More Than Ever – chap 3

Jean

Her eyes were sore and swollen…her tears had finally dried up, but her unhappiness hadn't disappeared, she had sat like that for a long time and it hadn't changed anything. She wondered whether she would be happier with Logan…spending her life with him, sharing his bed, his love…his love. He had shown it to her before…but she couldn't have it…no matter how much she longed for it, it was forbidden. Fresh tears began to pool in her eyes as she thought these thoughts, it wasn't doing any good. She just felt so empty without him, as though, without him there was nothing, Scott didn't matter to her anymore. She buried her face in her arms again and sighed deeply.

Suddenly she felt a strong warmth behind her, and comforting arms curve around her body and hug her tightly. The man hugged her close to his chest as she smiled faintly and leant against his chest. She could tell who it was instantly, and straight away felt better. It was Logan…he loved her, and she loved him. At that moment that was all there was to it. She let herself curl against his chest and shut her eyes, enjoying his embrace.

Logan

Jean relaxed against him instantly. He felt so much for this woman, and he was certain she felt the same. So what was the matter with her? He let out a feral growl from the bottom of his throat, she should be his, he had to comfort her, it was instinctive. He loved her so much. He lowered his head and gently pressed his lips against hers. Their kiss grew more passionate as Jean lifted her hand and curved it around his neck, bringing him closer to her. Their kiss was full of desire and wanting, they couldn't get enough of each other. But then Logan realised that Jean had tears still pouring down her face. He broke his mouth away from hers and whispered to her gently, his breath warm on her face.

Jean

She felt him stop kissing her, and felt reluctant to break away, but she knew that they needed to talk. He must be so concerned, she thought.

"Logan…why did you come down here?"

"I saw you…I had to Jean, you have no idea how much I feel for you right now, I can't stand to see you suffer." He said, surprising Jean slightly by his words.

"Want me to tell you what's wrong? I belong to Scott, I can't leave him, it would be wrong, he loves me so much. But Logan…I love you, not him. And I can't go on like this, I want to be with you Logan, but Scott…Scott is always going to be there, I can't leave him, but I can't stop loving you. I curse the day I met you Logan, you turned my life upside down." She whispered, her voice breaking slightly.

"Jean it doesn't have to be like this, I could go away, never come back, you could stay with Scott." Logan said, even though it was clear he would hate to do that. Jean wouldn't even consider that. She placed her fingers on his lips and spoke to him.

"Hey, I don't want you to do that, it would be even worse, times like this would never happen, times when I am close to you. You understand me more than anyone else, I want to be with you Logan."

"What about just seeing each other in private? No one else would have to know Jean, it would be secret, Scott wouldn't know. Because I can't live like this anymore, these precious moments make me love you even more, if that's possible. How about that? Please Jean, come on. Please." Logan begged, his eyes unreadable as his gaze bore into Jean's.

Jean sighed. What could she do? If she passed down this opportunity to be with Logan her heart told her that she would never have this again. This would be her only chance. Yet she knew that Scott would hate her forever if he found out. If she saw Logan in private, her life would be riddled with secrecy and guilt. Is that what she wanted? If she was with Logan, could she cope with that?

Jean made up her mind, and turned to speak to Logan, she kissed him softly on the mouth before continuing. She prayed that she wouldn't regret this decision later…she knew she would, but she could always hope. She opened her mouth and whispered in Logan's ear.

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