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SUMMARY: Basicly its the 'every night i save you' speech with a different ending

AUTHORS NOTE: I'm sorry for the delay, i know i said i'd update straight away, but i had already wrote this chapter and when i re-read it, i decided i didn't like it, so i decided i'd change it, and then a whole lot of other chapters came out and when i was going to post it, i realized it was 2am and thought i'd wait until today to do it...enjoy and let me know what you think!

Chapter four: Being Saved

When Buffy got to the cemetery, she stood at the door of Spikes crypt for a few minutes before gently pushing open the door and walking in.

Spike was down in the lower level of his crypt, pacing, when he reached out and punched the wall with his left hand. He pulled it out and saw it was covered in blood, and laughed.

He heard his crypt door open. He grabbed a knife and walked up the stairs. When he got there, he saw Buffy looking around.

"Buffy?" he asked, still not being able to believe he had her back

She turned around and looked at him

"You should be careful, never know what kind of villains got a knife to your back" he told her, she looked down and saw the knife he was holding, she also noticed that his hand was bleeding

"Your hand is hurt" she told him

"Hm, same to you"

"Right" she said, but this time she didn't put her hands behind her back, she didn't want to hide anything this time.

"Willow's getting pretty strong isn't she? Brining you back, it's hard to get a good nights death around here"

Buffy didn't say anything to reply, she knew she would have to do something about Willows over-use of magic, sooner rather than later, but not now.

"You can sit down, it's your furniture" he said, she sat down on his green chair

"You should see the downstairs to, it's quite posh"

I remember Buffy thought

"I do remember what I said, the promise, to protect her, if I had done that…even if I didn't make it…you wouldn't have had to jump. But I want you to know, I did save you, not when it counted of course, but…after that. Every night after that. I'd see it all again, I'd do something different, faster, more clever, you know? Dozens of times, lots of different ways, every night I save you" he finished.

Tears started to roll down her cheeks, Buffy remembered this conversation from the first time, but back then, it hadn't meant anything to her, but this time, it hurt, she knew what it was like to lose someone you loved and to save them every night in your dreams, she had done it when she lost Spike. He looked up, unsure of what to say and do next, when he saw her crying. He walked over to her and put his hand under her chin, gently lifting her head up to look into his eyes

"Sorry luv, I didn't mean to make you cry" he told her, mentally kicking himself for saying something so stupid to upset her

"Spike" Buffy said softly, so softly that any other person wouldn't have heard it

"You have saved me, I know you don't understand that now, but you have saved me" she stood up and wrapped her arms around him. Spike was shocked at first, but quickly wrapped his arms around her to.

He didn't mean to, but he started to cry, he was just so happy to have her back. He didn't care if she still hated him, or if she was betting him up, as long as she was alive.

but she's not beating me up, she's here, in my arms, holding me tight he thought

They both fell to the ground on their knees, arms still wrapped around each other; new tears began to form in Buffy's eyes as well.

She cried because she was happy to have Spike in her arms again, she never thought she'd get him back, but she had been given another chance, Spike had given her another chance, without even knowing it, he had saved her.

They stayed in each others arms for what felt like hours, until Spike calmed himself down and stopped crying. He pulled away from her and wiped his eyes, he was embarrassed about breaking down like that in front of her and absolutely terrified of what she would say next.

"Spike" buffy began

here it comes spike thought

"Thankyou" she told him, giving him a soft kiss on the cheek

ok, wasn't expecting that Spike thought

"Thankyou for always being here when I need you"

"I'll always be right here with you" he told her with a smile

Just like my dreams Buffy thought

"I'm sorry to say, but you're stuck with me, like it or not" He said

except in my dreams there was a definite lack of Spike sarcasm she smiled at him

"Good, um Spike, I, um, never mind" she stuttered

"What is it pet?"

"I can't sleep, can I stay here tonight?" Buffy asked, looking at the ground, praying to God he said yes

"Uh, sure pet, you can come down stairs, there's a bed there now"

Spike was more than shocked by Buffy's behaviour, but he wanted to do anything he could for her.

They walked downstairs and Buffy took her shoes and coat off and got into his bed, under the covers.

"Ok, you get some rest, I'll keep watch upstairs and you just call me if you need anything luv" he said, heading towards the ladder

"Wait" Buffy stopped him

ok, I know it's my first night back and all, I don't want to rush into anything, he's not ready to know I love him yet, but if he just holds me it wouldn't be rushing would it? she argued with herself

Spike turned around to face her, waiting to find out what she wanted

"Can you stay with me, just hold me until I fall asleep?" she asked him

"What?" he asked her, not sure if he had heard her right "are…are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure" she told him "please?"

Spike didn't say anything, he took his shoes off and removed his leather duster, and he walked over to the bed and got in.

Buffy snuggled into him right away, Spike had no idea what was going on. He was afraid to move, afraid to touch her in case he frightened her away. He heard her let out a small sigh and relaxed a little, he wrapped his arms around her and listening to her breathing even out…he knew she was asleep. He just laid there and held her, savouring the sound of her heartbeat and the feel of her breathing and it wasn't long before he to fell asleep.

They stayed in each others arms until morning when Buffy woke up. She felt the strong arms wrapped around her and she smiled to herself. She ran her fingers over his bare arm and Spike instinctively pulled her closer to him in his sleep. Buffy was perfectly content, she had thought about it and she knew what she had to do differently this time around. First, she would tell the gang about her being in heaven, get that out of the way, then she would sort things out with Spike, it would definitely be different this time, they would take things slowly and Buffy wouldn't hide how she felt about him, she knew everything would turn out alright. During the night she had thought about the fact that Spike no longer had his soul, but she decided it didn't matter to her, she knew Spike loved her, he had proven it to her many times.

She turned around in his arms so that she was facing him. He looked so peaceful in his sleep. She put her hand up to his face and began to trace around his features with the tips of her fingers. He was perfect, the cheekbones, the nose that she had punched so many times, the lips, the gorgeous blue eyes staring at her…

crap she thought as she pulled her hand away from his face. Spike looked down at her and started to pull away

"Where are you going?" She asked him, slightly disappointed

"Sorry luv, I didn't mean to stay here all night, I guess I fell asleep" he told her, hoping she didn't punch him in the nose

"Its fine, I wanted you here with me, but, that doesn't answer my question, where are you going?

"I just thought, you know, you wouldn't want me here now you were awake, I was half expecting a punch in the nose once you realized it was me who was holing you" he said

"Nope, I knew it was you, it was you I wanted here with me, and now that you mention it, I was thinking about laying off the nose for a while, I don't wanna do any permanent damage" she said with a smile.
Spike let out a small chuckle "good to know pet" he said

Buffy looked down at her watch

"I have to get back home before dawn goes to school, can you meet me at the magic box after sunset? There's something I need to tell everyone"

"Sure pet, I'll be there" he said, watching her as she put on her shoes

"Good" Buffy walked up to him and kissed him lightly on the cheek "thanks for last night" she whispered in his ear

Before Spike could reply, she was up the ladder and out the door. He was standing completely still, touching his cheek where she had kissed him

did that just happen? he asked himself

yeah, it did, but it wont happen again, she probably wont come within ten feet of me now, but it was worth it, God I love her he thought

"Bloody hell" he said out loud "that was strange"

Buffy walked through the cemetery towards her house, today was the day she was going to tell her friends about her being in heaven

bloody hell, this is going to be hard she thought to herself, and then laughed out loud at her choice in words

I really have been around him to long, but I wouldn't have it any other way she thought