SAI
Sakura is still sleeping…
She is so weak…
She is feeling heavily burdened…
I must help her. She is so helpless it kills me to see a teammate struggling…
But with her… it's much deeper than that…
She still has her head on my arm. I remember what happened a few minutes ago, it had been dramatic and I think I surprised her too much. She is troubled by stress, a type of stress that I never experienced…
I don't think I could even imagine how bad it is for her…
I can't just stand here doing nothing. It's almost morning and I have been thinking all night. Its been destroying me that so much happened in such little time… this is not like a situation in battle, its not like I can analyze and predict what she would do by her movements.
I must understand emotions a little better…
She taught me about sadness when her mother died, she taught me about caring when I saw her cry after Naruto got really hurt in a mission, but the one thing that she didn't teach because she didn't know how to explain it… was love…
She told me "its something that you feel strongly about, whether it's a thing like your sketchbook or maybe someone that you like... I don't know how to explain it! Heheh"
She seemed troubled when she told me that… thought
I slowly laid her head down on her pillow and slid her off my legs and onto the bed. I am glad that I didn't disturb her. I don't want to cause more pain than I had started. I slowly slid my self from her touch, and placed the sheets on her. Her face slightly nudged and flushed into a pinkish color.
"…Sai… is that you?"
I ignored her voice, I don't know why but I just don't want her to notice that I am here yet.
She soon after had forgotten and fell asleep again. After she had done so, I made my way to her kitchen and boiled some water.
"She doesn't have soup… this is going to be harder that I thought…"
I looked inside the cabinets and even in the fridge. I found some ramen that Naruto had offered her before but I see that she didn't even touch it. I placed the cold noodles in the boiling water and found some seasoning left over from her mother's home. I poured the hot ramen into a bowl and reached into a drawer to get some chopsticks.
As I thought… only one pair of chopsticks in the drawer, this is what I had expected. She isn't eating properly at all, she stays home doing absolutely nothing and she isn't eating…
Anorexia…
I don't know much of how to care for this behavior, when I get out of here I must notify the Hokage. Sakura may die from this. I have to get her to eat. It would kill her if she lasted any longer like this.
This is no wonder why she is being so defensive about eating. I must make her eat this ramen, if not she may be in risk of dieing…
I place the bowl in a platter and the chopsticks in a side. I balanced the platter on one hand as I walked to her bedroom door. I opened the door, and she was still fast asleep. I see that she has not had any sleep for a long time…
I walk up to her and push her slightly to wake her from the nice nap…
SAKURA
I wake up…
There is some pressure on my stomach…
"Wake up Sakura. Did you have a good nap?"
"Sa-SAI!"
WHAT IS HE STILL DOING HERE!
I thought that was just a dream. Did all this really happen to me?
I could smell some ramen from nearby. I look down only to see a platter on my stomach with chopsticks on the side…
And a bowl of ramen…
"Sai, I don't want to eat now!"
"You just fainted and it's healthy to eat soup at this time…"
If I eat this I am only going to get worse!
I am only going to add to what I already am…
"No! I don't want it…"
"Please Sakura, eat it, please!"
He looks at me with a sad face…
Why is he doing this…?
WHY IS HE DOING THIS!
"I am only going to eat a little of it…"
He smiles as if I made his day with only those words…
"Eat up! It's not much really…"
SAI
She is staring at the food, she is deciding whether to eat it or not, if she doesn't she may starve…
I don't know why people so beautiful would change their dietary habits…
"Well if you don't want to eat it still I will feed it to you!"
She looked at me with confusion as I picked up the chopsticks and lifted the first noodle to her mouth.
I struggled to get it in her mouth. She closed it tightly and looked at me as if I were doing something bad. I slowly pulled the noodle away from her mouth and she smirked.
"Why are you blocking it?"
"I just don't want it!"
I try once more. This time I placed my hand on her chin and forced the noodle upward…
Success! It entered and now only if she would chew it.
"Sakura, please chew it! If you don't then…"
I paused…
I am not supposed to tell her that I know that she is anorexic…
"…You will freeze. Its cold out and you need warmth for your body!"
She smiled and chewed it slowly, slurped the noodle and I plucked for another. She blushed but then quickly frowned and tried to get up. She tried to get up but failed, she was still too weak to stand on her own.
"Do you want to stop already?"
She had a sad look on her face, a face as if I were killing her.
"Mhmmm…"
I took the platter off of her and sat it on the table next to her bed. I sat her up and placed her pillow behind her back.
"Well if you don't want to eat, I guess I am going to have to leave…"
SAKURA
"No, I am sorry Sai… I just don't feel like eating… you don't have to leave!"
What am I saying?
If he doesn't want to be with me, then he should leave…
"So, do you want me to stay?"
I couldn't tell him no because I just told him that he doesn't have to leave…
WHY AM I SO STUPID!
"Actually, I need to be alone for a while, heheh…"
Sai turns to the door and begins to walk.
He raises his hand, making a faint wave… and picks up his thick fur coat and leaves…
"Well I will be here tomorrow just in case you need me then"
I don't know why but I feel bad for ditching him like that…
SAI
I step out of her house. There is nothing to do there…
I tried to help. But beyond my best efforts, she resisted…
I walk through the thick snow almost up to my knees, it was cold out but I didn't care…
The weather is the last thing on my mind…
Sakura, why did you resist. It's not like you would get any prettier than you are. There aren't any flaws in you at all. You are a great person, you look beautiful and I want to help you figure that out…
THAT'S IT!
That's exactly what I should do! I should compliment her by the way she looks. This would make her realize slowly that she is a beautiful person. But lately she has been rejecting me…
It seems she will never need me…
Why aren't there any answers when you need them…?
I can't tell the Hokage about this, Sakura would never forgive me. This is something I have to handle alone.
I can't tell whether its day or night outside, it seems like I was in Sakura house for longer than I thought. No one is outside playing anymore. Maybe it's late.
I turned my head back to Sakura's house. It's just a jail cell in there. She is trapped in her own nightmare. And the fact that only I know about her troubles is killing me inside. She can't survive this punishment.
Well, I will try my best tomorrow then. She doesn't want to be with me anyway.
Sigh…
I stop walking, the wind is blowing at a high speed, I would suspect this to be an illusionary technique but it's no one's chakra, and there is 'no life' to be present but mine.
I hear a noise, there are some footsteps, and the snow is crackling faster and faster. It's getting louder and louder, but I can't sense any chakra coming from nowhere. Who could this be?
I look to my sides, but no one is there. I turn around and suddenly the footsteps stopped
"Ahh!"
Sakura fell on me, pushing me backward towards the cold snow. She is shivering. I can feel the vibrations from her cold arms that are wrapped around my abdomen. She squirmed towards me and looked up with a faint smile.
"Sa-ai, you don't have to leave. Yo-you can stay, pl-please"
She looked at me with such sad eyes. Is this the feeling of love?
Is this the true feeling of being cared for? She loves me so much she would put her life in danger just to tell me to stay with her for an extra night…
"Sakura, are you sure you want me to stay?"
"Ye-yes…"
I saw her warm tears melt the snow around her face, making it passed her chin and down to me.
"I will stay with you, as long as you want me to, but you have to promise to eat whenever I tell you too"
"Mhmmm…"
She let her tight grasp loosen up so that I can stand. As I stood up right I saw her still laying on the floor, she is still so weak… and hopefully the soup is still warm…
I picked her up. She could barely stand up for herself, she was loosing her breath…
Is love this powerful?
I smile tenderly down at her, and then I open my coat to protect her from the freezing cold air. I could still feel her freezing inside my coat. I put my arm around her and held her close to me while under my coat.
We walked towards the house…
It seemed to be like this day would go on forever…
We entered the house; once again I am surprised that there is nothing at all inside. Not a decoration in sight.
"Home Sweet Home, right Sakura?"
I tried to sound humorous to enlighten the moment but she didn't catch it. She was lost in thought. I could see it in her eyes. Inside her head was enveloping a war of emotions, something I myself could not understand.
I took my coat off and carried her to her bedroom.
I, once again laid her on the bed. But this time she was awake peering at my every movement. Placing her under her blankets while she stared at me, it was kind of uncomfortable…
"Sakura, I am going to try to feed you the food once more, but please eat it… you promised"
She nodded and I placed the platter with the ramen next to her. I could see smoke still coming from it so it must be warm still.
She carefully watched as I picked up the chopsticks and inserted another noodle in her mouth. She, with out any hesitation opened and chewed it…
This had made me happy… she finally had gotten passed her fear…
At least I hope so…
Hopefully the new year can tell…
A/N: Hope ya liked it, there wont be an update for this in a lil while. Sorry. Manny and me worked on this chappie also and please tell us what you think in the review.