A/N: words in italics are Jen's thoughts and words in bold italics are music lyrics.
Chapter XV
Hurt and Run
We jumped into Scott's Mustang GT and drove into town. We pulled into a Dairy Queen 15 minutes later. It was 9:15p.m. and the Dairy Queen closed at 9.
"Damn," Logan said, parking the car by the door.
"Now what?" I asked, looking at him.
"Go back to the mansion, I guess," he said, pulling out of the parking lot.
Great, another long, uncomfortable silence.
"I'm sorry about that whole 'Jean thing'," I apologized, breaking the silence of the ride home.
"Forget it," Logan said simply. "Besides, you're right. I do like her, but she's with One Eye, so..." he trailed off.
We returned to the mansion at 10:00p.m. We would have been back a lot sooner if Logan hadn't got pulled over for speeding.
"A ticket! What do you mean you got a ticket?" Scott yelled at Logan when we entered the main hall.
"It means that some Needle Dick cop pulled me over for speeding!" Logan yelled back.
I just stood there waiting to be noticed.
"And you had a student with you!" Scott said, pointing at me. "Which, I might add, that you took off school grounds without permission!"
Time to go!
I edged my way towards the staircase when Jean stopped me.
"Scott, I told Logan that it was OK," Jean said with her hands on my shoulders, making sure that I didn't run off. "I'm sorry that I didn't tell you."
"Did you say that they could take my car too?" Scott asked, looking really pissed.
"Oh, get over it! The only reason why you care so much is because you hate Logan!" I stated.
I could feel my body heating up, but I couldn't stop yelling.
"And you hate him because he likes Jean, and you're afraid that she might like him back! And that scares you because you know that she would dump you in a heart beat if you two weren't the perfect couple!" I yelled, breathing fast and hard.
Where the hell did that come from?
I stormed past Scott, and headed upstairs to my room. They all just stood there in 'ah'.
"What the hell was that?" Storm asked, walking in the front.
No one answered her.
I was lying on my bed, listening to Johnny Cash, when some knocked on the door.
I hurt myself today
To see if I still fell
"What?" I yelled over the loud music.
"It's Jean, can I come in?" Jean yelled back.
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
"Yeah!" I answered.
She came in and sat down by me on the bed.
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
"You OK?" Jean asked, turning down the music with her telekinesis.
I didn't answer her.
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
I turned the music up louder with the remote.
"I'll take that as a 'no'."
What have I become
My sweetest friend
"Why did you say that about me and Scott?" Jean asked softly.
I shrugged. I really don't know why I said all that, but I did.
"You wanna tell me anything?" she asked, trying to get me to open up to her.
"I just want to be alone,OK?" I turned on my side, I figured that she would stay, but...
"OK," she said, leaving the room and shutting the door.
Hey, she actually shut the door.
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
I turned to lay on my back again.
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I stared up at the ceiling. I thought about everything that has happened since I got here.
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I really should just leave.
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my lair's chair
Cause they're never gonna find the Brotherhood.
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
They couldn't find them before, so how are they gonna fine them now?
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
Hell, I have a better chance of finding them by myself.
You are someone else
I am still right here
I sat up on the bed and looked at my reflection in the mirror.
What have I become
My sweetest friend
My face was beet red and sweaty.
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
I was so worked up downstairs, I was close to catching fire.
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I gotta get out of here.
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I got up off of the bed and started to pack my things.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
The CD stopped and I put it back in its' case. I would leave. I would go and find the Brotherhood myself. But, I'll have to wait until late at night. That way I know that everyone is a sleep. So, I waited. I waited until 2a.m. I looked at the digital clock on the night stand, it said 2:00a.m. I stepped out onto the balcony that was connected to my room. I climbed down the vines that grew on the mansion. I ran in the shadows of the front yard to the wall.
Now there's just the task of getting over the wall.
I walked along the wall for a while, when I spotted a tree. I climbed the tree and jumped over the wall. I roamed the streets and ally ways for hours. My watch said 6:00a.m., but the part of the city that I was in was pitch black, with no signs of day light.
Where the hell am I?