A/N: Sorry for the delay, got caught up in Ten and some other stories. Still love this one!
Okay… you've got everything? Know what time feedings are and stuff? Should I leave a list? I should leave a list."
It was the night before she was going back to work. All four kids and El were laying in bed watching her pace back and forth and list things off.
Noah opened his mouth to speak, but El gave him a look and he closed it with a sigh.
"You're sure I can't bring you lunch tomorrow?" El asked and she nodded. "I need a clean break…"
"Well if you change your mind…" he said and she nodded taking a deep breath.
"Ok, daddy go watch baseball out there, I wanna cuddle my babies," she said, ushering him off the bed and taking his spot.
"Oh… can we at least put the game on in here," Eli whispered and Noah nodded.
Liv laughed, taking the twins and nodding. "Fiiine… and daddy I guess you can stay."
He laughed and snuggled up with them on the outside of them, wrapping an arm around Noah.
Both babies snuggles in close to their mama and the boys leaned on the side of her, watching the game and trying to be quiet when the Yankees scored.
When it was time for bed, El took the boys to get ready, and Liv brought the twins into their room, sitting in the rocker with them.
"I can't believe I'm leaving you guys," she whispered as she rocked with them. "But daddy is gonna take great care of you," she whispered, "and mommy will be home after work And then we'll have cuddles," she said, her voice cracking.
El stood at the door, leaning on the frame with his arms crossed and a smile on his face. "They're gonna be great and you're gonna be great mommy," he smiled and she looked up at him, taking a deep breath.
"C'mon let's get these two down," she whispered and he nodded.
They got them down and said goodnight to the boys before retreating to their room. "I want to retire," she whispered.
"I support you…"
"You do, but more so you want me to do what I love and the issue is I love my job and I love our kids…"
He smiled small, moving closer to her and putting her hands on her waist. "And that's what I love about you. Captain, momma, and partner extraordinaire. You're the best ever. And you've been the best ever. And you'll continue to be."
She took a deep breath and hugged him tightly. "I love you baby…"
"I love you… you need me to show you how much," he whispered and she giggled into his chest.
"Can we take a bath," she asked, looking up at him. "Hell yeah baby, draw it and I'll get some wine."
She let out quiet moans as they relaxed in the tub and he massaged her shoulders.
"You're so tense," he whispered, his fingers digging a tad deeper.
"I feel like a terrible mom… I thought I'd be so happy to get back to work but… I'm so sad."
He pressed a soft kiss to the back of her neck and shook his head. "Whether you stay home or go to work doesn't matter. What matters is that you'd drop everything for your kids, and you're a shining example of an incredible woman and human to all of them. That's what makes you the best mom out there."
She sunk back into him and tangled their outstretched legs as his arms wrapped around her waist. "Thank you for making the sacrifice and retiring… for us and our boys and the twins."
"It's my honor. And maybe a bit of my duty yeah? You have yours. To go to work and be the incredible captain you are and help save countless lives. And when you're ready to retire you'll know it." He whispered into her hair, causing her to smile and look up at him with watery eyes.
"How did I get so fucking lucky?" She asked him and he chuckled. "Ask myself every day," he said, kissing her lazily.
She moaned in approval as his cock grew against her hip and he slipped a hand down into her curls, swirling his fingers against her slick heat.
"Turned on baby?" he breathed teasingly into her mouth. "Mhm," was all she could say back as she grasped his hand, dipping it lower to her entrance.
"I just washed the sheets and I need some of this pressure gone," she moaned, lining up her index finger with his and guiding them inside.
"El," she gasped into his mouth as she curled their fingers forward. "Relax," he practically growled, "I know how to make you squirt baby… let me take care of you…" his voice was gravely now and it made her clench around them.
Using his free hand, he pulled her out and her hand went automatically to the back of his neck as her hips began to thrust upwards.
She gasped when another thick digit stretched her, and he set to work on giving her the release she so desperately needed.
He knew she always slept best after he helped her plummet of the cliff of pleasure before curling naked in the safety of his arms. He let his lips attach to the spot behind her ear that was well hidden by her long, chocolate curls, and allowed his thumb find her clit as his fingers expertly curled upwards.
"El… El yes please… like that…" she breathlessly directed as he used a free hand to pull her hair ever so slightly.
The dominance he showed in their bedroom was a special reprieve from the control she had to exert in her daily life, as both a captain and a mom.
He rested his head on her shoulder, his eyes scanning from his fingers that were wildly driving into her, to the faded scars that peppered her abdomen and chest.
It amazed him. That this woman who was so gleefully and fully coming apartment in his arms, survived what she did. Her strength was beaten only by her beauty, both inside and out, and the thought of all three qualities made his cock twitch.
He was a pleaser, but tonight he had an overwhelming desire to be buried to the hilt inside of her, so the faster and gave her the release she was searching for, the faster he could do that.
As her mumbling became more and more incoherent and her muscles began to spasm, he applied slight pressure to her bundle of nerves and moved his free hand from her hair to her mouth.
"Open your eyes," he said into her ear, voice deep and authoritative, "and watch me make you fucking lose it."
His command sent her over the edge and her body arched up out of the water as her muffled screams of his name filled the room.
"That's it Livvie… let go," he whispered, doing his best to keep her body in the water, faltering miserably when she started to squirt all over the faucet and tile back splash.
The sight was mesmerizing, and he kept her going until she uttered a pathetic and breathless "stop."
Slowing his movements, he coaxed her down from her high and back into the water against him. "I wish I could see your pussy quivering," he whispered gruffly, inhaling everything that was her.
She was completely collapsed against him, her body limp and her breathing heavy. "Take me to bed," she whispered.
He peppered her shoulder with sweet kisses and gently leaned her forward so he could stand. "Can you walk," he asked with a chuckled as she lounged back against the tub.
"No," she said pathetically and he smiled, wrapped a towel around his waist and helping her up before lifting her bridal style to carry her to their room.
"When are you gonna marry me?" She whispered into his ear.
Stopping dead in his tracks, he looked down at her with a soft laugh. "That what's been on your mind?"
She bit her lip and hid her face in his neck. Setting her down, he took the towel from around his waist and gently dried her off as she looked up at him through heavy lids.
"Get under the covers," he whispered and she did, frowning slightly at his lack of answer.
He tossed the towel and climbed in, hovering over her and kissing her slowly. "Say the word and I'll call up a judge right now, marry you right here, naked in our bed." He whispered against her lips, wiping a stray tear that slid down her cheek.
"Sorry I'm still hormonal I guess," she whispered and he shook his head, gently lifting her leg around his hip and sliding into her, capturing her gasp with a kiss.
"You don't have to apologize to me… I'm your future husband. Your best friend. You're incredibly sexy baby daddy," he said making her giggle as he slowly moved into her.
"Say the word, we'll run away," he moaned softly, "I'll marry you on a beach or in Alaska. Or maybe just at the old precinct," he said, speeding up his movements and deepening his kisses.
"I love you, Elliot," she gasped, clenching around him. "I love you so much," she said with a smile against his mouth.
"You're my fucking everything," his voice was rough and it made her clench more tightly around him. "I love you," he said as his balls tightened.
"Cum baby," she gasped, coming undone around him as he emptied himself inside of her with sharp gasps, his muscles twitching.
"I love you…" he whispered, rolling them to her side and remaining tucked snugly inside of her.
"I love you Elliot… so much," she said, falling quickly into a deep sleep.
She was humming to herself as she did her hair the next morning, completely ready about an hour earlier than usual. El chuckled and came in with a smile and Charlie pressed snuggly against his chest.
"Oh good morning my beautiful girl," she cooed softly, smiling at her in the mirror as she finished her final curl. "You're up early, sweetie!"
She unplugged her curling iron and reached for her daughter who leaned out for her. "Hi baby baby…. You okay?" She whispered to the little girl with dark curls who cuddled into her chest.
"Sleepy? Go back to sleep my love, it's too early for you to be awake," she whispered, rocking her gently as El smiled. The baby girl's eyes got heavy and slowly closed as she settled into her momma. "There we go… there we go," she whispered kissing her nose.
"Relax with her for a bit while I make breakfast and get the boys up, yeah?" He whispered, kissing her cheek, "considering you're already dressed and don't have to leave for another hour and a half," he teased and she smiled, doing as she was told.
She settled on the couch, pulling a blanket over them and letting her eyes wander across the family photos that adorned their living room.
Noah shuffled out a bit later, Eli following him with a wide awake and smiling Benny in his arms.
Charlie stirred awake and looked around with a soft scowl, before giving a gummy smile when she spotted her brothers.
"Morning princess," Noah whispered, kissing her cheek and taking Benny when Eli passed him over. The older boy kissed all of their heads and said good morning with a yawn.
El walked over with coffee Eli and a warmer for Liv, and both took it with a smile and a thank you.
"You're gonna do so good today, Mommy, and you look beautiful," Noah said, looking up at her.
With tears in her eyes, she leaned down and kissed his head. "Thank you baby. I think I'm gonna do okay too..." she whispered, smiling back at her fiancé.
She slipped back into work like no time had passed at all and came home around six with a huge smile on her face.
The whole gang was at the table when she got in and cheered.
"Mama is hoooome!!!!" Dickie smiled, turning with both twins in his arms.
Noah rushed to her and jumped in her arms; she smiled lifting him as best she could.
Eli came over with flowers and hugged her her tightly. "You did itttt" he smiled and the rest of the crew followed suit, hugging her and cheering.
Liv smiled over their heads at El who was grinning like a fool. She took the babies, kissing them several times before moving to El who wrapped the three of them in a hug.
"I'm so proud of you Livie," he whispered, kissing her cheek several times and smiling.
She looked up at him and grinned. "I love you."
"I love you… cmon, let's celebrate. I made your favorite."
"I made your favorite," Mo corrected from behind with a laugh.
She smiled at her oldest and mouthed a 'Thank You,' as the all sat at the table to eat.
Raising his glass, Dickie smiled. "To Mama Liv. The Captain is back!"
She grinned tearfully and everyone nodded in agreement, raising their glasses. "Here here!"
The Captain was back, indeed.