This is my first song-fic, I know I should be updating my ongoing stories (sorry!) but I heard this song and just had to write this fic. Pleas review!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the X-men characters or franchise, or the song "Just Hold Me" by Maria Mena.

Just Hold Me:

Comfortable as I am

I need your reassurance

And

Comfortable as you are

You count the days

You'll never know how much I love you. I'm too afraid of scaring you away.

And now I realise I'm too late-you're looking around. I never did like ice-skating anyway.

Who am I kidding?

I need you as much as I need air in my lungs and blood in my veins.

But if

I wanted silence

I would whisper

And if I wanted

Loneliness

I'd choose to go

And if I like

Rejection

I'd audition

And if I didn't love you

You would know

I've always been shy. Even before I kissed Cody and my whole life changed.

Have you ever wanted to be loved so hard that it hurts inside? A great gaping hole screaming out to be filled. That's how I feel. I thought that you could fill that emptiness. I really did. But now I see I was just fooling myself.

And why can't you just

Hold me

And how come it is so hard

And do you like to

See me broken

And why do I still care

Still care

You and I both know very well why you can't hold me, no matter how much you may want to.

My fingers itch with a desire to touch, to feel soft silky skin. My lips long to touch yours again, for a few fleeting seconds.

It's agony. Needing to touch, but unable to.

You say you see the light now

At the end of this

Narrow hall

I wish it didn't matter

I wish I didn't give you all

I do notice, you know. When your arm is around me, you tense up ever so slightly. When you talk to me, your eyes don't meet mine anymore. When we're in class, you gaze at someone else.

But if

I wanted silence

I would whisper

And if I wanted

Loneliness

I'd choose to go

And if I like

Rejection

I'd audition

And if I didn't love you

You would know

I told myself I was being paranoid that I was imaging things.

But after the Danger Room training session, and seeing you and her last night, I knew I was right.

And why can't you just

Hold me

And how come it is so hard

And do you like to

See me broken

And why do I still care

So I told myself it didn't matter, that I didn't love you anyway, that she could have you.

But inside, deep inside, I was screaming.

And still no one is listening.

Poor little misunderstood baby

No one likes a sad face

But I can't remember life without him

I think I did have good days

I think

I did have good days

I'm dying inside. I can't keep on like this-pretending nothing is wrong, while watching grow further and further away from me.

So I'll do what I do best: run.

But I'll come back for you, I'll come back different. And maybe then you'll love me.

Because I love you, Bobby Drake.

And why can't you just

Hold me

And how come it is so hard

And do you like to

See me broken

And why do I still care.