AN: sorry if this is a little shorter than usual, but I had to end it here for the next chapter.

Enjoy, and don't hate me tooooo much.

From

Draguna

"Why do you want to die?" That question stunned her for a moment, before she answered.

"Because of many things."

"Tell me."

"There is too much to tell." Pan bent down and picked up her trousers. She pulled them on shyly, and looked up. He had his hand out to her, holding her tank top.

"I have the time. I'm not going anywhere." Pan looked up into his eyes, and didn't look away from them as she pulled the shirt over her head, and on properly. "I will always have the time for you. I love you."

Pan sniffled, and looked down.

"Aren't you mad?" her eyes were closed, and she fought back tears.

"Mad…no." Major held her shoulders. "I feel…betrayed perhaps. Confused maybe. But not mad." Pan sobbed as he pulled her into a strong embrace. "I just want to know why." He begged.

"I don't know how to explain."

"Then don't." at that, she looked up to him with confusion. Major placed a soft kiss on her forehead. "We are mates Pan. Words are not always needed."

"I don't understand." Major lifted her chin with one finger, and held her to him.

"You will. Now look into my eyes." Pan did for a moment, and saw his golden eyes gleam. She gasped and quickly looked away. "Pan."

"I can't."

"You can."

"What are you going to do?" she looked to him again, fear on her face. But Major rubbed his beak like mouth up one side of her face, and purred soothingly at her.

"I will see your reasoning though your own eyes."

"You're gonna enter my mind again. And my memories." Pan placed her hands on his chest, and looked up. For a moment, she said nothing. "Alright." She looked to his eyes once more. "Ok." Again they seemed to shine with the moonlight, and she could still see the tears there. She felt the sudden urge to wipe them away with her hands. But she suppressed it.

"And I will give you my memories in exchange." That frightened her. What was she about to see?

Pan felt a jolt through her body, and her eyes snapped wide open. It was like there was a laser connecting each of their eyes together through the pupils, and they didn't move.

Hold on my love. Hold on.

Then, it was as if the floor had left her feet to dangle there, and al light and life had vanished from around her. Slowly, his hands left her side, and she fell backwards.

Where…where am I?

Pan opened her eyes, and everything was green. What the hell? There was no air, and she felt like she was floating… AH! I'm underwater! I can't breath! She tried to move upwards, but she remained aloof in the liquid. She couldn't even move her hands. Pan started screaming, but it only echoed in her head. Oh my Kami oh my Kami WHAT'S GOING ON! Pan screamed again, and at last she moved. Well, she thought she did. She didn't try to, and she couldn't feel it, but her hand came up in front of her face.

That is not my hand!

The hand was larger than hers, had black claw like nails and looked a dark green in the strange water. Wait…this is Major's hand. Of course, dur, I am in his memory. She relaxed, and now knew why she wasn't breathing. Major didn't breath.

She heard a sound, and her eyes moved on their own accord to the noise. There, in his lab coat, was the Doc. She suddenly felt a wave of hatred flood through her. Or was that what Major was feeling?

What is that? Is it pain? My mate is in pain!

Ok, that was not her voice. But she knew who it was. It was Major. He was worried about me? She didn't think on it further, as another scientist approached the good doctor.

"Dr Gero, Project Perfection is acting rather strangely. The creature started to have a fit three days ago and now it is getting worse…we may lose it." Three days ago? Was that…after I left?

"We will not lose it you fool. He is just having an adverse reaction to…wait. Three days ago? This all started three days ago?"

"Yes."

"Three days?"

"Yes."

"Drat!" Dr Gero stormed around the lab once, and then looked to the laky. "Leave! Now!"

"Yes sire!" once he was alone he marched up to the tank and stared into it. Pan tried to scowl back, but remembered this wasn't her body. Though the hatred she felt now, was a little overwhelming. "Now you listen to me and you listen well. I am your creator and you will do as I say. I made you from your very atoms, your cells! I am your master and you will not ruin my plans to perfect my father's work! Not over that floozy!" Pan felt Major's body twitch, and she saw 3 different images of the Doc against the wall, with Major's hand choking his throat. "Yes I know you can hear me. I know you feel attached to the slut too!" He jerked again and Pan felt a need to escape. And she saw another image, a thought. she saw herself, in his arms. Protectively. Even now he wanted to protect me. "Yes, you can bare your teeth all you want. Because when I find that little turn coat, that little yellow bellied bitch, I am going to take great pleasure in sending her up against my firing squad and shout with pride…fire?" Suddenly, Pan wasn't in the strange water anymore. She was stood, in her green three quarter trousers and tank top, huddled with her back against a cold metal slab. Pan looked up, and saw the back of The Doctor, staring in horror at the tank. The tank, with green liquid in it.

The tank, with Major in it.

Gero stared into large, yellow eyes with demonic black slits in them. Cracks appeared in the glass and coloured water stated started to seep from the container's wounds. Gero had purposely riled him up to get him to react, and put him in his place. But he couldn't have predicted this! "No…No!" Gero turned to run, and she saw the terror on his face. But he fell to the floor after a splintering, shockingly loud echo of glass shards hitting the floor, sending him to join them. A creature's tail had shot out from the tank and impaled him in the back. Slowly, Gero felt his insides being sucked out from the inside, absorbed through the singer of the tail and fuelling his own creation. Pan whimpered, seeing the death like she was there. Like it was happening right now. And she watched as Major stood over him, his face blank with no remorse, absorbing him like she had wanted him to absorb her, only a few moments ago. "…Who are you?"

"Who am I?" Major withered away into nothing, leaving only clothes in his place. "I am perfection. Major…I…am Major."

And that was it. Pan saw his birth, and his first kill.

But what shuck her up the most, wasn't that she had seen him kill. It wasn't that she had almost had the same fate.

But it was the reason behind the murder.

He had killed Gero…for her. She was the reason Gero was dead.

"Major!" Pan whimpered, and sat bolt upright. She panted for breath, and held her chest with one hand, the other on the floor behind her. She was back, in the woods, by the lake.

Everything was so quiet…no birds, no running water, no squirrels or any other sign of life. Not even any wind.

It was all…quiet. "Major?" she called out, a little disturbed.

"Pan." She jumped and looked behind her. Major had been sat behind her all the time, Indian style. One hand held his chin in thought on his fist, the other on his knee. He had one gleaming eye open, and focused on her. "So…that is why." He said almost angrily. "You came to die, because of your family." She gasped, she had never thought how he would connect her feelings to her actions. Yes, he was right, but she didn't like the murderous look in his eye. "They pushed you into this." He closed his eyes completely, as if trying to calm himself.

"I saw you kill…" at that, he snapped his eyes open and looked to her. "I saw you…escape."

"Can you blame me after the way he threatened to harm you? After how he intended to use me for his purpose, for his father's purpose? In yet another way, we are alike. Others wished to control our lives, and live them for us. I do not wish to be a machine, on the every whim and beckon of humanity to kill, and destroy as they please." He reached out and held her hands. "And you do not wish to live the life set out for you either."

"But you killed him."

"For you."

"Exactly!" she shouted suddenly, and tears formed in her eyes. "He died because of me. You kill, because of me." She sobbed. "I might as well have that tail, as I am just as responsible for the deaths of…how many?"

"Pan-"

"How many!" she demanded for once, and Major hung his head forward. "Hundreds?" he didn't answer. "Thousands?"

"Millions. There were 1 and a half million people in Nikki town, South City, and Hercule town."

"…all those people…" she pulled her hands back. "All because of me!" she cried, and shakily got to her feet, and walked away from him. "Because of me…"

"I had to." He pleaded. "I did it for you, to be with you."

"And what about me? Did I ask for you to do that!" she stopped her foot down hard in the dead leaves. "Did I ask for you to kill all those people, for the single purpose to 'get me'?" she walked away from him, and stopped near the tree line, her back to him.

His heart was breaking… "I never asked for you to do that…"

"But I love you…"

"Then don't kill anymore and leave!" she wheeled round on her feet, and glared at him with teary eyes. "Leave me alone! Leave my family alone and leave me alone! No one else has to die! No one!" she wailed, and ran into the woods.

Major was rooted to the ground.

They had mated, used their bind to see into each other's past, and she had run away from him…she had wanted him to kill her, and then run away from him for killing others.

"Pan…my love…" he closed his eyes, and clenched his fists. "I…love you…I…I…can't live without you…" He whimpered, and growled dangerously. He then erupted into an all out roar of grief, that echoed through the trees and motivated the love of his life to run even faster. Distraught, he ran after her, jumping from shadow to shadow.

Pan cried all the way back home. She was glad it was in a straight line back home, as that is all she was capable of running. Forward, and not looking back. As soon as she breeched the tree line behind her house, she saw Vegeta in the garden, in SS2. He looked like he was about to go somewhere, when he saw her.

"PAN!"

"Vegeta!" Pan whimpered, and threw herself into his arms.

"Pan, oh Pan you're safe." He held her tightly, and stroked the back of her head. "You're safe."

Pan felt like her heart had been torn in two, flicked with salt, stood on, and then shoved through a mincer. But she pushed her own pain aside, as she cried in her Papa Vegeta's arms.

"No, You're safe. And that is all that matters to me."

Major was crouched in a tree, watching the scene. Tears were down his face, and his hands gripped at the tree bark with no mercy. He heard what she said.

All that matters to her…is that her family are safe. All that matters…nothing else… he closed his eyes, and forced himself to turn away as Vegeta carried her back inside the house. Nothing else matters to her…nothing… Then, his eyes opened with focus. Then nothing else matters to me than her, and her family's safety. If that is what matters to Pan, that is what matters to me. He dropped down from the tree, and looked longingly from the shadows to the house. Pan…I still love you…but you said to leave you alone. He took a deep breath, and hated himself truly. Then I will not come near you. You will never see me again…

And with that, he merged back into the shadows, watching over the house, which held the one thing that he loved. His mate, his Pan.