Author's Note: I don't know what was going on, but I couldn't log in on I don't know if was just me or not, but b/c of that I decided to summit two chapter. (Chapter 8 is really Long) So I hope you enjoy.

Ever since she left school (without permission), Joey had been sulking in her room. The moment she saw Pacey, something had happened to her. It was as if a million bad memories had flashed into her mind. Nonetheless, a million good memories flashed into her heart. She was utterly confused and anxious. The moment she saw Pacey, she could not stay in the same room as him.

Joey was lying in her dark bedroom. With all the mixed emotions, she was trying to calm herself down. The last thing she needed was to lose her mind.

"Joey." Bessie peaked into her sister's room.

"Yea." Joey said.

"Do you want to explain to me why you left school early?" Bessie asked concerned.

"I wasn't feeling well." Joey lied.

"Joey… Please… I can't do this for another year." Bessie begged.

"We can't do what?" Joey said with an attitude.

Bessie walked into her room and she turned on the lights. Then she maternally said, "I'm worry that you are going to waste your year. Last year I let your behavior slide because of… because of certain events, but this is your senior year. This year determines what college you will attend. This year you are supposed to make remarkable memories. I want you to go out and have fun."

"I can't just go out and have fun. I don't feel like having fun." Joey declared.

"Remember what Natalie said." Bessie reminded.

"I remember what she said, but I don't feel like having a good time right now. I'm just too tired." Joey implied.

"Well to bad, you are going to get out of this room and make something of yourself. I order you." Bessie directed.

"Sorry Bess. But no thanks." Joey said neglectful.

"Well I am ordering to go to the store… We need milk... You have to leave this house sooner or later… And I prefer now, even though I'm forcing you. " Bessie ordered.

Joey was out in the convenience store buying milk for her sister. As she was grabbing the milk, she noticed her surroundings. Everyone looked like they had uncomplicated lives. She looked at herself. Unlike everyone else, it seemed like every single day of her life, there was a problem.

Joey went to the check out counter and paid for the milk. After that, she was anxious to head home. She wish she could feel happy, but she could not. She was depressed. She literally had depression. A few weeks after Joey delivered her baby and gave it up for adoption, Bessie noticed a changed in her behavior.

At first, little things had changed in Joey. For example, it started out with things such as, she didn't eat as much; she didn't want to eat with the family. She had trouble concentrating, and she always complained of having headaches. Bessie didn't think much of it at the time.

As time past, her behavior changed more. She lost five pounds in a month. During Fourth of July, she just sat there and did not enjoy the day. There were days Joey did not fall asleep until after midnight; then the next day she woke up around noon, but she did not get out of bed until three. Nonetheless, there were some days where she feel asleep at eight at night and woke up around dawn.

However, by mid-July, Joey's behavior changed dramatically. Not only did Bessie notice it, but Joey did too. Bessie had a hard time with B&B because Joey didn't take care of her responsibilities. Joey was always apologetic. She even apologies for things she did not do. Bessie always found her crying in her dark room. When Bessie tried to comfort her, Joey had a hard time communicating.

Most importantly, Joey noticed her thoughts and feelings. There were days that Joey felt hopeless. She questioned why she was alive. Joey did not tell anyone, but she sometimes she wondered if she deserved to be alive.

Frighten by her behavior change, Bessie took her to a therapist. A friend had suggested this therapist because she was right with Joey's situation. The therapist was Natalie Berkley.

Flashback : Joey's First Session with Natalie Berkley

"How are you feeling, Joey?" Natalie asked.

"I guess I'm okay, Mrs. Berkley." Joey said shyly.

"Joey, you can call me Natalie, if that feels more comfortable with you. I want this environment to be as comfortable as possible." Natalie instructed.

"Okay… Natalie." Joey said awkwardly

Not knowing what to do or say, Joey's eyes started meandering around the room. She hasn't been to a therapist in her entire life. Therefore, she didn't know the rules.

"So... Do you feel like you belong here?" Natalie asked.

"What?" Joey, taken back by the question, questioned.

"Do you feel like you need to be here in therapy?" Natalie repeated.

"I guess so." Joey lied. She had no clue why she was here. She knew she had a few issues, but she did not think she had to see a therapist.

"You think so… Because most teenagers are reluctant to go to therapy let alone admit that they belong here…" Natalie debated.

"Well… I guess I don't know why I am here. I mean I know I have a few problems, but what person doesn't?" Joey said truthfully.

Natalie smiled and then said, "Do you know what atypical depression is?"

"When a person is depressed?" Joey assumed.

"That is true. But atypical depression is a type of depression where a person feels like; they have a hard time fitting in, a hard time knowing who they are. They had a stressful event that changed their life dramatically, and now, they don't know what to do. Do you feel like that." Natalie asked straightforwardly.

Joey did not want to answer it because she did feel like that. After the baby was born, it was hard putting her own son up for adoption. No only did she lose her son but she lost Pacey too.

Joey nodded gently, then she whispered, "Yes"

Flashback II: Joey Fifth Session

"So how have you've been?" Natalie asked.

"I guess I feel a bit better. I think I am okay." Joey responded.

"Do you feel somewhat fortunate?" Natalie wondered.

"Not exactly." Joey answered.

"How do you feel?" Natalie questioned.

"I feel like I made it past the first step and now I am ready for the journey." Joey said proudly.

Flash Back III: Joey's most recent session (Their thirteenth session)

"School starting soon." Natalie reminded.

"Yea I know." Joey said lying down on the couch.

"Do you think your ready for senior year?" Natalie asked.

"You know I've been going to school for almost thirteen years now and I never been ready for each year?" Joey speculated.

"How so?" Natalie pondered.

"For example, kindergarten, I was constantly put into the corner for being too loud. Third grade I was labeled the tomboy therefore none of the girls really understood me. Fifth grade I was never invited to the birthday parties and that's when I really truly realized that I wasn't popular and I was okay with that. Eight Grade I was "the mouth" because I voiced out my opinions. And tenth grade…" Joey faded out.

"What happened in tenth grade?" Natalie wondered.

"I fell in love…" Joey said softly.

"With who?" Natalie asked.

"The boy that no one thought I would fall in love with. I fell in love with Pacey Witter." Joey stated with a smile.

"Did he make your happy?" Natalie questioned.

"He did." Joey said proudly.

"What happened?" Natalie marveled.

"You know what happened. I got pregnant and then right then, no one thought we belong together. And then somehow, I believed that we didn't belong together." Joey admitted.

"Then what happened?" Natalie asked.

"He left. And I guess I was so mad that I lost him. I was so frustrated that I let him go. I was so livid that I listened to everyone else but myself. I was livid that I didn't listen to my heart. But most importantly, I was angry because he left when I needed him the most." Joey stated.

"Well I guess we found what trigger your depression." Natalie said.

Joey realized that Natalie was right. Pacey leaving did initiate Joey's depression. But was she going to let Pacey's narcissistic actions change her life?

Joey was walking out of the convenience store and unexpectedly there he was. Pacey was standing a few yards away from her. Pacey turned his head and he saw her staring at him. Pacey walked a few feet closer to her, but unpredictably, she walked backwards. Pacey noticed her facial expression.

Joey started shaking her head symbolizing that she did not want to talk to him. She did not want to be around him. Therefore, she walked away.

However, before she took off, she turned around and said clearly, "I will never forgive you."