" he turned around from his computer desk. He glanced at the door to make sure it was closed before walking over to help me inside. "What are you doing here? You're soaking wet…"

"I can't go back. I can't go back there. Haru please, can I stay with you?"

A fresh dam of tears broke.

"I'm sorry, Rinny…"

"I have nowhere to go! I have no one! Haru, please?"

He wrapped his arms around me and I pressed my face into his shoulder. "Please… Just for tonight… just one night…"

"I'm sorry… you really can't…"

"One night…"

"No."

That was it. Just plain, flat-out No.

But what did I expect?

I pushed him away and jumped back out the window. I ran again, not stopping until I was lying in a puddle between the park's bushes, hugging my backpack tightly as I cried, thinking

I have nobody.

Nobody wants me.

I'm a screw up.

A failure.

A hobo.

A forever

damned

cursed

rotten

horrible

bitch

horse.