Chapter 14

Alex's POV:
We just pulled up to Sean's house in Wasaga Beach. I'm completely emotionally drained after that talk I had with Jay about five towns back. I miss talking to Jay about things. I miss being with Jay…alone with him…just everything used to be different. And I miss that. I'm worried about Emma more than myself right now because she's sitting out on the porch in a lawn chair with her legs curled up to her chest. She's not crying anymore but it looks like she was for an extremely long time. She looks like she's deep in thought. Something bad had to have happened. I told Ellie and Craig they should have never interfered…but no they had to have it their way. They want to make everyone else happy with their newfound love…PSHT! Whatever…don't get me wrong they're some of my best friends but sometimes their mushiness makes me sicker then Greenpeace and Bam Bam's ever did. Jay runs out of his car and up to Emma as soon as he turns it off. My mind is on overload right now…it's not functioning properly. I should be the one running up to her and hugging her and carrying her back to the car because her legs feel like jello…not Jay. I'm the best friend…Jay is too but it's different. Why am I caring more about my own feelings than Emma's? I'm such a bad friend. I haven't said one word to her yet and we're getting ready to leave. I haven't even gotten out of the car. It's like my body just froze when I saw, once strong, Emma "Greenpeace, Cause Girl" Nelson crumpled up like a piece of paper looking like she's Bambi who just watched her mother get shot. Everyone always thought I was strong…but I'm not. Not as strong as Emma. I always figured if people like Emma could be strong about all of her problems, then so could I. But if Emma can't be strong…then maybe I can't either. Maybe I'll soon crumple like a piece of paper. Why am I thinking about myself at a time like this?

"So Em, are you ok? What happened?"

"I don't want to talk about it Jay."

"Look whatever Sean did, it's ok to tell us."

That's when it kicked in…the best friend mode that is. When I saw the way Emma cringed when Jay mentioned Sean's name…that's when I knew I had to help her.

"Just shut the hell up right now ok Jay?"

He looked at my completely surprised…I haven't spoken a word since the whole pregnancy cry fest incident.

"Look Em, we don't have to talk about it. But Jay and I want you to know that we're here if you want to talk. We know when to shut up and leave you alone and if we don't then just say…nothing you say will be held against you tonight."

She looks at me and gives me a small smile.

"Thanks you guys…for coming to get me. Sorry but I just need some more time to think. I'll talk when I'm ready."

Jay and I both manage to say an ok and look at each other before not speaking a word the rest of the way back to Degrassi…..

Once we got back to Degrassi Jay knew he couldn't drive around forever. Neither of us wanted to talk to Emma but we had to take her somewhere. Jay was the first to speak.

"So Em, where do you want us to take you? It's probably not the best idea to go home because you know your mom will want to talk. And we can't go to Alex's because her mom's new boyfriend of the week is very fond of coke…she's hasn't slept at home one night this week. I guess we could go to my house if you wanted…if you don't mind my parent's fighting and throwing of plates. OH! I know! We could take you to Craig's house. He and Ellie are in his garage hanging out and we can sneak in unnoticed---"

"Take me to Sean's."

Jay and I both looked at her like she was insane.

"Um, Em are you really sure it's a good idea to---"

"TAKE ME TO SEAN'S JAY!"

Jay and I were extremely taken back by that one. She just screamed it at us. We know when to shut up and do what we're told because when Emma yells like that she doesn't wait around for everyone else to get it in gear.

"Ok, we'll take you to Sean's," Jay said with a slight quiver in his voice.

(Skipping to when they get to Sean's.)

Once we get to Sean's apartment Emma runs inside with Jay and I trudging in behind her. We weren't sure what to say to her because we didn't want to get another loud explosion from the blonde. She stops in the living room and finally speaks.

"I'm sorry about the car you guys. I just want to be here right now."

"It's ok Greenpeace, is there anything you want us to get for you?"

"No, Jay I'll be fine. But I do need to talk to Alex…alone."

Me? GOOD! I finally get to hear the story!

"Ok, um we can go talk in the bedroom."

Jay nods and says, "You guys talk. I'll wait for you and watch TV."

We nod and head towards the bedroom as Jay flops down on the couch and turns on the TV.

Once we get in the bedroom I sit down on the chair across from the bed in Sean's room. Emma goes to his closet and pulls out one of his dark blue hoodies. She puts it on and pulls up her long blonde hair. Then she lies down on the bed and buries her face in Sean's pillow before looking up at me.

"Ok, so are you ready to talk Em?"

"Yeah, I'm ready."

(Emma tells Alex the whole story)

Wow. I would have at least expected Sean to say something but he didn't say anything. MORON! GOD!

"Oh, Em I'm so sorry. Sean can be such a fucking moron sometimes!"

"Trust me I know."

"I'm sure it will be ok Em. I'm sure he'll realize that he made a mistake."

"But it's not that easy to get over Alex…Sean and I weren't just friends."

She looks down. What the hell?

"Alex, Sean and I have been…ever since he came back from Wasaga Sean and I have been…sl-eep-ing to-ggether."

WHAT! I mean I kind of already knew but still…WHAT!

"Oh."

"Oh, that's all you have to say?"

"Trust me Em, it's not that hard to figure out. Jay and I kind of already knew."

She looks down again.

"Oh."

"No, it's not like he told us. We just kind of figured it out. But we didn't know if it was true or not."

"Yeah, well I guess we were kind of obvious about it sometimes. But that's not the point. The point is that I let him take advantage of me. I'm so sick of letting him Sean Cameron me!"

"Letting him Sean what?"

"It's a term I made up when we broke up in grade 9. He was an ass and broke my heart. Anyone that does that Sean Cameroned me."

"Oh, ok. Makes sense I guess. But Emma he didn't Sean Cameron you. He just doesn't know how to say I love you."

"Maybe he just doesn't love me."

"Of course he does."

"Maybe he just wanted me for sex."

"He does not!"

"Well I'm not waiting around here to find out!"

She got up and walked towards the door.

"Emma where are you going?"

"I'm going to talk to someone who's been there with Sean before."

"And that would be?"

"Ellie."

Then she disappeared out of Sean's bedroom.

Jay's POV (during Emma and Alex's talk):

Oh great! Girl talk, they're going to be in there forever! I should have known. And I won't get to find out what happened until Alex comes out of there…which will be never! PSHT! Alex…God I still can't believe I felt ignored with Alex and cheated on her with Amy! I'm the biggest ass in Canada! I'm lower than that creep Dean right now! UGH! I can't believe I did this to her! She's never going to want to speak to me again. Maybe she will…then again Ash forgave Craig. THAT'S IT! Craig! I have to talk to him! He'll give me some good advice! I picked up my cell and dialed Craig's number.

"Hello?"

"Hey Manning, it's Jay."

"Oh hey, what's up man?"

"Just called to tell you your brilliant plan didn't work!"

"What? What happened?"

"I don't know all the details but Emma's extremely upset. She hasn't told me anything yet but she's in Sean's room crying and talking to Alex."

"Oh no. Ellie and I will be right there man!"

"Alright. See you in a few."

"Bye."

"Later."

Now all I have to do is wait for Manning to get here and then he can give me some advice….

(knocking)

"COME IN!"
It's Craig and El.

"Hey Jay, how is she?"

"Red wants to know how she is…well let's see here she's been crying her eyes out since she called me three hours ago. I'd say she's not good."

"Hey man! You don't have to be such an ass face!"

Ha—ass face. Hilarious!

"Sorry man. I didn't mean it. Sorry El, this whole Emma Sean thing is really stressful."

"It's ok. Where is she?"

"Her and Alex are in Sean's room. They're talking."

Just then Emma comes rushing out of Sean's room. She wasn't crying so that's a good sign.

"Whoa Greenpeace where's the fire?"

"I have to talk to El—"

Then she sees Ellie standing two feet away from her.

"Oh good Ellie you're here. I have to talk to you!"

She grabs Ellie's arm and drags her back to the bedroom. This leaves me and Craig alone! Now's my chance…whoa I just sounded like Marco!

"I can't believe this happened to Em. She's such a great person. I'll have to kick his ass for hurting her…not the greatest move for best friend Craig but a must have for big brother Craig."

"Yeah…Hey Manning can I ask you something?"

"Uh, sure."

"Ok well you know how you cheated on Ashley and Manny at the same time?"

"Uh yeah…what's your point?"

"Well I need some advice…but you have to promise not to tell anyone!"

"Ok, I promise. But I still don't see what this has to do with Ash and Mann—"

"Oh no! You didn't. Please tell me you didn't cheat on Alex."
I looked at him, with a look of complete guilt on my face.

"I did. But let me explain!"

"Fine, before I comment you can explain."

"Ok well for the past month or two Alex has been ignoring me or blowing me off and we're never alone together anymore. I thought she was cheating one me. So one night I went down to the ravine to get drunk. But in the middle of my drunken sulking, Amy came up to me and asked me to go into a van with her—"

"Oh my God! You did that…with Amy? Alex's best friend Amy?"

"Yeah...well old best friend."

"How could you do that man?"

"I thought she was cheating on me! Besides I never had actual sex with Amy…I know that's not excuse for the screwing around but still. I thought she was cheating on me. It was only payback!"

"Well did you find out what really happened?"

"Yeah, and let me tell ya she wasn't cheating!"

"Oh no."

"Exactly, so that's why I'm here talking to you trying to figure out what to do."

"If I don't tell her the guilt will kill me. But if I do she'll dump me for sure."

"Dude, if I were you, I'd tell her. I once was you and I learned the hard way. You'll probably get dumped, yeah, but there's a bigger chance that you'll be forgiven if you fess up to it yourself."

Logical. I only wish there was a way I could do this without getting dumped…..

Ellie's POV:

Emma just told me what happened. I'm completely shocked! And now I feel completely guilty. None of us would be here doing this right now if I wouldn't have convinced her to tell him she loved him. Oh God! I should have never….I feel so bad right now. Then Emma asks me a weird question.

"Look El, I know this is kind of personal. But I have to know. Did you and Sean ever…you know have sex? Please be honest."

That one caught me off guard.

"Um no actually we didn't."

"Really? I always thought you guys did."

"No actually. Sean and I weren't even really in love. His whole heart wasn't in the relationship…and neither was mine."

"Oh…well did you ever come close to it?"

Oh crap. She shouldn't have asked me that.

"Uh…yeah, once we almost did."

Emma looks devastated.

"What happened? What stopped you?"
If I tell her I'll be betraying a secret to Sean, but if I don't tell her I'll be betraying her by keeping it from her. I've already done enough damage…but this could help I guess.

"Ok well we were doing laundry one day and we just randomly started making out. We got pretty close to doing it. But then he lifted me on top of the dryer and his wallet that was laying on it fell off and all the stuff fell out of it. We both looked down at it. We normally would have just continued but then I saw something that caught my eye."

"What was it?"
She was curious. I could tell…she was extremely curious.

"Well it was a picture that had fallen out of his wallet…of you."

She looked completely shocked.

"WHAT!"

"Well it was a school picture of you that said "To Sean, Love Emma." And it had a little heart on it."

"Oh my God."

"It looked kind of crumpled."

Emma looks like she just realized something important.

"What is it Em?"

"That's…that's the school picture I was going to give Sean the day he broke up with me…back in ninth grade. I crumpled it up into a ball and threw it on the ground when he dumped me. I never would have thought that he would have picked it up and kept it all this time."

Oh my God! It looks like my info helped for once! YES! This is a huge revelation!

"See Em, I told you he loved you back."

"If he really loves me back and he really just couldn't say it then there's one more person I have to talk to."

Alex and I both look at each other completely confused.

"What? Who?"

"Amy," she says before leaving the room.

Alex and I both look at each other completely shocked.

"AMY?" We both yell completely confused.

Then Alex figures it out.

"She wants to talk to Amy to see if Sean and Amy ever had sex."

"Why would she want to know?"

Then Alex explains all the sex stuff between Emma and Sean to me. Now I get it.

Craig's POV:

I just got done giving Jay advice when Emma comes flying out of Sean's room. Jay and I look kind of confused.

"Emma what's going on?"

"I need you to take me to see Amy."

"What? Amy? Amy Amy?"

"Yes, I have to talk to her. Please just take me, Craig."

"Fine, but I don't know where she lives or anything."

Jay looks at me and Emma and then looks to make sure Alex isn't in the room. Then he whispers, "She's in the ravine."

When he's done saying that, he looks as if he's about to cry and his face is chalky white.

"Thanks."

Then Emma flies out the door pulling me behind her. I didn't get a chance to make sure Jay was ok. I've learned from the past when Emma Nelson is on a mission, there's no getting out of it. So I drive her to the ravine. Everyone at Degrassi knows what the ravine is…and what it's used for. I don't think Emma connected the dots together yet on why Jay knew why Amy was at the ravine…and that's a miracle because Emma's like my sister. I can't lie to her and she knows when I am.

(Once they get to the ravine.)

"Ok, so I'll go find Amy to talk to her but I want you to stay here. Just keep a close eye on me incase one of her guy creeps starts to hassle me."

"Em, I don't think it's a good idea that you go alone."

"Too bad Craig, I have to do this."

"Why Amy Emma? How will this help you with Sean?"

She looks at me and I can tell she has a secret.

"It just will ok. I need to know if Sean really was taking advantage of me. I need to know if Sean really does love me."

What? Ok now she's confusing me more then what she ever has before. She looks at me and she can tell I'm confused.

"Don't worry about it Craig. I just have to do this. Wait for me please. I'll be back as soon as I can."

I guess I have to let her do this.

"Ok fine, but be careful and make sure you have your cell phone incase you need my help. I'll try and keep an eye on you from here."

"Thanks Craig."

She hugs me and then leaves the van. Poor Em, whenever she's really emotional she always hugs me in a sisterly way. I wonder what happened between her and Sean…..

(From now on when someone changes POV or when there's no POV I'll draw this line thing)

Emma starts to walk through the ravine. There's a ton of people there that are drunk or getting drunk. Some are making out and others are going in and out of the van in the middle of it all. She finally sees Amy sitting in-between two guys by the fire. They all have beers in their hands. Amy has a ton of ravine bracelets. Emma takes a deep breath and puts her blonde hair behind her ears. She walks over to Amy who sees her immediately.

"Emma Cause Girl Nelson….actually at the ravine? Are you lost little girl?"

Emma rolls her eyes and Amy stands up.

"No Amy, actually I need to talk to you."

"Me? Why me? What in the world could you possibly have to say to me?"

"I have to talk to you about…Sean."

Amy looks surprised. She's about to tell Emma off but she can tell she needs to talk. She rolls her eyes at the fact that she's about to help Cause Girl with her love life with her ex—Sean Cameron. Her ex Sean Cameron…the guy who was the hottest, the baddest, and the greatest.

"Fine, Emma. I'll talk to you. But this better not take long. Ricky's waiting for his turn in the van," Amy says as she points at some random guy that winks at her and takes another drink of his beer.

"I promise this will only take a minute."

Emma pulls Amy's arm and drags her over by Craig's car. She makes sure she's out of earshot from the people at the ravine and Craig.

"Ok get talking."

Emma takes a deep breath and starts talking.

"Ok Amy, I know we're not friends but I have to know something. Look this may be personal for you and Sean but I have to know in order to be able to trust Sean about something. But you have to tell me the truth…please."

Amy rolls her eyes but can see the pain in Emma's. She feels the need to tell her the truth for some reason. But she doesn't want Emma to know that she's telling her the truth because she feels the pain of a lost love…but because she's annoyed. Amy sighs just for affect.

"Ok Emma. I'll tell you what really happened with me and Sean…that is if you want the details."

"Yes, I want the details….But just not too graphic ok?"

"Ok. Sean and I were pretty much just dating for show. I didn't like him all that much and he was just using me…to get back at you and to fit in with Jay and Alex better and to fill all of his hormone needs. He just wanted to fulfill his hornyness and then go and get drunk and party with Jay. He never cared about me. But then again I was cheating on him at the same time so I guess we're even."

Emma looks relieved and confused at the same time.

"Ok…nice to know. But you still didn't answer my question."

Amy once again rolls her eyes just for affect.

"I was getting there. You said you wanted to know the whole story. Well anyways, Sean and I would hangout with Jay and Alex most of the time. The only time he wanted to be alone with me was either when Jay and Alex were over and left early and he wanted to show off. Or when he was mad at someone."

Emma looked kind of confused again and cut off Amy before she said anymore.

"What do you mean mad at someone?"

"Well sometimes he would come home from school and he'd just be really pissed off. I'd end up being with him for some reason or another and he's say that he'd be right back and he'd go into the bedroom for like a half an hour. One time I peeked inside to see what he was doing and he was looking at a picture album. It was pictures of him…and you. And I think he'd look at it when ever he got upset about you and the DJ or something like that. And once I even heard him throw the album and yell bitch."

Emma seems completely taken back by that. She never expected in her wildest dreams that Sean Cameron gave a damn about her after they broke up. But apparently he did.

Emma's voice was cracky and dry and shakey when she spoke.

"Wow…I would have never expected that."

"Yeah well there's a lot of things you don't know Emma."

"So…did you and Sean ever…have sex?"

Amy rolled her eyes…again.

"Well to get right to the point, no Sean and I never slept together. But if you want to know the details…Sean and I screwed around. I gave him a blowjob a few times and I let his hands…wander a few times. And of course we made out and I gave him some hickies."

Emma felt a little bit of jealousy when Amy mentioned all of those sexual, personal things that Emma knew she and Sean were suppose to share with each other as their relationship went through the years. It made her sad to think of the relationship that she and Sean could have had if it weren't for the big breakup back in grade 9. But at least she knew that it was Sean's first time too…that she could trust him…that he didn't take advantage of her. It made her smile just a little.

"Ok, thanks Amy."

Emma smiled and it made Amy feel better about herself…like Emma was someone she could trust.

"Sure Cause Girl. I have to go now."

"Ok, bye."

Emma turned to walk away but Amy called out.

"Emma!"

Emma turned back around.

"Yeah?"

"Look maybe we could…I don't know talk sometime. You seem pretty trustworthy…and I guess you're not so bad. Sometimes I just feel like I need someone to talk to…someone that truly understands."

Emma looks confused.

"Um sure…but understands what?"

"What it's like to be in love…to find your soul mate at such a young age…to lose the one you love…to feel heartbreak."

Amy smiles and walks away back into the ravine.

Emma seems confused at first, then she smiles and walks back to Craig's car.

Emma's POV:

It's nice to know that Amy feels like she can trust me. I mean I never thought Amy and I would end up being friends but I guess it could happen. I don't think we'll ever really be friends…but I guess we could be "talking buddies." I'm such a loser! He he. Me being able to talk to Amy about such personal stuff without actually being friends with her reminds me of…Manny. Weird. I haven't thought about Manny in a while. We were best friends from preschool to 9th grade. But then she got the abortion and I just couldn't talk to her anymore. I couldn't even look at her without thinking that she killed a baby…she killed a baby! But I don't think it was just the abortion that made me feel uncomfortable around Manny. I guess I kind of felt like I was losing my best friend because she grew up…she grew up so fast. She was already screwing guys and I had barely made it to second base with Sean. Maybe I was jealous…I don't think that's it either. I guess I just felt like she was growing up without me. I guess I felt left out that she was going to be tied up with boys all the time and I would be left in the dust. Maybe I just wanted to feel dirty and seductive for once…maybe I just missed Sean and was jealous of Manny getting what she wanted. I don't know what I was exactly. It was just a bunch of stuff mixed in together I guess. I miss her sometimes. But I know we could never go back to being friends again like what we were. It'll never be the same. Sometimes I think that about me and Sean but after talking to Amy and Ellie I feel so much better. Sean did have a rough life…maybe he just doesn't want to get attached to someone because he's scared they won't be around. I don't know…I'm not supposed to be thinking about Sean right now. I guess I can't help it. But then again if Sean and I can work it out and make it go back to the way it was….through some miracle of God….then maybe Manny and I can work it out too. Besides…Manny might understand about what it's like to give up your virginity to someone and have them not return their feelings. She knows what it's like to go through hell and back with her relationships. (By the way Manny and Spinner aren't together in this story. Manny choose Chester and Bark at the Moon.)

I think what I need to do is talk to Manny.

"So Em, do you still want me to take you back to Sean's or are we going to skip town for a couple of days?" Craig asks me laughing.

I don't laugh back. I manage to let out a small smile to let him know that I'm at least listening.

"Actually Craig, could you take me somewhere else?"

"Sure, anywhere. Where do you want to go?"

I look at him unsure but I know I have to do this. I know that, just like Sean, this whole Manny drama is an obstacle that I have to pass in my life.

"Take me to Manny's house."

Craig looks at me like his male parts were just injured in some type of an accident. \

"WHAT? Manny? Manny Santos? Manny…girl you haven't talked to since the abortion Manny?"

"Yes, yes, and yes. Do you remember where it is?"

"Em, are you sure about this? Why do you want to talk to Manny?"

"I want to talk to Manny because I do, ok Craig? It's just something I have to do…just like I had to talk to Amy. Right now I need to talk to Manny. Now, do you remember where it is?"

Craig managed to choke out a "yes" and then headed towards Manny's house.

Manny's POV:

I'm so bored! Ever since I started dating Chester it's more like I'm his trophy than his girlfriend. He only calls me when he wants to go somewhere with his friends. He's just using me. I can tell he's just using me. I don't know why I let him do it. Maybe I'm trying to prove something to Spinner…or to myself. Maybe I just don't want to end up alone. I don't have any good friends anymore…I did have Liberty but ever since her and JT started dating, she hasn't been around as much. They're so mushy that it's sickening to even try to be around. And she's never without him. Sometimes I hang out with Toby but it's just not the same. I miss being friends with Emma and JT and Toby and Liberty and Sean and being in the 8th grade again. I wish I could go back to that night at the party and made sure I didn't run after Craig. That's when my life when down the toilet…the day I hooked up with Craig Manning. I thought I loved Craig, but I didn't. I just felt lonely. I'm so sick of feeling lonely. Every time I do feel lonely I go and do something stupid. First time, I get myself pregnant. Second time, I get Paige and half the school against me and then I don't even get the guy in the end. And now…I'm letting some loser use me because I'm scared to be alone. My mom is always at the hospital because she's a doctor and my father is always away on "business." I know my dad screws around on my mom but she's just too stupid to realize it….then again I'm too stupid to not know if Craig wore a condom or not. God! I need to stop blaming myself for things. I just need to stop being scared of being alone. I won't always be alone I guess. But I do know it scares the hell out of me. My parents aren't home and it's midnight on a Friday night. I feel so alone. (Knocks at the door.)

Hmm…that's strange. I don't remember inviting anyone. Maybe it's Chester wanting to go somewhere with his friends…better than being alone I guess.

(Answers door. Looks shocked.)

EMMA! What in the hell?

"Emma? What in the hell are you doing here?"

Emma looks just as shocked and as scared as I do. But I'm not only shocked and scared…I'm a little pissed off. We haven't spoken since the abortion and she thinks she can just come traipsing in here like nothing ever happened?

"Um, well I was hoping we could, um, talk."

Yeah right.

"What in the hell would I possibly have to say to you after what you did?"

I expected her to start fighting with me and say that I was to blame but she didn't.

"Look Manny, I know that I seem like the worst person ever to you but let me explain."

I sighed.

"Fine, you have five minutes to come up with a good enough explanation without me slamming the door in your face."

Emma looks relieved and takes a deep breath as I let her in and we sit on the couch. As I shut the door I noticed Craig was sitting in his car in my driveway waiting for her. UGH! Great, as if it weren't bad enough she comes here but she has to bring Craig? I'm starting to not only get pissed but annoyed also.

"So talk."

"Ok, Manny look I know that I haven't spoken to you since the abortion but it's not just because you had the abortion. It's because I felt like I was losing you. I felt like you were growing up without me. I guess I thought that you having sex meant that you became a woman and that you moved on to bigger and better things…without me. I felt left out and I already was vulnerable from when Sean broke up with me. You were my best friend Manny and I had just lost my boyfriend. I didn't have anyone. And then I became friends with Ellie…until she started dating Sean. So I just started hanging out with Liberty and then Paige…whoever would be friends with me. Then the shooting happened and everything fell to pieces. I felt like nothing could ever be the same again. And I felt like we could never be best friends again. Manny I'm sorry for what happened between us. But we were both to blame. And now I need advice…advice from someone who had to grow up too fast. But I don't want advice from the Manny that had an abortion and got her heart broken and lost her best friend. I want advice from the Manny that slept with Craig that night…the Manny that I used to know…the Manny that let Craig have her heart…her whole heart."

Whoa…I never expected Emma to ever say any of this to me. But she's right. We're both to blame. And I did give my whole heart to Craig. But I wonder what she needs advice about…oh…should have figured. SEAN!

"Ok Em, I'm listening. You can talk to me. You're right we're both to blame and I'm sorry too. What do you need advice on? Is it about Sean?"

My heart sunk for Emma as she looked just as I did when I found out I was pregnant and she whispered "yes."

"Oh my God…Emma are you pregnant?"

She looks at me like I just flashed her or something.

"NO! Of course not! I just need some advice on how to let Sean have my heart when it's still healing from the last time we broke up."

I can tell there's a story. There has to be. Sean must have fucked up…again!

"Ok calm down. Tell me what happened."

She takes a deep breath and sucks back the tears that are about to fall. I can tell this is big.

"Ok well Sean and I have been best friends since he saved me from Rick shooting me. The night he decided to come back from Wasaga Beach it became more…and I don't know how but we ended up…sleeping together. And then we decided we weren't going to do it anymore. But when I'm with Sean it's like I'm in some kind of ecstasy or something. It's just so different. And we decided that we weren't going to be in a relationship because it always ended badly and we knew that we couldn't live without each other being in the other's lives. But then I thought that maybe, just maybe there was a chance that Sean still loved me. So when we went to Wasaga Beach this weekend to visit his parents I told him…I told him tonight and he didn't say anything back. He just stared at me like I was a ghost. And I ran and called Jay to come and get me. He never came after me like he usually would. And a lot of tears and hours and talks with Ellie and Amy later, I ended up here."

Wow. Unbelievable. Emma Nelson actually gave up her virginity at 17. Never thought that would happen. And what the hell is with Sean? He loves her…everyone knows he loves her. He just has issues. And she talked to Amy? Weird.

"Amy? You talked to Amy? Weird. Well anyways I'm sure that Sean loves you he just has issues Emma."

She looks relieved for some reason. It's not like I said anything totally comforting.

"Thanks Manny. That helps. That's what everyone has been telling me but I didn't believe it until now."

Ok now I'm confused.

"What? Why not? Why do you believe me?"
She looks at me and smiles.

"Because I know I can trust my best friend."

Best friend? Me?

"But we're not best friends."

"No but we used to be. And I love my other friends, I do but I trust you Manny. And I always will."

I smile at her and we hug.

"But things can never go back to the way they were, Manny."

I know that. In my heart I truly do.

"I know Em. I know. But we'll always be here for each other when crisis hits. I'm sorry you have to go through what you are Em, and I'm sorry we can't make things go back to the way they were."

"Thanks Manny. I wish they could too but too much trust and time has been lost."

We hugged again. And I lead her to the door. She opened it and smiled at me one more time before leaving and getting into Craig's car. I hear his car pull away and notice that I'm still smiling. I don't feel lonely anymore. I just got a visit from my oldest and best friend. I know I won't be lonely anymore…even though Emma's not going to be there, she'll still be there. If that made any sense.

Emma's POV:

It may not feel like it in my heart, but I know that I'm going to be ok. Sean is my world and I would die if he weren't in that world. But I know that Sean loves me or at least did at one point, and I know that Sean will come back to me. I'm going to be ok.

Wherever you are Sean I want you to know that I love you more than life itself. I know that Sean will never hear me but I feel the need to think it anyways. I wish I knew where he was……

Sean's POV:

I went straight to my truck and headed straight for Degrassi to tell Em that I love her. I didn't even bother to stop back home to get my things or say goodbye to Tracker. Those were things that I could do later. But right now I need to get back to Degrassi…back to Emma. I love her more than anything and I blew my chance…my only chance. But it's not my only chance until Emma dies and that's when I'll finally give up. But I think she loves me too. I have a strange feeling. Like Emma's calling out to me. I can almost hear her voice telling me that she loves me more than life itself. I smile. I love her more than life itself too. And I'm going to be there as fast as I can to tell her!

BAM! BAM! BAM! I just hit you guys with a bunch of my best ideas! What do you think? This chapter is super long so that's why it took so long to write it! I think this is my best chapter yet! Just so you guys know, Manny probably won't be in the story much more and Amy might be a few more times. But Emma and Manny won't again be friends, they want to be but they aren't trusting enough. Oh and I'm thinking over some new ideas for after Sean and Emma get together, so if you have any ideas that you want me to use, tell me now because I might use them! Any good ideas you want me to use let me know right away! R&R!