I am back!!! So, does everyone like my story so far? Like I mentioned in the Prologue there will be a couple of depressing chapters where Akane and Ranma will suffer, and this is one of them. I am not doing this because I am sadistic in any way, but because it will just be a lot more interesting that way. And yeah, I changed that summary 'cause that other one sucked, badly. Well, let the story begin...
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Ai Shite Nai Wake Ja Nai Chapter 1: I leave, but my love will stay forever.
Ranma drew a breath and stepped into her room...
He silently drifted across the floor to where her sleeping from lay on the very edge of her bed. She has already changed out of her western-style wedding dress into her yellow pajamas. Even though Akane looked serene, there was something wrong about the expression her face wore. It was full of contempt, which Ranma was more that certain supposed to be meant for him. Her tear drenched face however filled his heart with pity. No, that emotion was beyond pity, it was more of a sympathetic feeling that could have only been described as love.
Ranma surveyed her tear-drenched face carefully. He never realized how lovely Akane looked when she slept. Even the tears didn't cover up her beauty. She was just so... Unfortunately that thought never came, because at that very moment Akane's fist propelled straight into Ranma's jaw.
He swiftly dodged that punch and jumped back, afraid that he might have awakened her. However, there she was sleeping as peaceful as an angel. Ranma was unsure if it had all been an illusion. Either that, or Akane punched him in her sleep. If he was going to spend even one more minute in that room, he had to be careful. Poor Ryouga, he had to put up with that almost every night.
Ranma looked at Akane's face again. How could he have ever called that girl uncute? Akane wasn't just cute, she was divine. Of course, if she were awake, he would have probably told her that she was an ugly macho chick, but she wasn't. This was his moment and his alone and he had to make the best. By now, Ranma was almost sure that that was his and Akane's last moments together.
He sighed audibly and almost kicked himself when Akane groaned loudly and almost opened her eyes. "Ranma..." she mumbled in her sleep. Was she dreaming about him? "...No baka", she continued. He should have guessed, she was still mad at him. She had every right to be. Ranma heard somewhere that the wedding day was the most important day in a girl's life, and if it was, he was the one that ruined it. That proved he was unworthy of Akane. Akane punched the air again, and Ranma dodged the attack, but just barely. He was in no mood to spar, especially with a sleeping Akane. Deciding that more thinking will delay his chances to ever get out of that room alive, Ranma quietly placed his note on her desk without further ado.
There was just one more thing he wanted to do before leaving Akane. In the past, it was either interrupted by someone else, or it just wasn't real. Would it feel real this time? There was only one way to find out. He leaned in and gave her a soft and gentle kiss on her lips. Was he imagining it, or did Akane's worried expression changed for just a moment? It looked like a tiny smile entered her face for a fraction of a second, but it might have just been a hallucination. She rolled over, but did not open her eyes. Ranma smiled to himself, the warm feeling of Akane's lips still lingered in his mind.
He looked at the clock; it was almost 5:00 a.m.. Soon Akane would be out on one of her morning jogs. If he wanted to leave, he had to hurry. He soundlessly leaped back in the window and took one last look at Akane.
"Good-bye Akane", he whispered, "Aishiteru." He climbed out of Akane's window and quietly jumped into the next one, which was the window to the guest room where his father and he resided. Ranma ignored the loud snoring of the drunken panda and grabbed a small sack out of the corner of the room. He recklessly threw all of his Chinese shirts and pants into the sack and walked out of the room, this time not trying to stifle the sounds of his footsteps since his drunk panda father would not wake up even if a hurricane blew right through the window.
Ranma wandered through the house. He stopped to look at the dojo. Even though it was a disaster, it still reminded him of all the good times he and Akane had together. Like the first time he told her that her smile was cute, and why did she look so surprised? Was it because he knocked her down right after that, or because she was not expecting him to say anything like that to her? May be if he had acted differently over the year they had spent together, Akane might have grown to like him. But it was too late. Ranma sighed, and darted from the dojo without looking back.
He ran out of the Tendo household, out of Nerima. He ran faster and faster leaving the past and all of its memories behind. Heartwarming memories, horrible memories, memories of Akane, memories of his other fiancées, and of course memories of his curse. All of them seemed to vanish as he ran further into the wilderness. Ranma didn't know how, but he had to get to China one way or another. He had to find the Nannichuan. It was the only way he would ever become a complete man and finally have a clean conscience. With that thought, Ranma's running form receded into the night. He was gone. Gone forever.
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Sorry, I said that I would include the next morning as part of this chapter, but I thought is sounded a lot better this way. In addition, I just want to make one thing clear. When I said that Ranma's memories were vanishing, I meant it figuratively, not literally. His wasn't forgetting anything; they just didn't seem to matter so much anymore. One more thing, I will not be updating as much anymore, because my parents took my PC away. Please review and tell me what you think, constructive criticism is also welcomed.
P.S. Thank you so much for all of your reviews!!! They make me feel honored and overjoyed since people are reading my story.
Sneak Peak at Chapter 2:Akane finds Ranma's note, what will she do? And will Ranma ever come back?