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SAKURA

What's wrong with me? Why have I changed?

What's wrong with me? Why am I such a nuisance to my own friends?

What's wrong with me? Is it only me…?

Why am I the only person to see this...?

What am I saying…? I am not in anything…

But I am, and no one sees it…

What pain am I going through…?

Everyone seems to be progressing with out me…

And even love has left me in the dust…

I AM SO FUCKING FAT

A fight in my mind.

This war never ends.

Waking me up from the headache I was going through… a knock at the door. Let me prepare to lie to everyone again. As I do everyday. Tell every one that I'm fine. That nothing is bothering me.

The knocking is get louder. I look at the clock and its 10:00am on the dot. I am half an hour late for training with the Hokage. She probably sent another chuunin to advise me that I am late for the training.

"Gahh! I hate my life." There is always something to do… I wish I could just step out of everyone's way. I reach steadily for the doorknob knowing I am going to be pissed off by whoever is on the other side. I twist the knob and slowly twist my own fate, when I see… Sai on the other side staring at me with a steady sly look in his eyes.

"Sakura you are late again… don't you learn from your mistakes… anyway the Hokage told me to tell you that she canceled you out for a week because she noticed that the training has been tough on you lately"

I slightly chuckle and at the same instant I try to gasp for air. I smile at him hoping he doesn't notice my unsteadiness.

I can't stare at his eyes. If I made eye contact with his jewels, they'd blind me with only shyness and awkwardness. I can't fall into that. I can't show him my true feelings. He would never love a person like me. I am such a klutz.

He is staring at me. "Sakura, I was wondering if you would like to get out of your house. It seems like you need some fresh air… maybe you would like to go take a walk to the woods or something." He smiles at me, now that I know his true smile. It kills me inside to see it. When he stares at me with his beautiful smile, I want him more and more.

"I don't know if I should go!" I said quickly, stupidly. Why did I just say that? It's so stupid. I have nothing else to do, why can't I go with him.

"Why can't you go?" he said to me in confusion.

I back away from the door. DON'T RUIN THIS FOR YOUR SELF SAKURA.

"Sure, why not…" I try to smile when I said that to him. Maybe he didn't notice my weird behavior towards him, maybe he did. What if he did notice and I am dumb enough to not know it.

I look at Sai now, muscular and still fit with his beautiful stomach. He is so handsome and now his hair is slightly longer, now I have to look up to him, he is so tall and handsome. NO! NO! I HAVE TO WAKE UP FROM THIS DREAM!

There is a sudden pause, I feel stupid standing there, I feel so idiotic, "why don't I pack up then… okay, wait for me here."

I sighed as I closed the door in his face. I changed out of my pajamas and into my red outfit and chuunin tunic.

My clothes are baggier because I know I have gotten shorter the past few years. But it hides my flab. If I wear baggy clothes it would hide my fat.

Before I step out I have to take a breather…

SAI

What is taking her so long, what is making her tardy so much, why does she act so absent minded all of a sudden.

All I can do is wait for her. I don't really want to ask her of her troubles, I don't really want to bug her now. And I really want to thank her for her kindness towards me, she changed me. But I don't know how to thank her for this.

The door opens slightly and slowly creeks as she steps out and smiles at me.

Her smiles seem distant, she has changed alot since when I first joined her team… she is slimmer and has longer hair than before. Her cloths seem to have stayed the same because they are the same size as before, just baggier. Maybe it's because she is shorter. Sakura has rose-red cheeks that brighten when she smiles at me. But something is wrong.

"Well where are we off to" she says with a distant smile like before.

I look at her and try to smile back with the same enthusiasm as she did.

"Sai, stop it with that fake smile!" funny she said that, I was only trying to mimic her smile back. Maybe she doesn't notice that she is acting this way. Or maybe it's just me. Well I guess I will find out sooner or later.

"Lets grab a bite to eat, you seem like you need something to fill you up… how about we go out for sushi?"

I tried to say that to her as 'cool' as I could but it just didn't seem right for me to say that to her in such a fashion.

I think Sakura is so beautiful yet very small compared to all the other girls in this village. She is so gentle and fragile. She tries to take everything as smoothly as possible.

We started to walk towards the Konoha market place. This is where all the sushi restaurants are.

I look at Sakura and see that her head is facing the floor as we walked. I saw her closing her eyes and clenching them harder as we walked closer to the crowd.

"What's…?"

I couldn't ask her 'What's wrong' it's too impolite.

Suddenly a sales person ran into us "Hey want to try out these new sandals! They are-"

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" Sakura had formed the tiger seal and a barrier of chakra pushed everyone away from her in a 6 feet radius. I was also shoved away by the force.

She ran into the crowd and pushed them out of her way. I tried to run after her but I realized I was on the ground and was struggling to get up myself with the other villagers. I got myself back in my two feet. But it seemed so odd that she would run like this.

I pursued the gap she had left between the crowds she had pushed away.

I lost track of her in an instant, the crowds had became as thick as it was since before we had came.

SAKURA

Why don't they understand that people go through pain? Why am I in this pain now? Of all times, why couldn't it be tomorrow or the day after? It had to occur during my walk with Sai.

"Ohh my goodness I left Sai alone"

"No you didn't… he is right beside you…"

Ohh my goodness! What the hell just happened. One minute I was alone and then he just pops up out of nowhere!

"I didn't mean to rush off like that. It's that I have been going thro-"

"Don't tell me, please. I would rather you forget about it… come on, lets eat"

I saw a bag in his hands, he bought take-out. So nice of him, but I really don't think I want to eat right now. I will eat it though. He was nice enough to buy it with his money and find me here.

He grabs my wet hands. Wet with tears of embarrassment from the tragic event that just happened a minute ago. Time flies too fast when I am with Sai.

SAI

I need to take her home. She is breaking on me. She is only going to get worse if she stays out here. I don't know why but the best thing to do is to take her home.

I don't like to 'fake' myself in front of my friends but, in order to keep her safe from herself I need to keep her home and out of the way.

SAKURA

He seems like my Knight in Shining Armor, coming to my rescue in such a moment.

He takes my hand and lifts me up.

He smiles and walks with me towards my house.

Home sweet home!

A/N: Well, me and my buddy Manny are writing this fic together! Personally, its one of my favs so far! Chappie 2 should be coming soon! Please review!