Disclaimer: Urg……… don't own YGO, the lyrics to 'Damn' by LeAnn Rimes. End of story.
A/N: Well, hi again! Alright, this chapter and the next few after are going to be sweet and slightly fluffy, BUT don't think I'll have it that way forever, so to all you people who enjoy fics where people suffer, fear not because Sekka can and will be suffering soon enough. # Looks back at the last sentence # Fuck, I really am a sadistic writer ne? Alright, alright, enough babbling time for shout-outs:
Ok then, on with the fic!
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Like Petals From A Rose
Chapter Eleven
StarGazer
I sat in the passenger's seat as he continued to drive the car into one of the more secluded places of Tokyo. According to my mental map he was heading towards a near by lake. We were silent, as most times, but this time was different.
It wasn't tension or anxiety, but merely the fact that weren't saying anything simply because no words were needed. We understood each other without the need for words.
The water swept into my sight, sparkling with sunlight that brought the liquid to shimmering life. He turned off the engine, and silence reigned again for a few moments. It was like a game to see who would mention my earlier actions first.
He won.
"Why the change of mind?" He said, and his voice alone send shivers through me, making me shudder in the warm weather. Then I chuckled, remembering the last time he asked this question.
"More of a change of heart." I recited, and by the grin on his face he remembered as well.
For the first in what seemed like ages, I smiled. A genuine smile that wasn't forced, or bitter, but just a smile - simple and natural. I turned to look at him before deciding to be a little bolder. I wasn't so timid now, I trusted him……. loved him. Slowly I rested my head on his shoulder, my back pressing against a portion of his chest.
There you go again when ya
Rub up against my skin
"I'm not going to ask what made you realize whatever you did, but I love you, and right now that's all that matters."
"I love you too." I answered back, meaning the words with everything I had. "It's so funny how you don't realize how much you really need something until it almost vanishes away from you entirely." His arm slung over his head and rested on my back, making me smile even wider.
It was so strange, I felt just like a little child with him - innocent and free, the world always bathed in light and not the harsh shadow of reality.
Was this what people wrote about in romance novels? All this useless shit about sensations and feelings? It was strange that the last person on Earth I thought I needed was really the person I had been waiting for the whole time.
"I know what you mean." He answered. "I was scared for you, that you would remain as you had been, but I wasn't going to try to force you anymore."
"And what about now?" I asked softly. "Are you still scared?"
"Yes." He replied quickly. "Some part of me will always be scared for you, but I have a feeling that you'll be ok. Your strong to have made it this far in the first place."
"It wasn't easy." I replied, looking up at his face, the sun illuminating it beautifully. I shifted so that my lips were by his neck and my arms around his shoulders. "But I'll be ok now." His lips formed into a smile, and I again experienced new and log forgotten emotions.
When he smiled, I felt like smiling myself.
It was as if we were merely an extension of the other - what he felt, I felt.
"Sekka?"
"Mmmm?" I answered, closing my eyes and letting the sun's warmth heat my skin the same way his warmth heated my heart. How long had it been since I had felt sunlight - really felt it and absorbed it? My reflection earlier told me too long.
"Would I scare you away if I asked to kiss you?" He said, making me look up at him and study his face. "I just got you, I don't want to scare you." I smiled. It was sweet that he was asking this way, just for a simple kiss.
He knew how much I was mentally 'disturbed' from sexual exploitation in the past, the times in the back seat of a car, the times in alley's, with Marik…….
"No." I answered firmly and titled my head toward him. And this time, as he closed the distance between us, I wasn't scared. True, my heart was pounding, but from an entirely different reason. His lips brushed my own lightly at first, then became bolder until it reached the point of heated.
I have to catch my breath
I began to sweat
We teased each other slightly by brushing tongues ever so often, and each time it sent new chills trough my small body.
I loved him kissing me this way, soft, gentle - nothing like the rough demanding ones of previous men that I now felt as if I could bury deep in my memory and let them fade until I forgot them completely. That girl with the haunted aqua eyes and hollowed face was dead.
She had died the moment I had thrown myself into his arms, and from the ashes a stronger being emerged.
Lips
Tracing down my neck
He pulled away slowly, not enough to make me want him, but just enough to tease. My heart was racing a mile a minute, and my breathing was quick and uneven, but it wasn't from fear.
For the first time since my early nights with Marik, I wanted sex. It wasn't just some degrading chore, but I was honestly aroused and not disgusted. True, I was still leery of male hands, but it wasn't the blinding fear that it had been in the beginning.
"I was so scared that I was going to hurt you in the end. I still am really, but I can only assume that you want me here anyway." I said, resting against his chest, the sun was beginning to set by now, casting rays of color over the water that was reflected in my eyes.
"Then your assuming right." He replied, pulling me tighter to him as if he was afraid I would slip away from him if he were to let me go. His lips brushed my neck softly before planting feather light kiss on the skin. "And I won't let anyone treat you the way they did - ever."
And its scaring me to death
I just learned to draw me to the cliff
Just to push me off
Just to push me off the edge
"You have to know something though - something I didn't tell you." I said, catching my breath as I prepared to spill out even more truth. "Marik would probably be out of jail by now, and if he is, then he'll be looking for me. He'll find me sooner or later, he's part fucking bloodhound."
"I almost hope he does." Yami replied, his voice not bothering to mask the anger and bitterness he felt towards him. "Then I'll teach him a lesson he'll never forget as long as he lives."
"You wouldn't want to do that." I warned, my voice smaller then I wanted it to be. I hated to admit that I was still scared of him, that what he did to me still haunted my dreams. "He'd kill you without a second thought."
Damn I hate the way you know me
And Damn
You kill me when you hold me
Like I'm your world
A small voice in the back of my head still whispered warnings to me - that Yami would hurt me, rape me, abuse me, leave me……….. and a small bottle of fear was still in my soul, but my trust and love dominated it.
He wasn't Marik, he was nothing like Marik at all.
"I won't let him find you." He promised. "And if he does, then I'll make sure that he never touches you again." I smiled and leaned against him more, wanting his protection, trust.
I almost wanted to yell at him, curse at him, hell hit him for making me feel this way - so trusting and caring, but I was glad that he was here. What would I have turned out like if he wasn't?
In the back of my mind I knew the horrifying answer to that question. I would still be on the streets, still a whore, and I would be dead from suicide not long after.
And still, as much as I loved his embrace, it still tore a part of me apart.
What if I hurt him? Lose him? There were just so many questions in my mind, questions that my heart didn't, and didn't want to understand.
Like this wont hurt
Like a favorite curse in every nerve
Damn
I'm fightin' and I'm losin' it
"Thank you." I whispered, a lone tear threatening to escape my eyes. I looked up at him and followed his gaze to my arms where he was studying the clothing that hide my marred flesh.
Slowly, very slowly, he reached for it, shifting me so that he could remove the zip hoodie, leaving me in just the tank top that I wore under it, the scars on my arms completely revealed. The initials, however, where still covered.
"What-"
"When I first met you, I told you that you didn't have to hide." His hand brushed one of the long purple scars before he brought my wrist to his face, nuzzling it against his cheek softly.
I didn't know what to say, do……….. hell I didn't know anything about love.
"What are you doing?" I asked, my voice small and unsure of itself.
Damn you
Your pullin' and a pushin'
I'm wrestlin' with
I toss and twist
Til finally I give in
Damn...
"You hurt so much inside………….. no-one should hurt this much for what they can't control." His lips brushed the scar, sending a chill down my body. The sun still glittered above us, seemingly the only witness to my death.
Yes, my death.
Even the greatest love is a suicide of everything you have - pride, emotions, your sanity. But even with that, this was a suicide that I was happy to commit.
"I could have controlled it, if I hadn't left home like a fool, if I had waited before getting involved with Marik like the naïve child I was." My voice was bitter and filled with regret for being so stupid, so selfish.
"You didn't know, and I think you've more then paid you dues for it." He replied, his voice unwavering as always.
I hate being addicted
Only
You would have predicted
"No." I replied. "Not yet. I know this can't last forever, and I don't expect it to, but I'll take it as it comes, whatever deity is up there." I pointed to the sky "Has given me enough pain to last my life - maybe their giving back what they took, but I know they'll be a price to pay in the end - there always is." A small smile graced my lips to take away from what I had said.
"But either way." He replied. "I'll make sure your alright in the end."
"Would you?" I asked softly. "Could you bear to put up with someone like me, someone selfish, bitchy, moody, temperamental -" His lips cut me off and I couldn't help but fall into him again. I didn't know how he could do that - make me give in with the simplest gestures, but he did, and how he did it is still a mystery to me.
"Stop." He whispered, his mouth inches from mine, our breath mingling as one. "I love you, I don't care about all that, it's just you, and I have to accept you as you are."
That I'd be told
I'd want, so then
You can see right through
You can see right through my soul
I smiled and pressed my nose against his, making him grin back. I didn't understand why I felt so free, like everything that had happened could just fade away into nothing and I would be safe.
"You know, Prom's coming up…………" My eyes widened at the implication. It must have been comical because he grinned and chuckled.
"You mean you actually want to be in public with me?" I asked, only half joking. "Do you even know what people say about you?"
"Let them say what they want." He replied quickly and without a second thought. "I don't care if they never talk to me again, their all superficial and shallow anyway."
Damn I hate the way you know me
And Damn
You kill when you hold me
Like I'm your world
"Ok then." I answered, even though I was nervous as hell. "I'll go." He beamed back at me and I don't know why but I laughed - laughed without having a goddamn clue as to why, and I have to say that it felt pretty damn good.
The sun started sinking, the blue sky turning into many rays and hues of red, gold, orange, and purple.
"I could stare at this forever." I said from my place in is arms.
"Me too." And together, in silence we watched the sun go down, slowly sinking out of view and bringing the darkness that I no longer feared.
"Stars." I said, grinning as the small specks of light began appearing. "When I was little I used to sit on my roof in the summer and stare up at these stars, just like this." I don't know why I said that but I just felt like it should be known. "My mom never knew, it was my secret, not a big secret, but it was mine."
Like this wont hurt
Like a favorite cursing every nerve
Damn
"I used to too, when I was smaller." Yami replied. The car seats was dropped back and the convertible roof was down and I was laying on his chest staring up at the stars with him. I loved it, and the stars made me think of how we were - two lone stars in the universe that somehow collided to make a single brighter star.
I knew the idea was stupid, but it made me smile all the same.
"Who knows then." I answered. "We might have looked at the same sky."
Damn you
Your pullin' and a pushin'
I'm wrestlin' with
I toss and twist
Til finally I give in
"Just like now?"
"Yes." I turned my head and stared into his eyes before our lips simultaneously met. And this time, I didn't even try to resist him.
I was falling, and falling hard and it was scarier then hell, but I liked it all the same. His lips pressed against mine stronger then before and wasn't even scared at all, and was willingly sinking into one hell of a deep ocean but it was ok.
As long as he's here, I would be ok. It may not last forever but what was a lifetime of hell compared to one moment of heaven?
I get reckless, scared, confused
I feel desperate
Soul for you
And you know it
You know it
You know what I should do
I didn't know the answer to that question, but I knew this much - I would go through everything again to be right here where I am, with him.
# Music fades #
A/N:
Well, it's over! Anways just in case I don't before Christmas, I just want to say to ya'll MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! Oh fuck................. I still have to go shopping............... # Runs out the door then pokes head inand waves # Bye everyone, have a good one, but don't forget to leave a little Christmas gift for me on the way out # coughcough # review #coughcough # lol, bye ya'll!