Disclaimer- Not mine...honest...truely...seriously...I'll just be going now...
Spinning dizzy from one minute to the next, A whirlwind of expectations envelop me.
I see the pain in those gleeful and smug expressions.
Pain my own eyes mirror with the uptmost of accuracy.
Walls of my home are cold and forever silent.
The halls are emptier these days than they once were.
Duties to fulfill and people to save, that is my future, nothing that could include my deepest wants, dreams and desires.
Those are things I only indulge myself in when my curtains are shut, my eyes are shut tighter and my unconsious mind takes over.
When haunting dreams of death and reality leave me my mind trys to cope, sending me into a clouded dream of hands, and tongues, and skin softer than silk, a warmth I need in my resulting vunrability, a warmth that keeps me sane.
Conversations forgotten and ignored, my legs on a new automatic, a hope for the future dawns within me.
Alas, my course has been changed and I find myself dragged off by the wave ofhuman bodies.
My hopes quashed, my dreams stepped on, I sulk off to class.
To yet again restrain my true power, a power I've been told to reserve, I was young when they bound my powers to my fate.
They thought my love would save them, that an emotion as rare as true love would bestow it's grace and gentleness upon me.
As if...I would be a most unlikely candidate for the beauty that is passion, let alone love...
Thanks R+R I need to be flamed or praised...It's all the same...