Chapter 19

Hey everyone!! Sorry for the super long wait….but I've been so busy with school and everything! We've had projects , one after the other…and my computer is so friggen slow that it takes forever to type something up…especially if its over 10 pages. So yes…I'm back!!! I hope everyone who has been reading (and you better have been reviewing! ) will excuse this wait…and continue from where I left off…which was I guess…a very good hook? And I realized it was very suspenseful and I apologize for not updating sooner…but don't hurt me!! Ducks under a table to avoid the thrown tomatoes I'm sorry!!! I hope you enjoy this chapter!!! Replies are at the bottom like always.

"He's SO inconsiderate!" Hermione whispered to herself, as she quickened her pace towards the kitchen. She was walking through the darkest part of the castle and it scared her…a lot.

"Hey darling…" A voice said from behind her, as arms wrapped around her waist. "Miss me??"

"No," Hermione growled back and tried to push away, but he was too strong.

"What did you say?" the rapist inquired in rage.

"You heard me," Hermione countered bravely (even though she had no idea where this bravery came from at that moment); "I said 'No, I didn't miss you.'" At that moment she felt him tense against her, and open a door to her right.

"Well, you'll miss me after I'm done with you." He snarled back and threw her into a closet of some sort. Her body slammed against the back wall, as he quickly ripped her clothes off. By this time, her tattered robes were completely ripped. She had no idea how much pain she could go through. This was the second time this day he came to her, and raped her. She hadn't even have time to recover or reduce the pain and bruising.

Once again, he attacked her frail body, she wanted to scream out for help but there was no point since there was silencing charm placed around the room. And even if she wanted to remove it, she couldn't, since her wand was where her clothes were on the opposite side of the small room. But then again, she couldn't' move at all. The pain was too unbearable.

When he was finally done, he retrieved his clothes and put them back on. She couldn't see where he was, since there wasn't a light in the closet.

"I hope you enjoyed that my love, because I sure did." The rapist said to her happily before turning the door handle. Suddenly light flooded into the room, and surrounded her rapist. She blinked and then finally was able to focus. Suddenly she gasped…it was…Dean.

Hermione blinked and rubbed her eyes, as painful as it was to move, but she was shocked beyond reason. How could a Gryffindor of all people, do…this, to…her! By the time Hermione looked back at the door…Dean was gone, and Hermione just sat there awestruck.

'How could my ex-crush do this to me! He's supposed to be a sweet and caring person!! Wasn't he the one who sent me those notes…wasn't he the original secret admirer?!'

The bruised and battered bushy haired girl was slumped in the back corner of the closet as she painfully pondered on everything that had recently happened. And then it hit her. 'Draco was the original admirer…and when I got the second letter…it was from Dean. I knew I should have never gone to see him!! Urgh…I should have listened to my gut! I've screwed everything up!! How am I going to tell Draco this…especially after everything he's done…and I've said. I mean maybe he was telling the truth. Maybe Pansy did force herself onto him. Right now I really need someone to talk to."

Slowly Hermione raised herself upward until she was standing up. "Damn it!" She cursed as she bent over again to put her clothes back on and grab her wand. After being hurt and abused so many times, her body could barely support her small frame and she was surprised at the fact that she could walk. As quickly as she could manage, Hermione made her way out of the broom closet…where she hoped she would never have to go into again and towards the Gryffindor Common Room.

She knew that she wouldn't be able to talk to Draco, and Harry was in a severe coma, so she decided to see Ron. He was always able to help her, and comfort her in times of need. A small smile crossed Hermione's frail features as she thought about all of the times he was there for her and it made her quicken her pace towards the Common Room. As she made her way there, she made sure she checked every corner, and then quickly ran to the portrait, which was more like a sad excuse of a sprint. But either way she made it there, and quickly whispered the password and stepped inside. As she walked towards the Common Room, she stopped herself. What was she doing here?! Dean is in Gryffindor…and for all she knew, he could be right around that corner, waiting for her.

Hermione shivered and was about to turn around when something caught her eye. It was two people sitting on the couch with their arms around each other. Hermione's eyes began to water as she watched the two, and how she wished she could have a relationship just like that. Even as a young child, Hermione had anticipated a fairy tale relationship. She always wanted that Prince Charming that would come and sweep her off of her feet and tell her that she was the most beautiful girl he has ever laid eyes on. And with just one look, and touch, he could make all of her worries disappear, and would hold her until she was happy, and would never let go. By this time, tears were freely flowing down Hermione's face and she sniffed a little, and the male figure on the couch stirred a little. Hermione froze and didn't move, as he turned his head toward the door and looked right at her.

She gasped, and turned away quickly and left the Common Room. It was Ron…

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Draco angrily stormed off in the opposite direction that Hermione had went in and angrily walked towards the Head dorms. Once he was inside he screamed in rage and punched the wall, which resulted in another scream and a lot of blood. Draco quickly took off his robes and wrapped his hand in it, and then ran up to his room and quickly went through his sock drawer and pulled out a hidden bottle of fire whiskey. He swiftly took off the cap and poured himself a shot, and then another, and another, until he was completely wasted.

Drunkenly, Draco lay down on his bed and sprawled himself all over the covers. "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?" Draco shouted to no one, and then slammed his hand down on his bed. "Why can't I keep a steady relationship? Why is everyone intimidated by me? Why the fuck did my bastard father do this to me? I'm NOT LIKE HIM AND EVERYONE THINKS I FUCKING AM!"

The blonde haired Slytherin let out another roar and threw his empty bottle of Fire Whisky across the room. It smashed into millions of small pieces against his emerald green walls and scattered across the room. He sighed and slammed his head back down onto his pillow, causing him to get a splitting head ache, which was mostly from the alcohol. He groaned and rolled over to his side and blacked out on his bed.

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Hermione quickly walked to the Head Dorm and muttered the password. The tears were still coming and she tried to tell herself, over and over again that no body meant to hurt her, but honestly she had… no one. No one cared about her. No one cared that she was getting raped. No one would listen to her, and everyone who had a slight idea about what was going on, couldn't/wouldn't talk to her. She paused and leaned against the wall to support herself as she wept. She couldn't take the truth, and it was definitely too much for her to handle.

'You can't be weak Hermione. You have to be strong. Strong Hermione! Strong!!' She sniffed quietly and took out a tissue to wipe her eyes, which were now swollen and red, and staggered towards her dorm. As she got there, she tripped on a book and hit the floor. She screamed and every part of her body burned in pain. Hermione curled up into a ball as she waited for the pain to subside, but it didn't. She began to cry out for Draco, but he couldn't hear her, and then she understood, no body wants her, no body cares. Why do I even want to live?

And as Hermione let that thought flood her mind, she saw the room spin around her and slowly she blacked out from the pain.

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Ron snuggled gently against Lavender, and wrapped a protective arm around her. He loved the feeling of her warm body pressed against his, and he tried to take in all of his surroundings so he could remember this moment forever. And that's when he heard it, a small sniff from the back corner of the room, and he quickly turned his head towards the noise. How dare somebody spy on them!!

But, as he turned around and focused on the source, he noticed it was a frail, young girl around his age, with brown hair…crying. 'HERMIONE!' His mind screamed as his body began to register this thought, and he tried to get up to follow her, but she turned and ran.

'Damn!' He thought as he felt Lavender stir. He glanced down at her and then at the door. "Shit," he cursed softly, as he slid back down next to Lavender. 'I'll talk to Hermione tomorrow, I guess.'

"But she needs you RON!" His conscious screamed at him, but he ignored it as he rested his head against Lavender's and fell asleep once again.

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The next morning Draco woke with a pounding head ache, and an immense hang over. "Damn…" he muttered as he sat up in bed and rubbed his forehead. As he got out of bed he felt another pain on his left arm and when he looked up he saw his bloody robes wrapped around his hand. He groaned and cradled his arm as he searched his room for his wand which was discarded near the broken whisky bottle.

"Shit, what the hell did I do last night?" He growled as he made his way into the bathroom and unwrapped his hand. "FUCK!" Draco screamed as he saw his hand. The skin was peeled back from his knuckles and his fingers and the top of his hand were completely raw.

He winced slightly as his voice echoed around the room, and he remembered the massive hang over he had and he quickly retrieved a potion he made for these situations. Once he drank it, he clumsily walked into the shower, and tried to wash the blood away from his hand. Draco gritted his teeth as he felt the water pound onto his hand and a few times he let out a roar as the soap cleansed the damaged area.

After he was finished, he wrapped a towel around his waist and gradually put his clothes on, using just one hand. Once he was done, he grabbed his wand, cradled his hand and ran down into the Common Room. Hermione was no where to be seen, and he expected that, especially after what he said to her.

He groaned again, and knew he would have to confront her at one point, but at the moment his hand was more important. As he made his way out of the Common Room, he let his hand fall to his side. He could not let anyone think he was in pain. He had to be his same arrogant self. That way no body would talk to him, and he'd have no reason to explain.

As he made his way down to the Infirmary, he didn't run into anybody at all. But he expected at least a few early risers to be roaming the halls, even though it was 6 in the morning. 'Better for me then.' He thought as he opened the Infirmary doors. There were a few beds in the back occupied, but he couldn't make out who they were, because Madame Pomfrey as on him in a second.

"Mr. Malfoy!" she scolded harshly and Draco winced as he looked at her. "What did you do to yourself?" She quickly lifted his arm up towards her and looked at his hand.

Draco never got a chance to open his mouth before she began talking again. "Oh never mind, we have to get you healed up! Over here Mr. Malfoy. Come on, hurry, don't stare at me like that. Come on."

Draco shook his head and sat down on the first bed, as she quickly got to work on his hand. He gritted his teeth as she poured a liquid over his hand that caused waves of pain to wash over his body.

"This might hurt a little." She said after she glanced at his face.

'Yeah and now she tells me.' Draco thought angrily as he watched her heal his hand completely.

"Now don't you do this again Mr. Malfoy. If you waited a day longer, you would have had a permanent scar."

Draco nodded and mumbled thanks and hopped off the bed and walked towards the doors. Just as he did, he noticed a Gryffindor walking through the door towards the back of the Infirmary. 'Disgusting,' he thought 'It's that Dean kid.' Draco glared at him, but Dean didn't notice and walked right by Draco, who growled. "Fucking Gryffindor." He muttered quietly but then mentally scolded himself. 'Don't say that stuff Draco. That's how you hurt Hermione.'

He frowned and then decided it was time to see her. He confidently made his way up to the Head Dorms and knocked on her door. There wasn't a reply. He tried again…no answer. "Hermione?" he called to the door. "Look, I know you probably don't want to talk to me at the moment, but I came to apologize. Can I come in?" He paused and waited for an answer, still no reply. By this time Draco was getting aggravated, and he knocked on the door again, this time a little harder. The door made a small creek, and opened up. 'Finally.'

Draco made his way up the stairs, taking three at a time. He really needed to talk to Hermione. "Look, Hermione, I'm sor-" He began but then stopped when he realized there was no body in the room. He quickly checked the closet, bathroom, his room, and the common room again, but she wasn't any where to be found.

"Oh shit…just great." He said out loud and made his way back up to her room. He sat down on her made bed ('Just like her to be this neat.' He thought and smiled) and brushed his hand against the satin sheets. "What the hell?" He whispered as he felt a square bump under her sheets. He easily retrieved it and opened it to find that it was her diary.

"No…" he muttered to himself, "I can't read this…I can't. This is private, and if she found out, she'd kill me. I can't do this to her." He closed his eyes and tipped the small book to the side, and thirty pages flipped over, until it was at the latest entry. He looked down and saw three words: Dean raped me.

Draco dropped the journal onto the floor and ran his fingers through his hair. He couldn't believe what he just read. Hermione had been raped! He grabbed the sheets into his fist and let out a low growl, and then he picked up the journal. He had to read this. What if there was more to this, or maybe it was a dream. He just had to find out, and so he did.

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Hermione moaned as she became conscious again. She could tell she had more bruises, on top of the ones she already had, and that would only mean more pain. Slowly she moved her legs and felt a sharp pain in her thigh. "Owww." She cried out, as she looked at her watch. It was only 4 in the morning, and everyone would probably be fast asleep, so she would have to make it to the Infirmary by herself…in the dark.

She shook slightly at the thought, but convinced herself it was the best thing she could possible too. And with this new determination, she got herself up from the floor. Hermione staggered to the couch and once she got there she leaned against it.

"This is going to take a while." Hermione moaned, as she made her way towards the portrait hole. She caught herself from tripping again, by leaning against the walls of the school, and the railings of the stairs. It took her a good hour to get to her destination, a few more falls, and some more fresh bruises, but she made it without blacking out. She sighed and made her way towards Harry's bed and sat down next to him. He was still in a coma and she let a tear to slide down her face as she reached for his pale hand. She reached out and touched his face and then his jet-black hair.

"Harry," she mumbled, "Harry, I need you now. Please come back." She tilted her head down and closed her eyes, as she let a few tears escape the confines of her eyes. If Harry died, she didn't know what she would do, or if she could even survive without her best friend. He was the only one who knew about what happened to her, and she had a feeling he knew before he came to the hospital.

"Dean must have hurt him," Hermione gasped in realization as she looked at the angelic face of Harry. "And it was all because of me! Oh Harry!" She squeezed his hand and winced as she felt the muscles in her arm stiffen. Suddenly she felt him squeeze her hand.

"Harry!" She whispered in surprised as she looked at him, "Harry!!!!"

"Hermione?" He replied in a frail voice, that cracked from use. "Is that you?"

She squeezed his hand and nodded. "Yes Harry, it's me."

"What happened?" he asked urgently.

"You drifted into a coma while you were talking to me. You claim you knew what happened to me." Hermione replied, and let the last few words echo in the silence.

"I do know what happened." He said quietly and looked at her in the eyes.

"Me too." She countered softly and looked away from his piercing gaze. "It was Dean."

Harry squeezed her hand and after a few seconds responded. "No it wasn't." Hermione looked up at him. Fear and anger danced in her eyes.

"Are you telling me that my eyes were playing tricks on me? That when I saw him after he raped me it wasn't him, and here you are thinking you know who it actually is, when you have been in a fricken coma."

Harry winced and Hermione looked away in shame. "I'm sorry Harry, I didn't mean that. It's just that this whole thing has honestly stressed me out, a whole lot."

He just nodded and then said "It was Lucius Malfoy."

"What?" Hermione snapped back at him in disbelief. "But I saw Dean, Harry!! It was Dean who left me in that closet!" Harry just shook his head.

"It wasn't. Remember Hermione, we're in Hogwarts, people can use Magic. Remember what we did in second year."

Hermione gasped in horror and replied, "The Polyjuice Potion." Harry nodded.

"You're right. That's what he used, that way you wouldn't report him right away. He obviously knew that you wouldn't squeal if someone you knew, someone from your own house did this to you. He has a cunning mind. All Malfoy's do." Hermione just looked at Harry in disbelief.

"I can't believe it!" she whispered to him. 'Did Draco know about this the whole time? Was he just pretending he didn't know what was going on?? I can't believe him.'

"Look Hermione, I know this is rough, and if I could only get out of this hospital bed," Harry attempted to sit up but Hermione urged him not to, "I could have helped you. I could have protected you."

"It's not your fault Harry! You didn't know this was going to happen!!" He just shrugged and looked at her in the eyes.

"I should have been there for you." She squeezed his hand and then glanced over to his right.

"Dean? Is that you?" And sure enough, from the shadows emerged Dean.

"Yeah…it is. I heard you talking about me. You said something crazy like I raped you or something."

"No, no," Hermione began to explain, "Lucius Malfoy took your form and he…raped me…" She looked down at the ground and couldn't bear to look at him in the eyes. Harry suddenly squeezed her hand in alarm and she looked up. He knew it wasn't the real Dean. Why would Dean even be here at this time, especially since he never visited Harry.

"I'm going to get Madame Pomfrey," Hermione said quickly and started to get up but Dean grabbed her.

"There's no need Hermione. She's fast asleep."

"Then I'll wake her up," she retorted, "Now let me go."

"Oh no darling, you're coming with me." He sternly commanded, as Hermione watched the hand that was around her waist, turn from a dark tan, to a pale white. The black hair that once possessed this man's body was now shoulder length platinum blonde, and instead of warm, brown eyes, they were steel, icy cold grey.

"Lucius," Hermione gasped and then began to scream.

"There's no need. There's a silencing charm on this room, and I made sure that at dinner, I slipped in a Sleeping Potion. Now, no body will come to your rescue. Nobody. It's not like anyone loves you anyways. Weasley left you for that slut, none of your friends notice there's anything wrong with you. What kind of life do you live?"

Hermione's eyes began to water, "I hate you." She said sternly and spat into his face. In return he slapped her.

"How dare you dirty me with your mudblood filth? You're absolutely in for a treat tomorrow. The Dark Lord is ready to see you, my dear…you are now our human sacrifice."

Hermione tried to wiggle out of his grasp, no matter how much it hurt to move, but he just held on tighter. Tears of fury ran down her face in salty rivers and she eventually gave up. She could feel Lucius smirking against her face. How could Draco do this to her?

Draco easily picked her up, and brought her next to Harry's bed. "Watch this mudblood." And with one easy stroke, Lucius brought his hand down against Harry's head. She let out a scream and Lucius just smirked. "Come on now Hermione, it's off to the Malfoy Mansion, for your big date. Now get moving."

Hermione didn't move, so Lucius picked her up and slung her over his shoulder. Hermione pounded his back and looked back at Harry, who was unconscious. She frowned and continued to beat at Lucius' back. "I hate you, you fucking bastard."

"Now, now, play nice Ms. Granger." Lucius said as he led her out of Hogwarts and to an awaiting chariot.

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Draco skimmed through Hermione's Journal and found out everything. 'I can't believe this!!!' he thought desperately, 'I have to find her!'

Draco jumped off of Hermione's bed, ran down through the common room and swung open the portrait door and rammed into someone. "What the hell!" Draco shouted and pushed the other male off of him.

"Calm down Malfoy," the person drawled from the floor, "Why are you in such a hurry all of a sudden? Looking for your lover?"

Draco glared, "Blaise why the fuck, were you outside of my door?" Blaise just smirked.

"Well I had to tell you something." Draco rolled his eyes.

"Listen I have to go find somebody, this can wait until later."

"Are you sure it can?" Blaise asked as he extended a hand up for help, but Draco ignored it. So instead he got up off the ground himself and brushed his robes off. "It's about Hermione."

Draco looked at him, "What's happened to her?" Blaise smirked.

"Your father has her."

"What?" Draco said in disbelief and leaned against the wall for support. "That fucking bastard's going to kill her!"

A.N.Woo-hoo!!! I finished a chapter!!! I'm so happy. It's probably not the best, since I haven't been writing in a while!! The next chapter will be better! Trust me!!! Oh and I almost forgot, its been over a year since I started writing this story!! Yay!! Hee-hee. Well here are the replies to all of your wonderful reviews!!! Thank you all SO much!! Please keep up the good work, I love to hear from you, even if I don't update for a while!!

tiamo-kara- I'm so glad you like my writing, and I hope you like the twist I added, seeing as its not Dean.

The Random Scribbler-Alright, if you have a problem with my writing, and my age, then don't read my story. You could have stopped once you got offended

IvyLilac- Hee-hee, what a bad kid he is.

Queen of Serpents- I updated!! Woot!! Finally, I know! It's been forever, and I'm SO sorry!! I really truly am!! I'm so glad you updated Delightful Pain. That's an awesome story, even though I tell you that every time I review! P. LOL, well, I hope you liked this chapter…please review!

KountrySister- I updated!! I'm sorry I didn't before, its just that I've had so much homework (grr fricken teachers) and the projects come one after the other. I knew I had to get a chapter out, so I did it all today, since we had a snowday (hells yeah). So I hope your happy I stayed inside for you!

krissygirl- Haha, I loved the review. Well, I hope you think differently of Dean, since he actually didn't do any of this to Hermione. It was all Lucius. Now who do you want to kick in the balls.

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