Chapter 25

I'm SO SO SO SO SO SORRY! It's seems like it's been a year since I've written on this. I just go soooooo busy with stuff. But it's summer now and I've got more time to work. So I'm going to finish up this story with a few more chapters. It's basically just going to be what happens to Derrick, the other relationships, and of course with the semma. Haha. So here it goes.

Summary-It's been two months since Derrick attacked Emma. At first Emma started flinching every time Sean touched her and she started slowly falling apart. But then she had a good talk with Paige and Emma decided that she wasn't going to let Derrick ruin her life. She wasn't going to let him ruin her relationship with Sean. So she went to see Ms. Sauvé every day after school. It helped her a lot. And after about a month she was able to get back to being the old Emma. Sean was glad he finally got his girlfriend back. Emma was able to let Sean touch her without flinching. She was really doing well. And Sean was doing well because he knew Emma was going to make it through this. Paige and Spinner are going strong as well…it's almost as if they never broke up. Alex and Jay have slowly started talking again and stopped fighting so much. Jay is convinced that he has to be friends with Alex first, before they start their relationship again because that's how it happened the last time. And Alex is slowly but surely letting her barrier down and letting Jay earn back her trust. Jimmy officially broke up with Hazel and now he's back with Ashley. Hazel was heartbroken at first, but quickly got over it when her parents let her take some time off of school to study in Paris for a three month student exchange program. She'll be returning sometime next month. Ashley officially broke it off with Allistar and moved back to Degrassi to be with Jimmy. They've been going strong for the past two months. Craig and Ellie's relationship has been going great lately. But Ellie's been pushing Craig away because she's concerned that all Craig wants is sex. That's all they ever do anymore. Ellie was sure at first that Craig was the one for her and that they were each other's family. But now she's not so sure because in the life of Ellie Nash, nothing is perfect. Craig is starting to notice Ellie pushing him away but can't figure out why. Well that should just about cover it.

Scene-Degrassi Community School. Lunchtime. Emma is slowly walking towards the lunch room alone.

"Hey Em!" Ellie said coming up behind her.

"Oh hi Ellie." Emma said sort of zoning out.

"So how have you been doing lately with Sauvé?" Ellie asked concerned.

Emma smiled. Only Paige, Ellie, Craig, and Sean were allowed to ask her about her therapy sessions because they had all been through it. Except for Sean but she told Sean everything.

"Oh, they've been going good. She's really helping me get this whole thing sorted out in my head. And she's even helping get past some my past bad memories that I subconsciously haven't let go yet. So overall I'd say it's really good for me." She said smiling and knowing that she'd make it through.

"Past bad memories? Like what?"

Emma's smile faded.

"Like the shooting. And other stuff too…stuff that I thought I'd let go. I guess I'm still shaken about Jordan, that internet pedophile I told you guys about that one time. And Rick…well he definitely reminded me of Jordan in a way…and I think Derrick did too. That must have been why I didn't like either of them. And I also have some dad issues with Shane." Emma said letting out a long breath.

"Oh I'm sorry Em, I shouldn't have asked." Ellie said sympathetically.

"No El, it's fine really. You're one of my best friends. I tell you everything. Besides Sauvé said it helps when I talk about it with my friends or with my parents. And I have been lately. And it's really helping letting all of my feelings out. That way I don't fall apart again so easily." Emma said smiling to show Ellie that it was really ok.

Ellie smiled back.

"So how've you been lately El? We haven't talked about anything but…well you know…in a while."

Ellie's smiled faded.

"Ok I guess."

"El, this is me you're talking to. Tell me the truth."

"Alright, but you have to promise not to tell Craig. I know he's like your big brother and you just can't tell him!" Ellie said looking her straight in the eyes to let her know it was serious.

"Ok, El I promise I won't tell him. You know you can trust me."

Ellie smiled.

"I know."

Emma nudged her shoulder lightly with her own to let her know to go on.

"Ok well lately all Craig and I have been doing is having sex. It's all we ever do. We never just watch TV anymore. We can never just cuddle or do anything without sex. And it's got me thinking that maybe that's all Craig wants. I mean I know he loves me. But if all we do is have sex, maybe it's not that good of a relationship. Maybe sex is all we are. We're not Craig and Ellie anymore…we're just the couple that seems perfect but really…we don't even talk anymore. It's just…not the way it used to be." Ellie said stopping and looking down at the ground. She sucked in her tears.

Emma stopped also and looked over at her.

"Ellie I think this is a conversation you should be having with Craig. He loves you, El. I know he does. He's never been happier. And neither have you. You guys are meant to be, trust me. Just…just tell Craig what I told Sean a while back when the sex got to be too much. Just tell him you need a break from it all…and see where that gets you. If Craig can't live without it then you know that maybe he's not right for you. But if he can, then it proves even more that he loves you."

Ellie looked up at her and smiled.

"Thanks Em. I'll talk to Craig after school today."

Emma smiled and hugged her.

"Anytime. It's good to get the problems off of me for a while."

Emma and Ellie walk into the cafeteria. Emma sees Sean sitting with Craig and Jimmy. She pulls Ellie with her and walks up to them.

"Hey babe." Sean says as she approaches the table.

"Hey…where are the girls?" She asked sitting down next to him.

"Oh um they're in the bathroom doing something with their makeup." Jimmy said rolling his eyes.

Ellie laughed and sat down next to Emma. She made eye contact with Craig but he was mad that she wouldn't sit with him and he looked sadly down at his food.

"Well I forgot I told Marco I'd help him with that student council thing. See you guys later." Ellie said sighing sadly and looking at Craig before she left.

"What the hell was that about? There's no student council thing." Alex said coming up and sitting down where Ellie was sitting.

"She's mad at me." Craig said sadly.

Emma made sure not to look at Craig when he said that. He'd know she had a secret and Emma didn't want him to know what it was.

-X-

Scene-Sean's Apartment after school. He and Emma are sitting on his couch watching a movie.

"So what was with Craig and El at lunch today?" Sean asked putting his arm around Emma's shoulders. He smiled when she didn't flinch.

"Oh, who knows? Just weird Craig and Ellie stuff. You know how those two are." Emma said rolling her eyes. Sean laughed.

"I missed this Sean." Emma said leaning her head on his chest.

Sean knew that she meant things being normal again.

"I know I missed it too." He said leaning down and kissing her.

Emma kissed him back. Sean started to pull away knowing that Emma might now be able to handle a deep long kiss. But Emma put her hands on his head and pulled him back into it deepening the kiss. Sean was surprised but quickly recovered from it and kissed her harder. Emma leaned back on the couch and let Sean fall on top of her. Sean didn't want to pull away but he knew he had to.

"What's wrong?" Emma whispered breathlessly.

"Nothing…but Em…are you sure…I just…are you sure you're ready for this?" He said not meaning anything sexual really.

"Sean I'm not ready to have sex again!" She said her eyes widening.

"What? No of course not! I didn't mean that! I meant are you sure you're ready to be kissing like this…and to have me on top of you? I mean if you're having flashbacks or anything then we don't have to. Just please don't feel like you have to prove anything to me because you know you don't." He said looking her straight in the eyes.

Emma smiled.

"I know I don't. And I know I don't have to prove anything to myself either. I've been doing really good lately Sean. Sauvé has really been helping. And for the first time since we got back together, I really feel like everything is going to be ok. And I'm slowly starting to get over everything. And by everything I mean everything; Jordan, Shane, the shooting, and now Derrick. Sean I'm ready to start moving on. I'm ready to do this." She said putting her forehead on his.

Sean smiled.

"Ok but if you start to feel uncomfortable or you have even one flashback, promise me you'll stop me, okay?"

Emma smiled.

"Okay." She whispered before leaning up and kissing him.

-X-

So this is it for the first part. I'll try to post tomorrow night. But if I can't I'll definitely post more often. Again, I'm REALLY sorry I haven't posted in a while. So what do you think about this chapter? R&R and let me know!