Chapter 20
I stared at him as the implications hit me. My body was on fire. I was aching everywhere. Over taken by a moments rage that since I was going to be of no use anymore he was going to kill me, I picked up the hard metal chair in front of his desk and smashed it as hard as I could into his head not even caring about the bloody handprints I left on it. Before he fell I grabbed my cross, the one he had taken from me from around his neck and gripped it tightly in one hand, blood covering it too. Bastard! He fell hard and his gun went spinning on the floor towards me. I grabbed David's gun. The gun he was going to use on me, and held it aimed at his prone form. The pain was surging through my body and I was having trouble hanging on to consciousness. I stared at my rapidly shaking hand for a second. Blood was dripping from it, cut from the glass. I almost blacked out. But as I stared back at the man I found that I would hold on just to kill him.
Pain surged through me overriding the anger for a brief second. I was on my knees, black spots covering my vision here and there. The pain almost unbearable, fire running through my whole body. My head pounding. My whole body shuddering from fatigue. Click. Dammit! The gun didn't shoot. Empty bullet holder. I got ready to shoot another bullet, couldn't see clearly now. Almost fell forward but managed to stop myself. It was getting harder and harder to breathe. I slowly pulled the trigger, it was so hard my hand didn't seem to want to listen to the orders my brain was giving it. Either that or my brain wasn't working right anymore. The gun was wrestled out of my hand. I fell forward into the glass.
I didn't care about the many stinging cuts I had on my chest. It didn't matter. I was sure I was going to die. David had said that my body couldn't deal with the drug. I was going to die. Why should pain matter? I deserved it all. After all, I killed four people unintentionally. I should die a painful death. This was working well enough.
"You haven't killed anyone yet, there's no reason to start now." A distant voice said. I haven't? So all those deaths weren't my fault? I thought for a second. The idea of that was almost more than I could comprehend. Oh well, I'm still going to die. Now I will be able to see Solo and Sister Helena. Ha, wouldn't they love to see me now? What I've become? Yeah they'd probably die all over again. In shame. The sound of a gun shooting many times sounded somewhere in the background. Everything went black, and I didn't feel anymore pain.
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When I woke up I walked out the door a little unsteady. I was content to start my job, so that I could make the payment sooner. It was hard to stand up. My body hurt. A lot. I almost fell down the stairs. Wait… Stairs? Where the hell am I? Then slowly the memory of what had happened last started coming back to me. I didn't die! Did David die? Did someone kill him, or was he still alive? Shit! My fix! My body didn't hurt as bad as it should though. But if David was still alive I was going to be hurting really badly soon.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and froze fear rushing through me. I whipped around to be confronted by the calm stare of Heero. Again. God, he was always creeping up on me. Despite my angry thoughts about him sneaking up on me I reached forward and hugged him. His body tensed up, and then slowly relaxed. As he relaxed I relaxed a little too. I tried to ask questions, but my mind wasn't forming the words for my mouth.
"You should be in bed." Heero said quietly. But I had a thousand questions, where was David? And Quatre? What had happened? Where was I? Heero seemed to know what I was thinking.
"You are at my house." I stared openly at my surroundings for the first time. Damn, I was right, he was a gold mine. "Quatre is in another room, he is also recovering from the drug. As you should." He stared pointedly at me. "And if you wanted to know, David is dead." I nearly fainted from relief. I was tired though so I let Heero lead me back to my room. I fell asleep when my head hit the pillow.
Yeah... sorry for the cliffhanger and all, it just so happened that homework picked up at the exact same time that a posted that. But so yeah, here we go into the falling action.
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