A/N: This story takes place just after Kate and Jack kiss (the episode 'What Kate Did' only just aired a couple of weeks ago in Australia) it starts off with Kate at Shannon's grave talking to Sayid, but then goes back to Jack in the clearing where they kissed. I'm sorry that the time jumps around a bit.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Lost, if I did Kate and Jack would be together and Shannon wouldn't have died.

REFLECTIONS AND REUNIONS

Kate's POV

I did it again. I gave into my emotions. Something I swore I would never happen again. I can see Sayid coming up to me. Well, not me, Shannon. He sits down opposite me and doesn't say anything, so I decide to say something.

"I know what it's like to lose someone you love," I said quietly without looking up, "So, if you ever need someone to talk to, my door is always open."

"Who did you lose?" asked Sayid in the same, toneless voice that I used.

This time when I replied, it was in a barely audible whisper,

"Everyone I ever loved."

Sayid looked at me, but my eyes were still downcast.

"Does...does the pain ever go away?" he asked.

"No," I replied shortly, "no, it doesn't, it gets easier though, and sometimes, you can forget the pain, but only briefly, then it comes back again." At this point I stood up abruptly to walk away, but then I paused and said to him,

"Pain is a heavy burden Sayid, but guilt is heavier still, so I'd be thankful that I didn't have to carry that around too if I were you."

And then I walked away.

Jack's POV

What the hell just happened!

Am I dreaming or did Kate just kiss me? Okay, maybe it's time that I admitted it to myself. I love Kate. I have been wanting that kiss for so long, and finally I got it, but she obviously doesn't feel the same way. I mean, the only reason I can think of for why she ran was that she didn't want the kiss, that it was a mistake.

Oh God, what am I doing just standing here? I should have followed her! God I'm an idiot! She's probably long gone! I start running, I can hear her voice in the clearing ahead. I stopped where I could hear what was going on, without her seeing me.

"I know what it's like to lose someone you love," I could hear her say sadly, "So, if you ever need someone to talk to, my door is always open."

"Who did you lose?" asked a voice I recognised to be Sayid's. I have to strain my ears to hear her reply.

"Everyone I ever loved."

"Does...does the pain ever go away?"

"No, no it doesn't, it gets easier though, and sometimes, you can forget the pain, but only briefly, then it comes back again. Pain is a heavy burden Sayid, but guilt is heavier still, so I'd be thankful that I didn't have to carry that around too if I were you," I briefly wondered what that was about, but then I heard her walk off.

Narration

Later that week, Kate walked along the beach, apart from everyone else. It was late afternoon. She was thinking about how Jack was giving her the cold shoulder. She wondered about the thoughts that went through her head just after she and Jack had kissed.

What if he doesn't feel the same way?

What if he leaves me after we get off the island?

What if he dies like Tom did? Because of me?

What if he hates me when he finds out what I did to Wayne?

What if-

Her thoughts were interrupted by yells at the camp. She started to run, worried about what she might find.

Meanwhile, Jack was at the beach checking on Aaron and talking to Claire.

"So did Charlie talk to you about Kate?"

"What about her?" he replied with more aggression than he had intended.

"Well," Claire went on, "Hurley moved his tent closer to Kate's a couple of weeks ago, something about being cooler in the shade, anyway, he told Charlie that every night, Kate has terrible nightmares. Always the same. She screams about someone named Tom dieing, and how it was all her fault. Hurley told Charlie and they confronted her and told her to tell you, that was yesterday, but she refused and said she didn't want to waste your time. Then Charlie told me and I told him to tell you."

Jack was shocked. "He didn't say anything. And neither did Kate."

Claire laid Aaron down and continued, "Well, Charlie also mentioned something about being threatened and being more afraid of Kate than of you."

Suddenly, they heard shouts coming from the water and Sun yelled out in her broken English,

"Jack! Jack! A life raft is just out off shore! There is an unconscious man aboard! Come quick!"

Jack started running and saw Sawyer pulling the small orange raft out of the water. He ran over and saw the man. He had chocolate brown, curly hair and was about 35. The man woke up and looked around confused with green/hazel eyes that seemed familiar somehow.

"Hey everyone!" yelled Sawyer, "Shut up and give the Doc some space to work!"

"What's your name?" asked Jack, "How did you get here?"

"My name is Luke," the man explained, "I was on a small boat with two other men exploring the pacific when we hit a reef and sunk, the others drowned but I survived and got on the raft. I was floating around for three days, but guess I must have fallen unconscious."

Luke looked around the beach and asked, "Where am I?"

So Jack with help from the others explained the situation, basically: plane crashed, stranded, not much hope of being rescued any time soon.

"Come on," said Jack, "We better get you to the hat-"

"Luke?" interrupted a breathless voice from Jack's right. Both he and Luke turned sharply and saw that Kate had pushed her way through the crowd and was staring at Luke as if she'd seen a ghost.

"Katie?" gasped Luke in an equally stunned voice, "is that you?"

Then Kate's face broke into the broadest smile anyone there had ever seen her show and she ran up to Luke and threw her arms around his neck and he lifted her off the ground and swung her around. She then buried her face into his neck and started sobbing tears of joy.

"I can't believe it's you!" she chocked out between sobs, "I thought you were dead! I spent years blaming myself! I thought I would never see you again!"

Jack briefly wondered if this was the man who owned the plane she cherished so much, the one she said she had killed.

"It's ok Katie, it's ok," said Luke with his arm wrapped around her protectively.

"I missed you so much Luke!"

And Luke's reply shocked them all.

"I missed you too Sis."