Me: You cant just say that Tommy. You have to mean it.
Tommy: Jude I do
Me: if you loved me you would've been able to tell me anything.
Tommy: I didn't want you to get wrapped up in my problems
Me: if you trusted me, loved me and believed in me then you should have told me everything, you know what I gotta go finish signing autographs. Bye
I copied the little shrug he gave me the night he left and I went and sat back down. Turning to mason: sorry
Mason: you ok?
Me: yeah
After signing more autographs we went to an after party and stayed there until around 2am. We got back to the house around 2:45 and went straight upstairs. We were gonna go to bed but the two of us were just so wired so we just sat around in my room trying to keep quiet.
Mason: So miss country superstar…
I throw a pillow at his head.
Me: Hey it wasn't my idea to open for Faith and Tim
Mason: it wasn't mine either
Me: well anyways...
Mason: when did you write all those songs?
Me: well I wrote No One the night before I beat up Tom, Imperfection and Bleed I thought of on tour but never wrote them down they were just sorta in my head… everything just came to me.
Mason:…wow… and who's crying now was the night before I came?
Me: Yup…hey do you know what tom was even doing at the concert?
Mason cleared his throat and looked around the room: well… um…
Me: MASON YOU DID'NT!
Mason: Jude keep it down
Kwest and Sadie run into my room without knocking: What's wrong!
Me: It seems as though one of the people I thought I could count on the most told Mr. Quincy that I was the opening act for Faith Hill and Tim McGraw and thought that maybe it would be a great idea to invite him
Kwest and Sadie had guilty looks on their faces
Me: You guys knew?
Kwest: it was kinda my idea sorry
Me: Get out… all of you. Just get out
Sadie: Jude let us explain
Me: SHUT UP! ALL OF YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LEAVE!
Just then everyone else comes running in: WHAT'S WRONG!
Me: LET ME GUESS ALL OF YOU KNEW TOO RIGHT?
Si: about you opening? Or about tommy?
Me: THAT'S IT I'M LEAVING!
With that I grab my guitar and storm into the garage and get in Des' car knowing he leaves his keys in the car. I start it up and drive into the city and pull into the garage at one of the first hotels I see. I walk into the lobby and get a room. Room 139 will be my home until I can get a plane ticket out of here… maybe I can join faith and tim on the rest of their tour. I get into my room, put down my guitar and take off my skirt and bra and just sleep in my t-shirt and underwear since I never changed or had enough time to grab my favorite pjs. I crawl into the bed and fall asleep. After what only seemed like five minutes I awoke to pounding on my door. I look at the clock which reads 10:25am. Grrr. I grab the complimentary robe and throw it on as I shuffle over to the door.
As I was opening the door still asleep: This better be good.
I look up and see Tommy at my door holding two cups of starbucks. I grab the cold one which I know is a white chocolate mocha (w/ whipped cream) frap. I just slam the door in his face.
Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!
I walk away from the door and he starts pounding on it again giving me a headache so I walk back to the door and open the door.
Me: WHAT!
Tommy: can we talk?
Me: WE'RE TALKING! HAPPY!
Then I realize there is a little person standing behind one of his legs. I notice that cute adorable face so I squat down, I can tell she was a little scared.
Me: Hey Zoë… I'm sorry if I seemed mean… you wanna come in?
She just nods and I lead her in. I notice Tom tries to come in too but I stop him.
Tommy: Jude I'm not going to leave her alone.
Me: I thought you believed in me and trusted me
Tommy: I do but…
Me: but nothing
With that I slam the door on his face again I turn around and notice Zoë sitting on the bed still a little scared so I walk over to her.
Me: Hey munchkin
Zoë stares up at me with a smile on her face: That's what mommy called me
Me: my mommy used to call me that too but then I guess I got too big for her to call me that.
Z looks down and starts to cry so I pull her into a hug.
Me: Hey I didn't mean to get so scary earlier
Z: I miss my mommy
Me: well do you want me to take you home to see her
Z: she's gone
Me: what do you--- oh… I'm sorry sweetie
After a while of comforting the little girl I speak again.
Me: you know your mommy is always with you
She looks at me in confusion
Me: she'll always be with you in your heart, thoughts, and dreams
Z: she didn't say bye
Me: oh sweetie you know your mommy didn't want to leave you, you know that?
Z: yeah
Me: my mommy left me too without a goodbye
Z: your mommy died too?
Me: no she just ran away from me and my sister to a "better life"
Z: I'm sorry
Me: you know kid I thought I was supposed to be comforting you
Z: yeah well… my uncle twommy loves you
Me: lets not talk about him right now
Z: ok
Me: you know what will cheer both of us up?
Z: what?
Me: Do you like Peter Pan?
Z: Yeah I love Tinkerbell but captain hook scares me
I laugh: Don't tell anyone but I love Tinkerbell
Z: I know I saw your room
We laugh and order Peter Pan from the lobby. While we watching it we both cover each others eyes when Captain Hook comes on. Seriously I think this little girl is a copy of me. Halfway through the movie zoe falls asleep and I put my clothes back on as there is a knock at the door again. I open it and see Tommy.
Unison: Hey
T: Sorry
Me: No I'm sorry about your sister, I take it
Tommy looks down: yeah
Me: come in but be quiet she's sleeping
T: how did you get her to sleep so easily?
Me: I have my ways…
We both look at her with protectiveness not wanting anything to hurt that little girl anymore than she has. I lead him over to the balcony and we sit on the chairs.
T: your family and boyfriend are really worried about you
I laugh when he says boyfriend referring to mason, as my laughter dies down I get serious.
Me: well they should've thought about that before they did what they did
T: They just thought it would be a good idea I should've known that it was a bad idea… but I just really wanted to see you perform
Me: yeah… he's not
T: what?
Me: Mason… he's not my boyfriend… more like girlfriend
T: what are you talking about?
Me: don't tell anyone but mason's gay
T: oh that explains a lot
I look around: yeah
T: so I didn't know you were such a country music fan
Me: yeah well guilty
T: don't worry its my guilty pleasure
Me: Lil' Tommy Q listens to country?
T: yeah I know right?
Me: so why isn't mike so distraught… like you have seemed?
T: well Amy was my twin sister so we were always closer than her and mike, or with our other brothers… Ames was the only girl
Me: youre a twin?
T: yeah hard to believe selfish me could even share a womb with another person
We laugh and he tells me about his sister and before we know it has been about an hour.
Me: she sounds like a great person
T: she was… you know sometimes you remind me of her
Before I can answer we hear someone knocking on the sliding door so we turn and see his niece trying to open the door. Tom starts to get up but I motion him to stay seated. I get up and open the door and scoop up the little girl.
Me: hey sleepyhead… how are you feeling?
Z: better thank you Jude
Me: you're very welcome… its not everyday someone will watch that with me and cover my eyes every time you know who came on the screen
Z: its something mommy would do with me
Tommy started to catch on.
T: did you two watch Peter Pan?
I start turning a little red in embarrassment as Zoe nods
Me: yeah
T: let me guess you're afraid of Captain Hook and are obsessed with Tinkerbell
Me: guilty
T: wow two… no three peas in a pod
Me: what do you mea?
T: Amy was the same way
Me: ok little freaky
We laugh for a while and zoe sits in my lap
Me: I'm sorry Tommy
T: about what?
Me: my attacking you and beating you up
Z: you did that to him?
Me: guilty
She just laughs so I join her
T: Hey its not funny
Just as I'm about to answer I hear pounding on my door. I'm about to get up and hand zoe to tommy as he stands up
T: I'll get it
He walks inside and I stand up with Zoe in my arms and follow him
Me: its my room
T: stubborn jude
Zoe and I stick our tongues out at him and he clutches his heart. I make my way to the door but tommy beats me to it. He opens the door
: Hey T… what are you doing here?