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SUMMARY: Lorne delivers Spike letter to Buffy

AUTHORS NOTE: I dedicate this story to slayer rock chick! Thanks for all your help and encouragement with this story…you rock!!!

Chapter two: A gift from a stranger

It had been a few weeks since Spike had written his letter to buffy. She had only just found out about Angels death, and although she was upset, it didn't hurt her as much as losing Spike. At the moment she was patrolling through one of the dark cemetary's in Rome, not far from her house. She had found out about Angels death from Giles, but no-one had known about Spike.

She continued walking absent-mindly, while twirling a stake between her fingers when she was knocked to the ground by a tall, cloaked figure. She quickly stood up again, ready to fight.

"relax sweet cakes" the figure said "I'm not here to fight, not big with the violence, I just came to give you this" he said as he handed her a yellow envelope

"what is it?" buffy asked him suspiciously

"that I can't tell you, all I know is that the person its from made me promise I'd give it to you, it was important to him that you get it, and now that you have, I'm going to go get me a sea breeze" he said, before walking off into the darkness of the cemetery.

Buffy stood still for a moment, staring at the envelope, still slightly shocked.

"Guess I'll go home and find out what this is" she thought out loud

When she got home, she decided to go up to her room and open the envelope straight away, rather than having a shower and getting changed, like she had originally decided to do. She sat on her bed and slowly opened the envelope, the amulet dropped out and she knew right away what it was. She picked it up and looked at it for a moment, before putting it down on her knee and reaching inside the envelope. She pulled out the letter, unfolded it and began to read

Dearest Buffy,

If you're reading this letter it means I'm gone…again.

I'm sorry that I left you, I know it's the one thing I said I'd never do.

When I died at the Hellmouth, the powers that be brought me back and sent me to L.A with peaches.

The first thing I wanted to do was come and find you, but I couldn't.

I always used to tell you that you were a creature of the night and that you belonged in the darkness with me, but you don't you belong in the sunshine.

You deserve the chance to have a normal life, and you can never have that with me around, I know it's not my choice to decide what you want, and I know I sound like Angel when he left you, but all I want is for you to be happy.

I want you to know that I am sorry for everything I ever did to hurt you, If I could take it all back, you know I would.

I wanted to come and see you so many times, but I had to stop myself.

Hearing you tell me that you love me was the greatest thing in my unlife, even if it wasn't true. I just want to thank you for that.

I love you, you know that I will always love you. I'm sorry

Goodbye my golden slayer,

Love always, Spike.

As she finished reading it, the tears that she had been holding back began to fall. He had been alive, he was brought back and he hadn't told her. Now she had to go through the pain of losing him all over again. She put the letter down and began to sob. Her tears fell onto the amulet that was still sitting on her knee, suddenly, it began to glow. The glowing light got brighter and brighter and the room began to spin. Then everything went pitch black. Buffy opened her eyes and tried to look around, but her vision was blurred, she blinked, trying to clear it, but it didn't help. She had no idea where she was, all she knew was that she was lying down on the ground. She put her hands out in front of her and pushed herself up so she was standing. Her legs were very weak, and although her vision was getting better, it was still slightly blurred.

Buffy turned around slowly, trying to figure out where she was. Then she stopped, standing still in her place. She stared at what was in front of her, unsure of weather or not it was real

"Mummy?" Buffy asked her, her voice barely a whisper

"Yes honey, it's me"

A/N: I hope this chapter was ok, what did you think of the letter? Please let me know…I'm addicted to reviews!!! I will update ASAP!