Fabian and Gedion were alike in everything, hair, height, even in subjects they liked.
Apparently they were not alike in one thing, love.
Gedion, when saw Amelia was in danger, was having a kind of not at all mild heart attack, while Fabian was more worried for Severus, not that Gedion Was not, but he was kind of glued to Amelia these past days.
Fabian just tried to lessen the blew for Frank and Charity and occasionally Marlene, it was not everyday you saw your best friend fell from a broom after he had drained his core to save his friends hides, and then apparated by headmaster, from Hogwart's ground to hospital. He tried distracting them, mostly by talking to them. Or telling the most useless jokes( they were firsties, most hilaruis jokes included things that firsties were far too young to know about) or even offering help in home work(that made it worse, because Severus did that almost every day).Suffice to say he was not helpful at all.
Lily, was always crying, and nothing helped at all. He tryed making her laugh, but whatever story he told, she would be reminded of Sev one way or another. It was like everything reminded of him.
Gargoyles?
They were tough like Sev.
Hypogryffs?
They were proud like Sev.
Sodding flabberworms?
They were white like Sev skin tone.
(At last comment, and Lily bursting into crying Fabian seriously wanted to clock the girl. Really, what the fuck?)
Others were not crying at least. But it was not better, not at all, Charity, most of the time was absent, with merlin knew whom and Merlin knew where. Frank was silent, sparingly. Morgana's blessing at least Marlene was her usual weird self, commenting on headmaster robes and trying to get the phonix chic to eat weird things.(like pumpkin juice, or frog , or red velvet cake, or berty bots candy) which the smart chic refused, and bit everyone around in whatever capacity she felt like that day( one time she bit him in the nose, Merlin was that hurtful!)
Sometimes Fabian was baffled that how in seven levels of hell the boy got such a vicious nasty phonix, weren't they supposed to be kind spirited ducklings? Like Fawks was? All kind and tame and melting when someone petted them?
When he was not checking on kids, or his twin who was making Amelia seriously want to harm him physically (he really did not leave the witch alone, okay, maybe Wc and classes, but that was that), he wrote Severus.
When they were informed that the kid had woken up, Fabian sighed in relief, when he came back, he could hand over the caring for his awkward group of friends to him and be done with it.
(How in hell he got a Gryffindore, a Ravenclaw and two puffs to be friends, was above him. Sometimes he saw a certain Slytherin sniffing in a corner too, the one Severus saved at flying session. How that happened? Mix these and add a Phoenix Chic, it was just mind blowing)
Severus was bored.
If not for Fabian letters, he would have avada himself and be done with it.
And a phonix chic, was that interesting!
As he was told by Charity, it was a Huma, a Simurgh, a female Persian Phonix.
He needed to research on that. His relationship with his Prince side was not great , so he did not know about these things, and most of things about them was in code, and was in farsi, so he did bother with it last time he lived.( to do list, what the hell is a phonix , is it useful beside its tears ,or its ash that could be used in potions? )
He was not Lord Prince, was he?
Now it was true that he mostly thought about Ted and Andromeda, but a part of his mind was on Gedion and Amelia.
Even before the match, he was sure it maybe a dream, or a sham. How many people had a chance to go back and change their mistake? And him of all people! The unfortunate buggering idiot who had served two masters!
Not now.
He was not sure what happened at his first year at hogwarts, but he was not a puff, and he had not saved heir Longbottom or headgirl Bones or become an eternal friend of their families.
Mines his constant presence in hospital and infirmary this was all new.(some times he felt pitty for Potter brat, hospitals and their food was just nasty, not that he was foody or anything, but what they called soup, made the stomach of a troll Clenge and twist, and they ate molds and stuff, really)
And Gedion and Amelia. He had not a clue there was anything going on between them!
He kinda felt for them, Was it the reason she never married? Because Gedion Prewatt died at 1980?
He sighed. Now beside Andy,Ted he had to do something about Gedion ,Amelia.
Was he really being turned into a sodding match maker?(he really was, was he not?)
He was not sure.he was bored enough to count every crack and spot on the walls and its bricks, now he was sitting on his bed, making a list anyway:
Andromeda Ted Tonks(they were lovey together, he saw them once and it made him almost vomit because how sweet they were together)
GedionAmelia(if Fabian was right, they were made for each other, and if Amelia loved him enough not to marry...well)
FrankAlice ( Frank had a good head on his shoulders, and in his last life, was it his last life? Or past life?...fuck it, he chose her, so she was clearly suitable, and if he would be in their life,he would make Neville the greatest potion maker of the time, just wait Frank would be kid!)
Marlene-(no way he would let her date that buggering idiot Sirius Black, even if she came out gay and kissed McGonagall in the great hall in the mouth, he would feel better than her dating that murderor to be)
Remus-(not in hell he would allow him to touch a single hair of nymphadora, clumsy puff she was, or even if the girl wolf impregnated was umbrige ,even she did not deserve to be left out while pregnant, that cowerd half bred ass)
Keeping Pettigrew from danger(because he had fucking duties to his snakes, and he was not so bad after all)
Keeping Regulus(he knew the kid, he was a shy and a victim of Sirius tyranny, because he was the one who payed for the pranks he pulled on other kids,once they had no hope of retaliation, they bothered his baby brother in hope sirius being bothered, which that git did not) being an idiot( preferable, no joining. If not , no turning on dark lord and become a martyr)
Now what about Potter and Lily?
At first, he thought he had to maintain the line somehow, but now he wanted to improve it. Lily had hurt him, left him and went with his abuser Potter, but she was not that cruel at first.
Maybe that was the reason he tryed not thinking about her, or divert it to her son. Because it hurt him to know she would leave him at the drop of a hat.
A word said in anger mostly, he reminded himself.
Lil was bright, too bright sometimes that it could burn you, like fire, she was also quick to anger and hard to forgive, but she was also generous, she would laugh at his jokes and encourage his experiences in potion. She could use those to make money, in potter industeries, but she had not. Lily kept his secrets, never told anyone about his poverty, or his problem at home. As he requested it from her. And as he remembered she had not told even her husband, because in that way he would have been humiliated in order meetings by that damn unwashed dog that Black was.
Any attempt to see this Lily and not think about the Lil he knew, and the way she died (the guilt,oh it was suffocating, unbearable even) was futile. He sometimes felt trapped between this world and his last. Which was real? Which was a dream?
His child mind did not help at all.
He always was an hair apart from crying, or panic. He did things his adult self would belt him for that, and he was emotional as hell.
Others did not help at all.
In his last life he was not seen as anything like cute, but his first encounter with Amelia and Gedion and Fabian, how he was scared and bloodied and pitiful, (crying too, which made his eyes seem bigger and more innocent) and them calling him cute, had remedied that.
Not that being hugged every day by Charity, helped.
Or him changing his shampoo.
Or him being hugged by fierce McGonagall, (in front of whole bunch), his head of house, Albus Dombledore (when he fucking drained his core), the tallest and most scariest nurse at saint mungos whose arms was the size of hugrids legs(when he was sniffing while reading Fabians letter, completed by ruffeling his hair and a kiss on the forehead) Agusta sodding Longbottom and...
Seriously, he had made history! Just add filch and the dark lord, and he could easily change his name to the kid who was hugged!
He shuddered, not dark lord, thank you very much. He rather have sex with a hippgriff,
Maybe not, he rather be hugged by Umbridge...
No not that, so much pink and stupid Ahem Ahems...absolutely a no no, hugged by slughorn?
The man was messy and chubby and his stomach entered a room first, always bragging about something that was not at all braggable(was that even a word?) Ok! That would be more acceptable.
Any way, he could leave this room, this afternoon, he wondered how everybody faired without him. You could get so much info from letters, you know?
He knew he was avoiding the elephant in the room, thinking about everything but his mo...Eileen's letter. As much it hurt him, he needed her .He had to get out of the house, he could not risk it this time. There was two scenarios, first when Tobias wanted to hurt him, he would go back to his deatheater days and slaughter him in cold blood, which made him go to Azkaban, or some where else.
Or he would freeze and have a panic attack. Which made Tobias angrier and it could possibly get him killed,or maimed, or ...
He never even had the right to whimper when he belted him,or it got worse...
There was no way he could stay at hogwarts, Albus did not allow that to Harry bloody Potter for what reason, he did not know. And as he was a minor, he needed a permit from one parent to stay at another house. He could possibly get one from Eileen, and as Longbottoms and Bones now were his friends...He could even go stay at Prewatts too, or charity's or Marlenes , everywhere was better than his childhood house.
He thought about trying to prove the abuse, but first it was that it would prove both his parents unfit, (a drunk and a depressed half mad witch) and he would either go to a foster house or an orphanage (they were not so promising at all, he was so tiny and bully-able). Or ministry would shackle him with his mother(magical parent, whether suitable or not) or his other relatives who did not disowned his mother( Rosier's were also bad news).
Plus he could stay away from Lily, she knew him better than anyone else, and he was afraid to slip sth(one of the reasons he somehow avoided her).
Plan was set, he was nothing if not a Slytherin to the bone(even in badger clothing)
He picked the quil to write a reply, trying to placate his...Eileen and get her approval, letter by letter.
:Dearest Mother...