Ok, I know you guys probably hate me right now for what Sean did. But I told you it would definitely end up a Semma! So no worries. You'll soon find out in the next chapter why Sean COULDN'T, not wouldn't, tell Emma that he loved her. And whoever wrote the review about Emma's mom finding condoms or something…that's not my story. Emma's mom never found anything. The only discussion about condoms was with Craig and Ellie back in Chapter 9 or 10.

Chapter 12

Emma's POV:

I stopped running after Sean was out of sight. I'm glad he didn't come after me. I need to be alone right now…to process everything that's happening. I can't stay the weekend here. Sean doesn't love me the way I love him. I should have known it. God! I'm so stupid! I know what I'll do. I'll call Jay, he'll come to get me. (Emma dug out her cell phone and dialed Jay's number.)

"Speak."

"Jay, it's me. Please come to get me."

"Em? What's wrong? Are you ok? Where's Sean? What happened?"

"I'll eventually be ok. Sean can go to hell and I need someone to come and get me! Please!"

"Alright, alright. I'll be right there. Bye."

I hung up and pulled my knees to my chest. I just sat on the beach, crying. Jay doesn't know where I am though, I better start making my way back to Sean's house.

Jay's POV (Before, during, and after Emma's call):

I have to go pick up Alex in an hour. Ellie just called me a few hours ago and told me about their plan and how it worked…I wasn't really listening. I mean I love Bam Bam and Greenpeace, don't get me wrong, I just don't like taking calls when I'm at the ravine. No one knows I come to the ravine almost every night. I come here to hook up with random girls in the van. A lot of the times it's with Amy. I know it's totally wrong to get blowjobs from your girlfriends ex best friend…but the ravine is where I go to blow off steam. I have to find a way to relieve stress somehow. Alex is always working or with Emma or fighting with her mom. She never has time for me anymore. So a few months ago I started coming to the ravine. Surprisingly it's close to DCS and no one has ever gotten caught before. Lots of people park their cars here and sit around the fire to get drunk…or meet people to hook up with. When guys meet the girls they want to hook up with they take them into the van and trade them those wire shiny bracelets for blowjobs. Sometimes if you get a girl like Amy she'll give you the bracelets if you do it to her. That Amy, she's a weird one. I know it's wrong what I do at the ravine, and I know I shouldn't do that to someone that I love. But who knows maybe Alex is cheating on me too…She's hardly ever around unless we're going to school or she needs a ride or we're hanging out with Em and Sean or El and Craig. We're never alone anymore and I'm sick of it! I know I'm being kind of selfish here but I tried to talk to her…she just shrugs it off and changes the subject. I feel guilty a lot…but I just do what she does, I shrug it off and change the subject in my mind. After a while I don't even feel what Amy is doing to me. It's like my sub-conscience state has taken over and told me not to feel it because it's not Alex. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe it's not. But I do know one thing. Until Alex gets over whatever the hell she's going through and won't tell me about, I'm going to keep going to the ravine. It's only fair. I just finished putting a shiny new red bracelet on Amy's wrist when my cell phone rang again. I looked at the caller ID and saw it was Emma's number. Shouldn't she and Sean be having a fuck fest right about now? There must be something wrong. I better answer it.

Amy looks at me and says, "It's ok, answer it. I'll wait."

Rule number 5 of the ravine: never leave the van alone.

"Thanks, Aim."

"Speak."

"Jay, it's me. Please come to get me."

"Em? What's wrong? Are you ok? Where's Sean? What happened?"

"I'll eventually be ok. Sean can go to hell and I need someone to come and get me! Please!"

"Alright, alright. I'll be right there. Bye."

I hung up my phone and just sat there for a second kind of in shock. Something bad must have happened because Em wouldn't call me to come and get her over a stupid little fight. She must have told Sean she loved him…he might not have said it back. Oh no! I better hurry up and get my ass up to Wasaga!

"Jay? You ok?"

"Uh yeah, I'll be fine Amy. I have to go though."

"Let me guess, something happened between Cause Girl and Sean?"

"How'd you know?"

"Well let's see here…they haven't left each other's sides since Sean came back to Degrassi and the whole time Sean and I dated he always mentioned Emma when we were…screwing around. He always claimed he said something else but he's been in love with her since forever…why I don't know. But that's Cameron's choice."

Screwed around? Did she just say screwed around? Em will not be happy to hear about this one.

"Amy did you and Sean ever have sex?"

"Depends on what you consider sex."

"Aim, come on, tell me."

"We never had sex. But we did fool around some. Not much just some. But mostly he just wanted to show off his hickeys to Emma to make her mad. So I don't even consider it that big of a deal."

Why do I care?

"Whatever. Look I got to go. Can we exit the van now?"

"After you."

I left the van and kissed Amy good bye. By the time I made it to my car Amy was already entering the van with some other guy. Sheesh! She gets around! I don't have any romantic feelings for Amy though…I don't think I have any feelings for Amy. I don't even think I consider her my friend. But I have to try and feel something. With Alex here but not really HERE Amy is my only way to try and feel something. I better go get Em.

(Jay got in his car and took off. He pulled out his cell and pressed Alex's cell number on the speed dial)

"I'm working. What?"

"Sorry Lex but Emma called. Something happened between Emma and Sean and I have to go get her. She's really upset. Do you think you can leave a few minutes early?"

"(muffled whispering) Yeah Paige can cover for me."

"Great. I'll be there in 5."

I hang up the phone and make a u turn to the movie theatre.

Emma's POV:

It took me about 10 minutes to make it back to Sean's house. But hey the slower I walked the more time I could kill before Jay got there or before Sean started to get worried and came after me. I knew Mr. and Mrs. C. would be asleep because when they cleaned up their alcoholic act, they both got good jobs and own a car fixing shop. They go to bed early and get up early. Now my only problem would be Tracker…he's sleeping in the living room and if I come home early, without Sean, and in tears he'll make me tell him what's wrong. I don't want to have to go through this whole thing with Tracker. It's bad enough I have to go through it at all. I can't believe Sean would do this to me…how could he take advantage of me like that? He told me he would never take advantage of me and of our "relationship." PSHT! Screw that…screw him…well then again that's how I got in this problem in the first place. UGH! This is so confusing. Why doesn't he love me? (Emma arrives at the Cameron household and takes a deep breath. She enters the house and sees Tracker sitting on the couch watching TV.)

"Hey Em, what are you guys doing home so early?"

"I felt like coming home."

"Where's Sean?"

"I don't know. I think he's still at the party."

I try to walk away, into Sean's room to get my stuff but Track says something that really surprises me.

"It doesn't matter what he says Em, he loves you."

I turned around and my head snapped up.

"What!"

"Let me guess…you told him you were in love with him and he didn't say it back?"

"Track…h-how did you know that?"

"Well let's see…you're crying and look like you have been for a while. You came back without Sean…and Sean wouldn't let you go out alone unless he had a good reason. You tried to avoid talking to me when you came in and you tried to head straight to Sean's room…probably for your stuff because I assume you called Jay or Craig to come and get you."

"Ok so fine…that's what happened. But I don't want to talk about it. I just want to get my stuff and wait for Jay. I don't want to have to think about it anymore."

"Em, you're going to be thinking about it for a while. Come on, you love him."

Oh crap. How does Tracker know all of this?

"I do love him Tracker. But he doesn't love me back."

"He does too Emma. He's loved you since the 7th grade for God sakes."

"How do you know that?"

"Because he studied with you…he never likes to study in front of other people it makes him feel stupid. He danced with you…he never dances and he didn't even know you that night. He stopped fighting with Jimmy just to dance with you. When he pushed you and you dumped him he wouldn't talk for days and he barely ate. When he went to the party that night he cried when you told him it was over for good. He tried to move on but he couldn't. He was so excited when Manny invited him to that wedding that he came home and turned on love songs and practiced slow dancing so he wouldn't screw it up. Come on Em, you know that's not something Sean normally does."

"He cried? He practiced dancing?"

"Oh trust me, I'm not done yet. When Manny told him you didn't want him at the wedding he was so upset that he almost cried again when she left. When he came home from the wedding, he was so excited that you two were back together that he jumped up and down. He wouldn't shut up about it for days. And then he actually went to dinner with your parents…that's another thing Sean would never do. He was so upset that night when he came home drunk, he was for sure he messed it up with you and that you would never want to be with him again. And then at the end of the year when he went to that dance with you…Emma, Sean would never do anything like that either. He did it for you. But when Snake got cancer he felt ignored…he couldn't stand not being near you all the time. He may have just seemed a little sex-crazed to you but it wasn't that. He just wanted to be near you. And I know Sean's messed up quite a lot with you, but he loves you Emma. I know he does."

WOW! I never thought in a million years Sean would have done all those things.

"Wow, Tracker I never knew any of that."

"Well now you do. So the question is what are you going to do about it?"

"I don't know. Maybe Sean does love me. But I don't want to push a relationship with him because our relationships always end badly."

"Good choice. But Emma just give Sean some time to think. The conclusion will come to him."

"Thanks Track. That really helped."

"Anytime kiddo. But you might want to go get your stuff. Jay's probably driving like a maniac…and he'll be here soon."

"Shouldn't I talk to Sean?"

"Just go home. Let Sean think for the weekend…let yourself think for the weekend. Then talk to him when you're sure you're ready to talk."

Makes sense. Tracker's right.

"Wow Tracker since when did you get so smart?"

"I don't know Em, I guess one of us Cameron's has to have brains."

I laughed.

"True, true."

"Well you go get your stuff, I'm going to hit the sack."

"Ok, night Track. Thanks."

"Anytime Em, and incase I don't get to see you again for a while, you know the number if Sean is acting stupid again."

I laughed again.

"Got it."

Tracker and I hugged and then I went into Sean's room to gather my stuff and clean myself up.

Jay's POV:

Alex and I have been sitting in silence for the past 20 minutes. We said hi to each other and that was about it. That's it! I can't stand this anymore! I have to ask her what's going on.

"Ok that's it. Lex, what in the hell is going on?"
She looked at me trying to look like she didn't know what I was talking about but I know deep down that she does.

"What do you mean Jay?"

"Cut the crap Alex. Tell me what's going on now!"

"Jay I don't know what you're talking about."

"Fine I'll spell it out for you. Want to tell me why you have barely touched me in over a month? Want to tell me why we're never alone anymore? Or why you're always working, with Emma, or fighting with your mom? Alex you used to come to me when things went bad with your mom. But now you're always with Emma, or Ellie. You never come to me anymore. I'm sick of being ignored! I know something's up and I want to know what it is!"

(Alex starts crying) Oh my God! I didn't mean to make her cry! She hardly ever cries. Oh no! It must be something really bad. I pulled over the car and took my seatbelt off I pulled her into my arms and hugged her tight.

"It's ok Lex, whatever it is, we'll get through it. Together. I won't leave you to deal with anything on your own. But you have to tell me what's going on."

"Ok, fine I'll tell you. Jay, last month I thought I was pregnant. I-I wanted to tell you but I needed to take a pregnancy test first. When it came out negative I was so relieved. I thought everything could just go back to the way it was. But then I started getting scared that it would happen again. And I kept thinking what if I really did have the baby. I just couldn't stop thinking about it or stop being scared. So I distracted myself by working extra hours and by starting fights with my mom. I didn't want to be alone with you because I don't trust myself with you Jay. I love you so much and I don't think I could be alone with you without doing anything."

PREGNANT! WHAT!

"Alex, why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"I'm sorry, I know I should have. But I was scared. I'm so sorry!"

She just collapsed in my arms and started crying harder. Oh my God! I can't believe this. I feel so bad….OH NO! I've been going to the ravine this whole time to get back at Alex and this is what's been going on? I feel so bad. I can't tell her! She'll break up with me…I love her too much for her to do that. I can't tell her. I'll just have to try and swallow the guilt.

"It's ok Lex. Everything will be ok."

I kiss her and hold her until she stops crying. It was only a few minutes but it seems like it's been forever.

"Well we better go get Em now. At least I have you Jay, she doesn't have Sean yet."

"Yeah, let's go. Are you sure you're going to be ok?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine."

I smile at her and give her one last kiss before we leave. But the guilt is eating away at my insides….

So what do you think? I wanted to put the ravine in the story somehow and then I thought up this whole Alex/Jay thing. I think Tracker would say just that to Emma if this were really on Degrassi. Some of the things Sean did were kind of a stretch…but hey you never know. The next chapter will be about what Sean was thinking. I'll try and get it up sooner then this chapter. R&R!