Disclaimer: I don't own YGO, or the lyrics to 'Somewhere Out There' by Our Lady Peace - only Sekka and anyone else not in the show.
A/N: Ok here I am, and I'm not caffeine hyper this time, lol. I searched high and low for a song to use in this chapter and finally found one that I thought would ok……….not perfectly, mind you, but at least acceptable, if anyone has anything better that wasn't performed by previous artists,( I'm planning on making a soundtrack when this is done) do let me know and I'll revise this chapter! Anyway, shout-outs:
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WolfOfShadow: Ypu do realize that you spelt her name wrong right? lol. It's spelt Sekka, not Secca, lol. Same sound though. Anyways, yes he loves her, quite obviously. However, this is going to be far from perfect.
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Alright then, with that out of the way, let's get this started ne?
Like Petals From A Rose
Chapter 16
Blood Of The Lamb
That night, after everyone had gone to bed after about a hundred rounds of poker, I couldn't sleep for the life of me.
Yami slept in a separate room, but I swore that I could still hear his breathing through the walls, slow and even, but even this rhythmic pattern couldn't lull me into oblivion.
Ever since I had entered Yami's house I had never slept alone, it had always been in his arms that I found my haven. But now in light of his absence the shadows seemed to loom just outside my mind, waiting for the vulnerability of my subconscious mind to become free.
Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
And the whispers, slow and haunting, wouldn't let me rest either.
The echoing words of his parents, what they had said about me - what they believed.
'Everyone in the neighborhood has see that girl get into cars filled with men that drive off and return a few hours later. It's happened right outside the school!'
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space
I know what it's like to be a teenager and have hormones, but picking up those kind of girls isn't the right way to go about getting what you want
They'll suck everything out of you, your money and kindness most of all. After that, they'll go spreading their legs for a new man. That girl that you have here is a slut, get rid of her while you have the chance
A tiger can't change it's stripes
I threw my pillow over my head like a little child, hoping that the cotton might drown out the accusations that were as loud as church bells within my brain.
"A tiger can't change it's strips." I muttered the words out loud, spitting them from my mouth like poison - poison I wished I could throw right back at her.
But then, what if she was right? What if I would return to what I had been?
I shuddered at the thought, it being my worst fear.
Laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
I closed my eyes, trying to will my mind to slow to a tolerable rate, but I refused to obey me. And suddenly, the shadowed walls were pressing in on me, threatening to close in for the kill entirely.
And the heat, was it just me?
I felt like it must be a hundred degrees in this damn room.
Making my choice I kicked off the sheet that I thrown over me for security reason in light of my revealing nightgown.
Watch the riddles glow
Watch them float away
I was almost like a film, so I had left on my underclothes as well.
I rose from the bed and walked across the room and into the hall, treading a lightly as I could, afraid of waking someone up, even though I knew that a heard of elephants couldn't wake Joey up.
It was dark, and I stumbled along, on hand on the wall as I tried to find the kitchen.
What seemed like twenty minutes later I finally found the room, sparkling clean as rich people's houses always seemed to be. I poured myself a glass of cold water and downed it in about 3 seconds, gasping for air as I placed the glass in the dishwasher.
But I was still uneasy, and in seemed that the shadows that I had left the room to escape had followed me, once again whispering of danger.
Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
I opened the patio door and stepped into the warm night, a slight breeze brushing against my skin like a kiss, the strand of my long hair blowing around my face and caressing my cheeks as if to wipe away unshed tears and carry all the pain on it's wings.
This was much better, at least I could breathe out here.
I lit a cigarette out of the pack that I had taken off my night table, exhaling the smoke out calmly.
You gotta save your tired soul
You gotta save our lives
Turn on the radio
To find you on satellite
Yami had taken to calling them 'cancer sticks', just to bug me I think.
A shimmer of water caught my eye and I turned to see a large pool filled with water, the full moon reflecting off the liquid like the sparkle of diamond tears.
A tiger can't change it's stripes
I think it's safe to say that right now, I hated her.
But I didn't feel the anger boil up into my heart right now, the beauty of the night kept it far away, making me unreachable.
I'm waiting for the sky to fall
I'm waiting for a sign
All we are is all so far
I finished my cigarette and butted it out on the ashtray on one of the patio tables and looked around.
What I did next, I still don't why I did it. Maybe it was the summer heat, or the breeze caressing my face. Maybe I was drunk on moonlight and all the beauty it reflected - who knows. All I do know is that before I knew it, I was at the side of the pool, the filmy nightgown slipping off my shoulders and into a silken pile at my feet.
I hesitated, then removed my underwear and unclipped my bra, adding it to the pile of clothing - leaving me completely exposed to the moon's foxfire that radiated off my pale skin.
Then I dived into the water.
You're falling back to me
The star that I can't see
The liquid was cool in contrast to the hot night, and it felt pleasantly chilly against my body. My head surfaced the water, taking in large gulps of air, my dark hair like a blanket that covered my entire back.
The water rippled over my body, the liquid and I moving as one, as if I was merely an incarnation of the substance itself.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
I wasn't Sekka in that moment, I was everything.
The song that the night birds were singing, the crickets that chirped in the distance, the dew that still lingered on my feet.
I was the water, the air, the moon and the sun.
I was a water nymph freed from human form, a dark haired goddess in the blessed river.
I went back under the waves, letting the tiny air bubbles send a chill over my bare body. My head surfaced again and this time my floated on my back, arms outstretched as if to embrace the stars, my hair fanned out around me like a veil, my breasts just above the surface, absorbing the air.
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
A tiger can't change it's stripes
I smiled, a private smile that I knew only I could understand.
Let her think what she wanted, live the way she wanted, as the main role on her shallow stage of deceit and backstabbing.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
Only I knew the truth, the truth being that I was changing my stripes, letting them wash away into the river, being erased, leaving me bare - a new canvas in which Yami's brush strokes would make an even greater picture then before.
I don't how long I floated in the pool like that, lost in the millions thoughts that swirled in my head like the tide, and I let them come freely.
Hope you remember me
When you're homesick and need a change
Marik and where he was right now, if he was looking me to exact his vengeance one last time.
My mother, wondering what she would think of me if she could see me now, see he phoenix that had emerged from her ashes.
My father and if he could see me up in heaven right now, wondering if he was smiling down upon me, sending his love through time and space.
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste
Jo, what would she think if she knew what had happened after the car crash? Would she still respect me, still love me the way she had in the near-sisterhood that should have been ours forever? Would have she liked Serenity?
The answer to that never did come, but that was ok - I had a feeling that I was going to see her again sooner or later.
I know you'll come back someday
On a bed of nails awake
I imagined that I was Jesus, my arms and feet nailed to the watery cross, dying for all the sins of mankind. I saw the blood streaming into the water in my minds eye, being purified in the blood of the lamb, the flowing water as heavens tears for my redemption.
I'm praying that you don't burn out
Or fade away
All we are is all so far
If only everyone who had doubted me could see me now, I thought, if only they could see what I had become, what I had achieved.
The sound of the patio door opening jeered me out of my thoughts with a wave of panic that sent me bolting up as if someone had dropped a active toaster into the pool.
You're falling back to me
The star that I can't see
Yami's eyes stared down at me, the light from the kitchen making it look like he was glowing like the angel he was. Without thinking I bolted, crossing from the middle of the pool to the side as quickly as humanly possible for a smoker and pushed my breasts against the pool wall.
We stayed like that for a moment his shocked eyes locking with my own, and I felt the heat of embarrassment rise up in my face.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
"Sekka I uh-" He was at a loss for words, as was I.
"I was my fault." I muttered, suddenly finding the pool edge fascinating.
"I woke up to get a drink and found your bed empty so I came looking for to make sure you were alright, I didn't mean to-"
"I know." I answered. "I know your not like that."
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
"Sorry." I shook my head.
"Don't be. I should have known better then to go skinny dipping in the middle of the fucking city, in a house with two men no less." But he didn't reply, just stared at me, studying me and making me feel as if I was some sort of statue carved of ivory, a mold of Athena that demanded only the most tender of care, only the highest show of respect.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
His gaze made me fill with a new heat that definitely wasn't from the hot night, the tingling just below my belly button.
"Sorry, if you want I'll let you get out, one minute." He went back into the house only to reappear a few minutes late with a towel that he handed to me., keeping his eyes solely locked with mine, not wavering to try and leer at me in the least. "Here."
You're falling back to me
The star that I can't see
"Thanks." I answered with a smile, mentally berating myself for being the impulsive idiot that I was.
He turned his back and I had to let out a small chuckle at the simple action of common courtesy and modesty. In many ways, he was entirely the 20-year old grade thirteen man that he was, but it amazed me at how child-like and boyish he could be at times.
I know you're out there, oh
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
"What's so funny?" He asked and I just shook my head.
"Nothing." I lifted myself out of the pool with a small splash and quickly wrapped the towel around my body not only because I wanted to cover myself but because the slight breeze was cold as hell against my wet skin.
"Done?"
"Ya." I replied and he turned around to see me shivering, my teeth chattering.
"Come on." He said, shaking his head a little. I knew he was probably thinking 'Just how crazy is this women.' He picked up my clothes and then opened the patio door which I practically ran to.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
Once inside he went upstairs and grabbed one of Joey's T shirts which I could have worn as a dress.
"Just how tall is that guy?" I wondered out loud as he handed it to me, I held it up and peered into the seemingly endless fold of fabric.
"What are you looking for?"
"The circus, I think it's still in here." I replied, earning a chuckle from him. I threw the shirt over my head, making sure that it was completely down before removing the towel from underneath it and wrapping my hair in it - or at least as much of my damn hair that I could fit in it.
Not that it did much good anyway - the back of the shirt was already soaked.
You're falling back to me
The star that I can't see
"Damn it's cold." I muttered, my teeth still chattering.
"That's what you get for swimming in a cold pool on a hot night." He handed me a glass. "Here, drink this." The glass was hot and I warmed my hands on it, still standing soaking wet in the middle of my boyfriend's bestfriend's kitchen (A/N: Did that make any sense…….probably not, lol)
Suddenly I felt arms wrap around me from behind, body heat instantly soaking through the thin fabric.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
"Yami what-"
"I'm staying like this until you warm up." He answered. "If you don't like it push me off, your choice." I tensed and them melted into his embrace, letting his heat warm me as I sipped the hot coffee in my hands.
"I would never do that." I answered, leaning into him, letting our bodies conform to each other as if we were, quite literally, two peas in a pod. "Not to you anyway." And there it was again, that spreading heat that rushed up my body, sending chills down my spine, making my breath hasten.
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
"Sekka-" I turned around to face him, face that look that fixed on me. Like I was the only thing in the whole damn world that he saw, or that was even worth looking at all.
"Yes?" He pressed his lips against mine, lopping his arm against the small of my back, supporting me as I leaned back, moaning against him as are tongues dueled.
How can he do this to me, I remember thinking, how can he make me feel this good without sex?
Maybe it was a stupid question born from an old whore whose sex life was no more then a chore, but still I asked myself.
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
He pulled back, looking surprised with himself and casting his gaze down, as if in shame or embarrassment.
"I-" But I didn't let him finish as this time I was the one who kissed him, feeling the liquid fire rush through my veins. I wasn't cold anymore, instead I felt as if there was an all consuming flame inside me, fighting to get out.
When I pressed him against the fridge, I realized just how far this could go if I let it.
I pulled away from him, breathing as if my lungs had only just come to life and were experiencing oxygen for the first time, like a newborn child.
"We should stop." I said between pants of breath. He nodded, instantly agreeing with me and I backed up, giving him room to move aside.
"I didn't mean to-"
You're falling back to me.
"I know, you didn't scare me." I replied. "I scared myself." He nodded as I set down the empty coffee cup on the table. "I'll get that in the morning." I muttered and moved past him, heading back up the stairs. He followed me, seeming to understand that I needed the distance at the moment.
What the hell was that anyway?
The feeling that I would have let him right then and there if he had been the one that pinned me. I groaned and leaned against the door of my stand-in bedroom.
"Sekka?" I turned, only able to make out his silhouette in the dark.
"Ya?"
"Again, I'm sorry, I don't what I was thinking."
"I do." I answered. "It was the same thing I was."
"I love you, you know that right?" I nodded, even though I knew he could barely make it out.
Well I know
I know
"I know that, Yami." I answered. "Probably more then you know."
"That's good." He replied, then fell silent, but I knew he wasn't finished. "Then, what do think about looking for an apartment tomorrow." The words floored me and if I hadn't been leaning against a wall I might have literally fallen over.
"You mean, live together?"
"Think about it." He replied, and I could sense his tenseness. "It's really no different then when we were at my parent's place, I've been meaning to move out anyway." The next words that left my mouth defied and shattered every law I had every made after Marik.
Law one - don't fall in love.
Law two - see law one
You're falling out of reach
"Alright." I whispered, me breath heavy with a mixture of fear and excitement. "But, you don't have any money, how the hell are we going to rent an apartment?"
"I have more then enough in my bank account." He replied smoothly, and I couldn't hold in how happy I was anymore so I did the only thing that seemed to make sense and that was hug him as hard as humanly possible without breaking him in half.
Not that I think I could do it if I tried, there was just to much muscle, plain and simple.
He let out a small 'oof' as I jumped into his arms, laughing as quietly as I could.
"I love you, I love you, I love you!" I whispered. Who gave a fuck about the laws I had made, who cared about how I felt the last brick in my wall turn to sand, who cared that I was probably setting myself up for a disaster that would leave me in shambles when it was over ?
I know
Not me, that's for sure.
Never me again.
A/N:
Well, there we go! I actually really like this chapter if I do say so myself! The next chapter should be the last chapter before the prom, and then things take another turn. # evil laugh #. Ok, just as a warning, if anyone cries at the end of this fic, don't say I didn't warn you ok?
Anyways, reviews make me update faster # Hint, Hint #, lol! And thanks again to everyone!