Here you are chapter 2. This one's in bb's pov.
Chapter two: making a choice
I don't get it. I've been thinking about it all day but I can't figure it out.
Why is this bothering me so much? It was just a dream right? I know it's probably nothing but I keep pushing it out of my mind and it just keeps coming back.
I'll be honest, it's not the first time I've had this dream.
It's probably because it scared the crap out of me, that it bothers me so much. I can't remember the whole thing, but the things I do remember are…alarming, to say the least.
In the dream, she's in the dark, pitch black more like it. She's kneeling on the floor and all hell is breaking loose about her. Wherever she is, the walls are caving in around her.
She's clutching her head in her hands and her nails are digging into her temples so hard she's breaking the skin. She's crying. The tears fall to floor but instantly dry up with a sizzle, as though the floor beneath her is hot.
I call out to her "Raven!" I shout. She looks at me and her eyes are filled with fear, an emotion I haven't often seen in Raven. Not that clearly anyway.
That kind of freaks me out in itself.
I run toward her but my feet don't seem to move fast enough. I kneel down beside her.
I reach out to touch her face, but then the weirdest thing happens…
She emits a piercing screaming. It's like she's possessed though. She lets go of her head and wraps one arm around herself, using the other one to prop herself up while she leans forward.
"Help me…" she begs in a rough whisper. Her frightened eyes beseech me and lock onto mine. It gives me the worst feeling, seeing her like this.
I study her, I'm seeking an answer.
She winces in pain and more tears roll down her cheek. I reach out to wipe her tears away…
That's usually where it ends though. It's a random place to end but…it kind of just fades away and I wake up shaking.
The first time the dream came, I didn't think much of it. I just reminded myself not to eat cold pizza before bed again and went back to sleep.
Lately though I can't sleep peacefully at all. Every time I go to sleep the nightmare comes back.
I'm not getting enough sleep and its starting have an effect on me.
It's hard to be on your toes when your when your half asleep. Robin's been noticing it. I can tell by the looks he gives me when I screw something up. I do stupid things. Not normal stupid things. I've been doing incredibly stupid things that you wouldn't expect, even from me.
I'm afraid he's going to make me stay home one of these times. To be honest he and I haven't been getting along very well lately. I think its cause he knows how I feel about Rae. I mean I didn't tell him, but I think he figured it out.
He hasn't said anything but he keeps making references to how much I stare at her and that I shouldn't do anything to jeopardize the team.
Boy would he be mad if he found out what I did yesterday morning. I don't even remember thinking about it. I just kissed her. It wasn't like we made out or anything though, I only kissed her cheek.
I'm not going to read into it or anything. After all it was me who kissed her right? She didn't exactly push me away, but she was probably shocked and it only lasted about ten seconds.
It's the highlight of my week, I can tell you that. I don't even care if I get kicked off the team right now because of it, I'd never undo that moment.
Actually…I've been thinking…thinking about leaving.
I mean don't get me wrong, I love being a Titan and I know they don't want me to go but its getting to be too much.
Robin is constantly on my back to get serious and start putting some 'effort' into things.
I don't understand that, it's like it's okay for him and Starfire to be all over each other, but hell no! If I go anywhere near Raven he flips out. It's not like anything is going to happen.
He must like her a bit, I'm fairly positive. He's got Starfire too though. Can't he just be happy with that?
I'm not trying to make Robin seem like the bad guy here. I know he's not trying to be like that, it's just the way he feels. Robin has always been like that. Not good at managing his emotions I mean.
To make things worse, I can't stop thinking about her. Every spare minuet with her is heaven and she doesn't even know it.
And that dream too. My life is confusion.
It's driving me mad and I don't think I can take much more of this.
Today I decided to go out for a while and I was thinking about this. I can't decide if leaving would be the smart thing to do. Not forever of course. I just think I need to get out of here for a while to clear my head.
I went to the park and walked around for a bit. I sat down on a bench in the middle of a garden and took in my surroundings.
There were trees everywhere, birds flying around. I listened to them as they chirped out their little songs. This was a kind of peace, I didn't know well. I embraced every second.
It was weird but while I was sitting there, I realized…there's a whole world out there for me to discover. When it comes to adventure…I've barely scratched the surface.
I picked myself up and left the park. I'd almost convinced myself of what I wanted. I could plan it out. I could leave in a few weeks and come back in a couple months maybe.
I'd talk to Robin about it and see what he had to say. I think he'd agree that it's a good idea. No matter what, he can't exactly stop me from going anyway.
I could see if Cyborg could maybe help me plan out where I could go. I knew he would ask to come along, but I'd have to turn him down. This is something I have to do by myself.
Starfire was likely to tell me to come back soon and be safe. She might even through me a welcome home party when I come back. That's something she would do.
Raven though, I didn't know how it would affect her. She might be a bit nicer to me but I bet she wouldn't think much of it.
That thought made me kind of sad.
I made my way out of the park and onto the city streets.
The noise of cars and people around me was nothing at all like the peace in the park but I didn't mind it that much. I walked down the side walk along the main roads for a while. I passed street venders, different shops, restaurants, and even a few street performers playing for a little extra cash. It was a nice day to be outside.
I walked at a brisk pace, trying not to get in the way of strangers. I soon got tired of this and I turned down a street that seemed considerably quieter. I continued onto these streets until I inevitably found myself in the suburbs on the outside of the city.
The particular street I was on seemed to be older. The houses all looked the same but they each had something to distinguish from the others. Perhaps children's toys scattered on the front yard, or a tree with a swing, or a garden.
I smiled at these houses. These were all the dwellings of families. These were all homes. Homes of average people who went to work in the morning and came home at night, with children who went to school with there friends and the lunches their mothers had packed…children who road the bus home afterward.
These people weren't like me, or any of the other titans for that matter. These people were…Garfield Logans.
Not me, I was a Beastboy, a Teen titan. I love that though. I have no problem with that.
I think, however, that a little selfishness is in order for me, because I don't have what they have, and… I want it.
What I mean by that, is not that I want there homes; I don't want a family or their material possessions.
All I want is satisfaction. I want to see everything and receive everything that life has in store for me.
One particular house caught my eye. There was a sign in the front window that read 'Spare room for boarding' in shaky letters. The house was bare though. It had no garden, no tree, it was just a house. There was a dead plant on the porch; I supposed that could be something.
I walked closer to the house. The nearer I got, the more I saw that it was in major need of repair. The gutters were old and dirty, the windows were dusty, the porch was falling apart, and much more. All those things made this house look rather sad.
The front door was slightly ajar and the wind was tossing it back and forth. I watch the door for a while until, finally the wind died down and the door fell closed with a bang.
I surveyed the rest of house. I noticed that there was a light on in the upstairs and a cat was perched on the window sill of that same room.
I looked up the driveway to the left of the house. At the vary end there was an old beat up garage, that looked like it hadn't seen a sign of a paintbrush in about thirty years.
I smiled a little, I felt like I was in the middle of a novel.
I scanned the house once over again, and that's when something caught my eye. Something green was sticking out from behind the house. I watched it thoughtfully for a few seconds and then my curiosity got a hold of my legs and I clambered forward, as quiet as possible, to check it out.
I must say, when my eyes caught sight of it. I swear they must've jumped out of my head.
When I rounded the side of the house, I must say I was shocked to see something like that just sitting there.
It was green motor bike. It was sleek and broad. I could tell it was old when I saw it. I was positive they didn't make bikes like that anymore.
I couldn't help myself. I had to touch it. I slowly extended my arm and ran my fingers across it gently, like it was delicate and would shatter to pieces if I pressed to hard.
What Cyborg would give for a bike like that I don't know, but I know it would a lot. I smiled to myself. I couldn't wait to tell him.
I was too caught up in the beauty of the bike to even realize that someone had come up behind me.
"That's my husbands" A female voice said from behind me.
Startled by her, I nearly jump out of my skin as I spun around to see an old lady standing there with a smile.
"Oh gosh" I sputtered at the elderly women "I'm so sorry I couldn't help myself."
The lady smiled and shook her head "it's quiet alright; you don't seem to be doing any harm…"
I nodded at her and looked back at the bike "sure is nice" I said.
She waddled up beside me "Yes" she mumbled "I suppose it is"
She shifted her gaze from me to the bike and smiled again "I suppose I should say it was my husbands. He's been gone for some fifteen years" she shifted her wait about "he loved this thing though, until the day he died, he called it 'The Beast' if I remember correct" She said with a chuckle.
I laughed at the irony. "That's funny," I grinned "cause people call me Beastboy" I extended my hand to her at the introduction of myself.
She nodded, "quiet a name, it suites you well" I guess she was referring to my green skin. She took my hand and shook it, fairly strong for a woman of her age, "I'm Verna."
Just then a small orange cat came rushing up and brushed against my leg with a resounding purr. I smiled down at the animal and bent down to scoop her up.
Verna cooed "That's Mimi; this is kind of strange, because she doesn't take to many people"
"I have a connection; I guess you'd call it, with animals." I informed her.
"Well young man, are you interested in that bike?" Verna asked casually
"What?" I demanded "It's for sale?" I was stunned.
Verna nodded sadly, and cast her gaze to the bike again "He loved it, but we never had a son to give it to, and I'm sorry to say that our daughters aren't much interested in it. He would've liked it, if it could go to some one who would appreciate it."
My jaw dropped. I suddenly imagined myself flying down a country road on the bike. "I would certainly appreciate it" I said placing Mimi back on the ground "but I don't have that kind of money."
Verna shrugged lightly "That's alright, she looks nice, but The Beast don't run like she used to" I remember thinking I know someone who could make her run like new mentally referring to Cyborg.
"I still don't know if I could afford it, even with that." I replied.
"Well…how about, you and I work out some kind of deal?" she asked and gave me a curious look.
I watched the old woman for second, and tried to read her. She seemed sincere. I nodded,
I had to except, there was no way I could say no. "Yeah," I said quietly, "Yeah, I'd like that."
Verna beamed with pleasure "Good now come inside and have some tea and we'll come up with something" she said and began leading the way back to her house before I could protest.
Needless to say I stayed at Verna's house for a while, and we finally worked out a deal.
What I have to do is, go to her house whenever I can and do some work for her around the house. Then once I work off some of the value of the bike, she'll charge me an extra two hundred bucks for the rest and it's all mine. I couldn't wait until Cyborg saw it.
I must say that, when I left her house, I was a very happy fellow.
To make things even better, the whole time I was at her house, I forgot all my troubles. I talked to her about normal things. She asked me questions. Like how old I am? what I like to do? And do I have a girlfriend?
When she asked me that last one, I told her no, but I said that there's a girl that I'd like to be with. She told me that was nice and then insisted I eat another biscuit, so I didn't get to tell her much about Rae.
It was a very casual evening for me. Verna wouldn't let me leave before I took some cookies in a bag and then I set out on my way with a light heart.
I was in such a good mood…and then, I went home.
When I walked in through the door, I was slightly surprised to find a frustrated Robin standing there waiting for me on the other side.
He had a stern look on his face and his arms were crossed in front of his chest like a father who had waited up, for his child to come home, three hours after curfew.
He shook his head at me. "Where the hell have you been?" he inquired.
I Stared at him blankly but didn't reply.
When he didn't say anything else, I figured he was done and made to leave.
"We need to talk," he declared and made for the door. He expected me to follow him, and I knew it.
I could've walked away but I didn't. I let him lead me down the hall to his room.
End of chapter
So there u have it. Second chapter is complete.
Is it too serious? I don't think it seems very much like Beastboy. O well tell me what you think.